complicated life....simple blog...

2012-02-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

so finally a new year..new start i guess..alot has changed..donno for better or worse..2011 has been..a turning point..looking back all the shit i gone thru..actually im quite proud to say been thru done with it..

summarry of 2011..new phase of regular life..jan to march was a chiongsua period as infantry trainee..quite an experience..march to june was a long wait for another chiongsua course to start..during this period i had a good long break..made some new friends..met her after so long..june to end of september was chiongsua again..that period was mentally shag as my encik always say "when u all pass out, whether ur gf family can sleep peacefully at night depends on you"..true to say..this is my job no one else want to do..i know alot people look down on me..but i advise you not to do so cos we are all the same..soo after that till end of 2011...im in my parent unit chongpang camp in yishun doing ops and keeping you guys safe..

right now im being posted to PLAB for another course till end of may..so maybe its another time to take a break from unit..stayout :D

so new year resolutions..been thinking quite awhile pardon me..

-driving liscene by june(8 lessons so far..)

-get a placing in a local uni( should have done that last year but miss it..hope to get into one)

-hit at least 22k saving this year

-revamp my room ( been thinking to buy a projector and table to facilitate my ps3 and gaming pc)

-own vehicle ( not likely possible depends on where my daily duty will be at)

-travelling to another country ( been on my list since last year,thinking of organising a solo trip to X country this year..depends anyone want to join me + if time allows)

-her ( long story cut short, last year there was her, almost got together but suddenly break.nevertheless thank you. i will find a better one and hope the same for u too)

talking about "her" i think i have a thing for malaysian girls..not to say..last year..donno what made me crazy..i express my interest to 2 girls and would like to be friends with them..ok this is crazy i know..1st girl failed instantly..2nd girl just recently only..but broke my heart when she told me she has a bf and sounded not interested..well normally in sg ppl dont do these very often? i donno..strangely both of them are malaysians so ya...

so i have been quite lonely other than gbc to accompany me for the weekends..my life has been dull since i enlist..im 21..going 22 this year..quite a old man already..still much to learn and never experience those puppy love like u see in movie or outside..even my friends in army who have gf outside are also having problem with their gf..not to say being a regular..guess its very hard to find a girl who understands ur situation but still is supportive of you despite the fact that both meet up very irregularly...i think the most suitable girl for me now is the one who can change me, my attitude. but i think its gonna be very hard given the fact im in SAF.

so to sum up..i thank u to spend time poping by once in a while, hoping i will post something..
to my all my friends - hope u are doing fine out in the working/studying world..dont belittle of urself, u are better than u think...hopefully 10years down the road if u get married must invite me ah!

2011-12-26T19:07:00.001+08:00

all i want for christmas is you

2011-11-27T17:28:00.002+08:00

you know what? i dreamt of you that we were together last night

2011-11-20T23:15:00.003+08:00

soo..finally another update after so long..

upades..pass out as 3SG le..more shit coming up..suppose to go back AFTC on 24 Oct for technical course...but dunno somehow..push back to jan..so lanlan stuck in 160sqn till jan..and ALOT shit has happen recently..

its not hate..is i feel the way people are mistreating me..im fragile pls..always talk so big when nothing happen...but when shit happens..first one to gabraa is you..

yea..i feel this 21 years of my life has been a normal one..fucking normal till im sick of it..i know no one can make a change except me..but at least give me some encouragement pls..if you are out to make life difficult for me..pls die far far..

im a slow bloomer i know..i learn things much slower so pls bear with me..cant take it just f off..i can slowly learn myself..

talk so much also no use..no one will see this..this blog going to die la..bye bye boys and girls

2011-09-04T12:42:00.002+08:00

soo..the time has come..2 weeks of assessment...im so gonna be shag out this 2 weeks..might as well blog now...after that 2 weeks..hopefully i pass out as a 3sgt

i failed my FTT!! argh..blame it on me cos i didnt study...no time really..10 qns wrong lei..how how..cui ah..

so..nothing much..book in 6pm tonight...sibei sians..

2011-08-30T16:50:00.002+08:00

so training in chongpang isnt that really bad..if u keep whining..why not accept the fact and face it like a man..

hmm..updates..physically i think i have improved but running wise can be better...always on the verge of giving up when running 2.4km 6 rounds stadium..it suckss...

long weekend going to be over soon..then pre-summex and summex then graduation..cant wait for that...its on a weekday 26th sept around noon like that..those who are interested can let me know..i see what i can do to indent a seat for you!

i feel ambigious...is it suppose to feel like that? i need a concrete answer..

2011-08-09T14:50:00.002+08:00

started training in chongpang camp..bunk at lvl 6..no vending machine..cannot go mess..canoot go canteen..bunk 8 ppl only 2 fan..everyday must climb up and down 6 lvls..good training bitches!!

so far i can say training is not really tough..i think tough part will be the theory shit cos its alot from what i see from the manuels..dam..cant wait to pass out and leave this place man..i miss aftc bunk lol...

so ya..happy national day..its a short week this week because of ndp...sometimes how strong a country is not only depends on the military forces behind it..i feel it also got to do with the people..how patrotic u are..that u love your homeland despite all this shit going on if u know what i mean..but sadly i dont see this in any one of you..

and..i really admire those gf who will spend time with the bf on time pass out parade..such girls are really dam sweet..i mean like you been thru so much shit and hell and the day u pass out she is there to tell you she proud of you you went thru so much...abit sad for me ehh

ok..tonight gonna book in..hope this week is a fruitful one..and hope to see u this weekend

2011-07-24T18:16:00.003+08:00

due to some reason..we still had one more week in AFTC..so tonight is gonna be the last night in AFTC..gonna miss the fun the slackness the massorgy in recreation room lol..going to chongpang tml..start of weapon term..

turning 21 next month...think its goin to be another bday like that..still considering want to open chalet not...so many things to do..lazy..but i want to meet all my friends..how how how...

this blogg like rotting alr eh..aiya..dunno dun care la

2 weeks yes..and i miss you

2011-07-10T12:03:00.002+08:00

finally last week was over...so tiring last week because of exam ippt and airtime...but im glad i learn something last week..

this week will be the last week in aftc...gonna miss the slackness here when i go to chomppang...hope the weapon phase will be a good one...

bored bored so bored...sunday so bored

2011-07-03T16:10:00.002+08:00

1 week has past like that...as ususal..life in aftc was not that bad..and ah soon has come to aftc too!! his bunk is just above mine! soo cool rightS?

whats is this feeling...so strange, sweet, makes me want more...i miss you :(

2011-06-26T14:40:00.003+08:00

so my trainee life have started..i can say now its quite slack because everyday is just studying and studying..no much physical only for pullup regiments before meals..other than that nothing much..staying in waas abit culture shock as i have not stayed in for like 3 months??

i dunno why but im starting to believe in horoscope again

weekend was fucking fast...i miss her everytime i walk out of that door..but im glad my precious time was spent wisely with her and she is willing to stay up all night for me...ssometimes i just hope time could just slow down that instant

booking in later..lots of stuff to bring in..fucking bulky...

2011-06-20T17:19:00.002+08:00

life has been happening recently..didnt expect the unexpected to happen..

so..my course is officially starting this wed..i expect myself to be very tired and stress then usual..cos i have to do commanders airtime next month..and i haven even started working on it..like the saying goes..enjoy while you can first..lol..

lets see my sheldule...friday book out..maybe chomp chomp with celestine they all..sat got 3 events ongoing at the same time..omgawd..dunno which one to go..sunday dinner with mami..:DD

hope i can meet u again this weekend
you are my sugar and i need you

2011-06-13T00:35:00.002+08:00

hmm..life been easy this week..looking forward to saturday cos im taking btt..and i pass!!! haha..ftt is on 3 sept..fucking far from now..bobian..closest date also 17aug..i in camp cannot take leave by then..GBAD trainee

yea...life has gave me quite a big surprise recently...really really happy to re contact my priamry school friend..as in primary 1 when im still living in pasir ris..met up with 2 diff primary school friends this weekend..hmm...what i can say bout them..definitely grown more feminine...and her character dam outgoing la..so funny go watch movie with her..like she own the whole theatre like that..im looking forward to meet her again lol

people around me still ask me..why so emo..dun emo la..i really dunno la..sometimes i dunno who i am..u know the feeling? have to fake it out..i really hate it...not i dont wanna change..but if i change..will anyone accept me after that..get it?

actually..you are amazing

2011-06-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

been happening alot stuff recently..let me recall man..i have super stm..

nvm..shall update u guys on the high key events only lol...blame me for my memory...

soons birthday! finally 21 bro...u are officially legal to do anything! dont break the law yo..lol..

celestine bday! finally ord bro lol..dont kaopei me ord lo..lol..good to have ur civilian life back..good luck to your future job and studies man..

i think ima crazy dude..just quiet...

been noticing my dad is getting older and my mum too..they dont seem so energtic as before...what can i do? i hurts me to see this..they are my parents and i dont know what to do..there must be something i can help them..

some friends are very fake...i dunno why but i start to hate them...that leaves me no choice but to desert myself from everyone...i feel better alone doing things..

boys and girls...hope u all will understand me..my sentence struture is very cui...really..i dont even know how to initiate a call properly...those wanna laugh say hurtful things to me carry on..i rather stay in the dark

k bye..just hope some will treasure me properly

2011-05-29T21:18:00.002+08:00

i need some pills..knife seems so pain

2011-05-22T22:15:00.002+08:00

alrite..this weekend was boring...but good eh..didnt spent too much money

sooo..another source told me i will be starting my weapon phase on 22 june..hope this time really is true..cos im tired of waiting and wasting my time away emoing and shit...i wanna to do something constructive!

so tired..really tired that i slept till 4pm today..its been ages since i slept till the sun is going to set lol

going out alone can be boring and self hurting everytime..i went to nex ytd to the library to do some research...on the highest lvl of nex got the pet store and the baby store..omg so cute sia the baby learn how to swim..i want a child of mine!! the doggy area also alot people watching the dogs playing in the enclosed area..dam cute laaa..and the open water park for children to play is so funny lol..watching kids kena owned by the big pail of water splashing on them really can lmao..

i see that you are not having enough rest recently because of work...take care yaw

2011-05-17T23:13:00.002+08:00

hi humans...im glad u pop by here once in awhile to check to updates..thank you

last week has been short..cos of the leave i took on friday and todays vesak day lol..

soon's celebration was ok..happy birthday to him again!! 3 more months from today and im 21..and i have not achieve quite alot of things..

let me think what i have been doing lately..yea..first time to club on friday..yea..i know...its abit crazy over there..and i accompany my friend there..did went to the dancefloor for awhile..but my body doesnt know how to groove to the music..so in the end just step one side..damn awkwward

and ya..wtf is wrong with fund transfer on the atm this few days..i owe liang hao money still cannot transfer to him..dam...

watch 2 movies on 2 days straight..i like..beastly and priest was nice..though beastly was better than expected...i really enjoy ytd and today...

yea..im thinking of getting a dslr in july or august..what do u all think which dslr should i get??

so..20may is not the start of my course eh? i seriously hope it wont clash with my taiwan trip next year...

deep down i think no one ever thought of me..im just a "hi bye" guy..cant it be more? stupid of me to believe what happens in love story cos it wont farking happen in singapore..maybe other countries might

if i could stroke you to sleep i would
if i could be always there for u i would
if i could hug u and say everything will be ok i would
if i could hold your hand swing like a little kid i would
if i could tell you what is it like when i cant see you i would
if u only give me ur attention

but problem is always myself..
fucking think so much for fuck
i know its dam sweet to think of this
but its not within my reach
stretch my hands too far will only make me fall again
ok someone will kan me again lol

blah blah blah..i think im turning bad to worse..hope u are not reading till now cos those that i want them to read my blog most probably wont read..so if u are reading..i want to say i need ur attention..it means alot to me

kthxbye

2011-05-11T22:30:00.002+08:00

so...i heard my course will be starting on 20 may..im posted to guns..which is the oldest weapon from gbad..but i still dunno why they post me there..whatever it is..im all ready for the action im going to face in weapon phase which is 3 months..

life has been crazy this few weeks..whole of singapore eyeing on adjunied becos workers party is fighting for it..weather has been a bitch lately..fucking hot..even at night..its must be a sign from above to tell us something..guess most of u never thought of this eh..

i have been trying to learn to put on contacts lens..i can put them on..but dunno how to take them out...lmao..i will keep trying

been wasting alot money on movie and entertainment recently too..well since no one wanna pamper me..i should pamper myself right?

also spent quite alot on family insurance recently..bought fire safety stuff to put at home..just thought of it cos u never know when a fire breaks out yea..
and also open another prudential saving plan recommended by eugene...gonna save up for my children mainly..whether i gonna have kids next time or what you know..

i dont know why but i have a strong feeling my 21th bday this year gonna suck my balls

2011-05-03T21:45:00.000+08:00

nabeii fucking emo

2011-04-25T20:27:00.003+08:00

updates..nothing much happen recently..lets see

yea..gratz ah soon pop..and he got posted to ocs..up there one..what more i can say..good luck to the training there though im never gone thru ocs..but i believe its much tougher the scs..just endure..after that u will feel the pride after 9months..being commissioned by the president

sometime i was abit busy in aftc because of the coc parade last week..did alot of physical work..setting up the sound system is a bitch...substaining the volume..bass..treble..all these headache...but hey..its a learning experience for me..i did learnt quite alot during last week..how we should work together as a team to make things work..

and yea..i got drunk on that night lol...dam scary..next morning wakeup totally cant remember how i got home..really balls can shrink..but it proves something..im a lousy drinker lol

yea..bliss is relocating to cheng san cc like tml..had a gathering last night despite i have to wake up at 545 today...drank a little..bbq a little...talk a little...much much memories left there..i love all the cute people there..layyen jeolyn and many more..they so cute la...but hard truth is bliss in pungol park is gone...im afraid our friendship will go down with it...i just hope 10 years down the road if i see you..you will still acknowledge me..aww..i do not have individual photos of you and me to upload..i hate this ending...

2011-04-06T21:30:00.002+08:00

you know what
all this while
ive been disappointed everytime
maybe i think too much and you think its not the situation
but all the time
even by just letting me know whats happening around your life
it will give me a boost to push on, brings a smile to my dull face

many man like me will experience the same thing as me
but at least they feel at the end of the day
when the sun sets
they know there will be always a woman behind giving him motivation
and feel a warm snuggle in their heart
while me, i feel unwanted

the point is : im officially missing you
bet you dont even know

2011-03-31T22:12:00.002+08:00

im sure this picture you all have seen it these few days...some say its photoshopped..some say theres nothing wrong with this maid carrying the fieldpack...what i think is this soldier should carry on his own la...soldier alrady should know what to do in the civilian world..really brainless...

this weekend should be fun..friday dinner at bliss with gbc...sat going to book BTT lesson..layyen you book already?? sat night deshun 21bday...sunday go baibai...i want a 15hour sleep! sleep till the sun on my backside!!! can i??

doushite?? i cant seem to concentrate well..i feel distracted..my mind is wandering...the feeling is welling inside me..same old feeling...dam gao wei..someone please knock me out...im so mentally drained

you are no ordinary girl

2011-03-29T21:50:00.002+08:00

if you think reading this is a waste of time and theres no point reading..i advise you to close this browser

recently it comes to my attention that serving NS is a waste of time..and those who serve NS..which 99% mostly are guys like me..are being look down, neglected on...ok..maybe its only me..stbm

but let me get 1 thing straight to your head..while I am serving my time in NS..there are alot things I learn but its classified..I am DYING to tell you what is happening inside my life..what I am really DOING inside army..how army shows me the importance of defending my land, YOU and my family...what are the reasons to hold the rifle and what I could do to protect YOU

while I am serving my time inside..every book out I am DYING to see you..sad truth..half of the time we do not have time...I really treasure those small little time I get to see you..be it a deliberate or unintentional meetup..

I have to say army made me think slower..rather think only one straight way...stupid is the word to descibe...maybe thats why my north has changed

maybe this effect is just only happen to me because I am not super yandao...I am not some big muscle hunk or some super korea hongkong drama actor..I dont care how others compare me...I just want you to interact more with me..or at least acknowledge me

whatever..my blog just full of emoshit..private blogging ba

2011-03-26T16:34:00.003+08:00

this week in aftc was not so bad..OTOT work out all the way...next monday report to GBAD school..hope it will still be as it is now..i wanna buff up for GBAD

watch sucker punch ytd..dam awesome..hot girls with weapons kicking ass..but abit unrealitic la..kena whack by one giant robot still wont die..but anw..i rate it 8/10..

i want to let you know what im doing everyday...but whats the point eh..my command is english is already very jialet before i enlist..now its below worst..plus i dont communcicate well..heart and body have a mind of their own man..

weekend just is so fast..one blink and gone..seems like i have no time for you

yea..bliss is going to be relocated at AMK CC next month..that place sucks..but what i learn from that place for the past 2 years+..or what i experience..its only once in a life..i made so much friends there..made me realised so many facts and mistakes..from that day i left that place..i miss my friends there...i hope we can remain in contact and meet up even bliss is not in pungol park...you know that dont you?

we have grown so much..you have grown so much..looking back at the photographs which seems like yersterday...you might think you have never changed..but in my eyes..you have grown more matured...this applies to everyone..you may look at yourself at the mirror 365 days everyday..but through out the months of the years...its the people around you that watch you grow..watch you experience life..i rather be a guardian..watching over you from far..

whatever it is...i think i have to change for the better...time is the challenge as usual

2011-03-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

reported to airforce school on wed...hmm..life there is like going to school like that..very slack lol..but i think only my vocation is the most xiong.."the commandos of airforce" is what they say la..i see people do pullup in sbo sia..dunno i can anot..army aside..since no one really reads..whats the point yo..

i can say from friday till today im sorta enjoying and torturing myself..thanks celestine for being there for me from friday till today..really gbc sia we all..meet up with katrina for dinner on friday..next time let me treat! why always snatch bill from me?!! lol..watched midnight movie battle LA..nice show..alot action..u people should go catch it

random faces of you appear at random time of the day in my mind..doushite

met my tuition teachers who taught me chinese 10 years ago..man..im so glad they still remember me..im really touched dao...

sometimes if we were to meet each other on the street 10 years later will you remember me? cos every smile of yours brings back those memories we had in the past

lmao..5 more months im 21..i want to have something big! who want to be in my event committee?

seems im having a good life...actually not..inside i feel empty...i needa some colours..some sparks..or even some trouble also can..i feel so empty

k..time to rest..for another week in aftc..8-5 ftw

2011-03-14T17:13:00.003+08:00

so..i have passed out from scs foundation term..28km route march was a total bitch..slightly more tiring than the 24km one..cos we walk in the forest..like nothing to see..and also its like fast march..with fbo..knn..almost want to fall out..but since everyone is going thru it together might as well stay back..

yea..right after i pop-ed..the next day reported to airforce school..lucky my oc good let us leave till this tuesday..if not i confirm shag cannot think..lol..i wonder what its like life over there..what i know now is i this wed got 1 week 8-5 for me..cos got airman orientation..so shioks

life just boring without certain people

2011-02-27T12:31:00.002+08:00

2 weeks in camp is totally hell...lack of sleeps plus tiring activity everyday..fieldcamp is very fun..just that the regitmental part is sucky...fieldcamp here is better than tekong..we live near the expressway..everyday can hear car zoom zoom pass lol..ex. wanderer was also fun..though i carry the signal set whole day..need to comms back to hq to check on our status incase someone is injured or we are lost in the jungle..but luckily we manage to navigate our way thru the thick vegetation and come out successfully lol

wow..coming to say that time has past..2 more weeks im out of pasir laba and heading to aftc..sort of miss the times here..though my platoon encik is the ocs type while other platoon lepak type..im still proud to be in platoon 1

im still lost i conclude

2011-02-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

as usual..tiring week this week..but next week will be worst..outfield outfield again..nvm ba..after that 3 more weeks then pass out already..tough times dont last..shant talk more bout army stuff

i feel so tired every bookout...everyone has someone something to look forward every bookout..i just got nothing..go back sleep on computer..whats the problem man..

whatever..tml going out with bliss peoples..hope its gonna to be fun..cos i wont be booking out this week..14 days in camp..disappear again lol

2011-02-05T12:52:00.002+08:00

cny week was boring..though i get to go out unlike last year...but still..i find it boring lol..didnt manage to sleep for 10+ everyday cos used to the sleeping timing already lol..i didnt really get to rest properly these few days cos im restless..finding things to do..and so i have wasted 1 week of leave just like that..ccb

whatever..from now till end of this month..i think im gonna be fucking busy in camp...all the high keys come in 1 shot...live firing..UO..OD..fieldcamp..navigation..and the dreaded 10km exercise wanderer..so fabrury is a busy month for me..

not to forget valentines..which im going to spend it with my rifle my buddy in the muddy jungle this year..how sad..even if got valentine also can do what lol...

sian manz..ppl book in tml night..i book in tonight cos got duty for tml..why cant time slow down when im outside...

gotta plan for myself for the next 5 years man..what i want to do after 5 years..what i want to achieve during and after 5 years..i know somethings i comfirm already have in mind..just need to put it to action

ok cya guys..have a great cutie bunny year..wish all my family and friends stay healthy and fortune be on ur side..huat AR!

catch me if you want to

2011-01-30T10:21:00.002+08:00

tiring week this week...live range again..navigation..omg i got lost twice in the jungle lol..serious shit how am i gonna pass my navigation test sia..totally lost yes lol..

ippt got silver! wOOT! 100bucks credited to my bank..shiok only..now i must maintain this standard man..

emo week yea..book in today book out tuesday...happy cny all

2011-01-23T12:25:00.002+08:00

first week in scs..dam im missing my bunkmates already...life here is more relax then tekong..but the expectations is much higher...cos the daily activities is run by us..not the enciks..so if anything goes wrong..we are going to get fucked lol..

foodwise is lagi worse..tekong food is much nicer than here..food here is like cui..5 6 plus company squeeze in 1 cookhouse...so the queue is totally wtf..im the suaykia..im attached to mike company..most of the people here are from cougar coy in bmt..only me and some of my friends here..and im in diff platoon as them..dam sian..but so far im getting along well with them..actually they are very funny lol

everyday routine is run run run till u shag..dam..our pc siao on..other platoon run 3km we run 6km..wtf..but its good for my 2.4km so i dun mind la lol

ippt im just 1 more pullup awaay to silver!! $100 will be credit to my bank if i get silver for ippt this week man!!! must push myself...

so far doing good in scs..but i think shit will come in coming weeks..confirm de la..lol

cny is just so near..and i have yet to buy my new stuff! cui man

guess i have no more time for anyone in the future..i just hope u will remember me

sorry for anyhow typing..cos sortof in a rush yea..very little time...wish i could split myself to two..

2011-01-16T14:47:00.002+08:00

this week is very fast..but i did really enjoy myself thru out this week...

guard duty on wed night to thursday morning...haha..was very tiring but fun..cos we are laojiao alrady..chek lol..

ya...posting was out...surprising alot ppl i know got into specialist cadet school scs...only 1 person in my bunk went to ocs..power la...hmm..new life in scs...i will be attending for 2 months of basic section leader course then posted out to 6 month of airforce unit...hope to see familiar faces tml at scs man..

and talking about im posted to scs..which is at pasir laba camp..fucking far end of singapore..and i have to bring everything back there..oh mai gawd lol..lucky my uncle is kind enough to send me there tml...i hope theres no confinement weeek in scs man..

and my contract..yea..im officially a regular tml...dunno what made me sign the contract..but i feel its the right path for me man..since i done it...i shall make full use of my time this 5 years...

k..gonna figure out stilll got what item not prepared..like alot sia!!

in the early evening march
with nothing on my back
with an aching in my heart
and my body got no sweat
come a long long way from home
and i miss my lover so
in the early evening march
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
i know i know
u have to go
so hurry back home
cos i miss you so
i know u know
i have to go
so hurry back home
cos i miss you so

2011-01-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

time pass very fast when there is holiday..thats sad..

last week was very tiring..tedious..everyday GP rehearsal till sunburn..powerpack..the SSM dam funneh also lol..lucky the vetting on wed we pass..if not they activate thursday for us we honggan...

POP 24km march! was a fucking killer man..although we did not march on tekong..which has more rocky and rough road to walk...it was still more or less the same..somemore it much more longer then 24km i think...on that day..we had lunch at 11am..lepak lepak..dinner at 3pm..lepak lepak..then head out to ferry terminal le...start the march at 6+...tell u..we walk 1 whole big round around changi airpork..then right turn to the NSRCC at the start of ECP..walk the whole stretch of ECP..left turn at fort road...1 whole fucking round around the constuction site and the golf course...1 endless road to the benjamin shear bridges...walk across the bridge and some distance to F1 paddock...lmao..i write too detailed liao..hope it doesnt bored u..

settle down there only had 45min for me to change uniform, eat breakfast, and take a quick nap..after that..we headed for the floating platform..finally everything is paid off..it doesnt really matter if the 24km had caused sever abrasion in my groin and waist..im so going to do this a 1 time good one for myself...

blah blah blah..finally pop...ate canivore buffet at vivo...dam exp..dam nice..dam full..the food there is good..chicken heart is dam Q wor..lol..

eaten alot junk food these few days..back from section bbq..failed lol..cos of rain..in the end microwave the food..hahah..but we had fun so its still ok..

guard duty the wed..12hour..fuck..must go back to tekong just for the guard duty..somehow i really feel i have bros with me in my section..i kena guard duty with my buddy..then 3 more other ppl in my bunk volunteer to do with us..what more u can say...we are brothers in arms~ lol

ok..i have signed on as ADSS..hopefully i can get in on the results on friday...good luck on ur postings everyone! ciaoss

when can i really see you

2010-12-31T01:31:00.002+08:00

this week is dam lepak..games day whiskey finally win!! overall champion for school 3 games day..although i didnt take part in the games..i still feel proud im in whiskey!

POP is just next sat..its gonna be a long night 24km march..and graduation parade is gonna be a test of endurance...after that canivore buffet with celestine..woo! not enough sleep ftw!

knn wear helmet cannot think ah?! lol ps ah..keep repeating the same shit every post..got alot thing want to type in..but last minute all forget..pardon me if anyone is reading

1 more day to new year..what can i expect for myself in 2011? only NS..if i manage to become a airforce regular i will be mentally drain for this year but much more money to spend..if i manage to get to command school..i will be fugged for 6-9months and posted to some unit if i pass out successfully..if i get posted to be a man..i think i will cry lol

new years resolution? really cant think of any...just want to be more healthier this year..more money to spend..hope to travel this year...make moar fwens...find my other half..

wish all of u have a healthy and fun 2011!

2010-12-26T14:58:00.004+08:00

merry xmas everyone! lol this girl so naughty go bully the dog

this week in tekong was rather not say xiong or slack..just tedious..drills drills drills everyday...knn draw arms everyday go parade square do parade..in prepearation for drill competition and the graduation parade...drill competition i think we have a low chance to win cos of our bmtc roar was not fierce enough..didnt manage to make the ssm balls shrink lol...viper coy roar was wow!! nice

and ya not forgetting the final ippt...i finally fucking pass! so happy...pullup i did a standard 6..not chao keng one ah..dunno how i manage to do it..just have to pass thats all i was thinking..hope i can get into command school

i also express interest to sign on as a airforce engineer..pay is good..lummpsum is attractive..stable income for 5 years..somemore its a field i have study before..hope the interview goes well..but thinking of the 5 years..yea..i waste 5 years of my youth..5 years when i can spend the time going to furthur study..watever it is i just need some moral support

watch tron finally! wow..dam nice...worth watching

christmas this year was very different from last year..not so happening for me...didnt want to drink cos i dun want my body to be weak for the 24km final march...maybe after pop jio me drink lo..

today book in..wed book out..how awesome right!..think i gonna stay at home as im broke..lol who is kind enough to come up and pei me..

saw this on online forum..knn so funny yet so true..

where is the love of my life?

2010-12-19T00:59:00.002+08:00

this week was fucking shag..monday night 16km routemarch..7pm till 1am+..dam tired but also fun..first time i really enjoy the journey with my buddies..all the singing photo taking seesion..now im left with the 24km POP march WOO! im dam determine to complete this cos this time we will be on mainland..where all my family and friends hopefully supporting me...13sept till now aint no easy road...ive seen shit..been thru shit..and now back bigger and stronger...coming to think of leaving tekong...i kinda miss there cos its really a chalet compare to unit life..also im gonna miss all my crappy buddies who have helped me thruout this few months..im really grateful..lets treasure the last few days together peoples

btw ppl..soon is in tarus company..same as his star sign..very near to my company..but i have yet to see him lol..have a phonechat with him on one night...just hope he will hang on there till his first bookout..dun worry bro...when the going get tough..the tough get going..

but nevertheless...im gonna shout out 2 MORE WEEKS TO POP AND WE ARE SO HAPPY AH! LMAO!

knn i think ns has a negative impact on me...i start scolding vulgarity..browsing fhm..wearing same clothes for 6days..lmao..we are the lowest lifeform..nobody loves us when we are holding guns while all we need is just one to hold on our hand, ask how is this week in tekong, go out enjoy on my bookout, play a simple game of monopoly, stay out late talking with me, stroke you to sleep and many many more i could think of lying on my stinky bed in tekong..im really is sorta going nuts despite the festive mood going on and POP mood..maybe thats just my life..too bad so sad

army aside..i have yet to watch megamind, hairy potter, rapunzel(some say its awesome), tron..hope coming bookout can go watch with friends...

my timing reach liao..buay tong..going to sleep..tml early bookin..looking forward to this week in tekong oh yeeah..night sinkies

2010-12-12T10:13:00.002+08:00

finally all the high keys over!! woo! live range was a total bitch..2 days shoot untill 2am+..dam fucking tired...but i got marksman..sadly dun have allowance cos still in bmt...sittest 12km route marrch and 6km fast march..12km was a killer man...fast march too..but overall its much better than fieldcamp..except that our basha flooded because of the rain...but that night was slept in training shed! how cool eh lol...i had fun in sittest man..doing things i never thought i will never do..

now only 4 more bookouts to pop..im start to think wats my ns life ahead..i thought of going to command school..but thinking of the shit i have to go thru again..im still considering..but whatever posting i got..i will do my best in it

talking about bookouts...now dun have sat bookouts!!hahaha..only friday and i remember got 1 bookout is on a wed cos of holiday..shiokness siol!!

pop on 8 jan at marina platfrom! i cant wait!

2010-11-28T13:42:00.003+08:00

omfg..i cant believe i survive last week fieldcamp lool..anyway..all i can say i still cannot believe i can pull it thru despite all my injuries all over and the harsh condition in the jungle..well done to myself..sortof feeling funneh when i came back to civilisation cos all i see everyday is trees and mud lol

cannot book out this week end cos of sitest..which includes a 12km route march and 3 days outfield which also suay suay happens on sunday..so sad..i just hate outfield esp when its rainy season..kena bite by leeches mosquitos..sleep in mud..eating dirty food..but coming to think of that..its quite an achievement eh?? lol

my left foot still hurts alot..just hope i can pull thru this 2 weeks of another busy week..

chirstmas is very neear already! but i stil dun have the mood to look forward to it sia..dunno whey

lastly..good luck to soon for his enlistment..hahah..dun worry be happy...its will be fun :D

2010-11-21T11:44:00.002+08:00

this week is a lepak week..book out on tuesday night and friday night..activities were loosen down abit..although we like run almost everyday lol..run till my knee pain sia..urban ops on thursday was fucking awesome mans! route march 6km i forgot to wear double socks..resulting blisters on my toes and heels..dam pain but i made it thru

next week gonna be a start of hell in bmt..once again..its just any other soldier have to pass thru..8km route march to campsite..this time must remember to wear double sock!! i predict that this week will rain alot..which means im gonna do everything in mud..oh well..everyone going thru this together..lets make the best out of it..i will hug her so close to me when i sleep so no one can take my precious away from me LOL

i have yet to watch megamind wtf..maybe later gonna watch alone at amk ba..see got time anot..

i wanna drink after all my high key events are over..its always me myself and i..i have to watch over my health...

thinking whether should i siao on anot

!@#$%&*!@#

2010-11-14T14:39:00.002+08:00

tiring yet eyeopening week in tekong this week..haha cant talk about army stuff here so if u wanna know come ask me..i just cant wait for field camp to be over man..seems like it will be super shag like dog

recently so many slashing case in singapore..wtf..serious shit..kids nowadays wtf they thinking sia...gangsters..or are they even gangsters in the first place..gangsters in singapore is useless..fuck sia..take chopper anyhow chop ppl..in public playground somemore...if someone dies..they should be hang..fuck sia..dam hot..foriegn people come singapore study take cert and fly back happy happy..singaporean slash singaporean...while we nsf still wonder why we stil have to serve when all this shiat is happening...knn

enough of rants...ytd went out with them till morning..dam tired sia...but still ok..at least i got to see them..know how are they doing with their life..but after that very sian liao la..the route i always walk home reminds me of the shitty past..

good news of this week is i get to book out on tuesday night cos wed is hari raya! but most probably will be resting at home ba..this week training sheledule very xiong...alot runs and longer route march plus urban ops which i looking forward to.but i think after that cannot book out cos fieldcamp after that..good luck to me ba

i wannt to have more muscle!

2010-11-07T11:10:00.002+08:00

4 days in tekong realy pass quite fast..just the way they do things is very draggy..headache still there for the past week...realy dam pain..everyday eat panadol...eat until i can taste nothing in the food i eat...went to see polyclinic ytd to check on my health condition..did a blood test to make sure im not dengue...yea..heng..result says im not dengue..but the doc say my blood count lower than normal..need more iron lo...eat the medicine they give..feeling MUCH better...hope i can fully recover and carry on with the training this week

and ya! this week is the start of BMT..more discipline are expected from us...22nov is fieldcamp date...pray pray dont rain..

and goodluck to those enlisting tml and tuesday..it will be fun de la..every singapore son just have to go thru this phase..its a fact for u to accept...cos u are a man

i want to have fun can?

2010-10-31T11:56:00.002+08:00

this week was shit for me..sunday book in fever..monday book out...tuesday night book in again..fever still there..thursday fever then gone..but headache all the way until saturday..totally awfull the feeling i can say...didnt participate in any activity this week...very sad cos i can only watch my friends chionging together while im sitting at 1 corner watching them do..hope this week my headache will gone and back in shape to work out...

this week thursday book out! woohoo! im so happy! but after this book out bmt liao and mostly sat book out liao..cannot meet friends much as often

last week of ptp phase...time really flies..seems like yesterday...bmt phase starting soon..hope by the time comes im ready for whatever shit has to come...

abit on civilian life la..i miss out quite a number of movies this week..so maybe this week can jio me go watch movie ah...long bookout woo!

i think i should get a new shoe and wallet for myself..both like very cui liao..got holes and tears..next pay!

that space are just meant for myself

2010-10-24T16:34:00.002+08:00

this week was abit better than last week..route march was much better than the previous ones...though there were 2 night trainings on 2 days..still we managed to get pass this week

almost fall sick just now...vomited breakfast out..temperature abit high..scared sia..i dun want att c miss out alot training..plus got ippt this wed..took panadol and had a nap..feeling much better now

i think i miss out alot of urban stuff...like new songs..local foods..what going on in people lifes..makes me abit outcast..

no surprise no hesitation no regret no doubt

booking in at a later time today..have more time to rest...still feeling giddy...k take care people..everyone seems to be sick

2010-10-17T11:22:00.002+08:00

physicaly and mentally tired this week..route march is a total bitch..and some integrity issues in our platoon made us mindfucked by our pc..almost confinement..whatever

caught reign of assasin ytd..not bad as expected..later going massage and pizza with bros and book in..standard routine..boring..my life is boring

k bye cya all next week again

2010-10-10T16:09:00.002+08:00

shitty week in tekong...ippt im satisfied with the results except for pullups...can do only 1..2.4run very happy cos got 10mins..previously i got 13min :D...

book out on sat noon..later bookin..dam sian..like no time to organise activity...this week hope can friday book out..hopefuly!

2 route marches this week and tons of physical training..i shall pass this week with full of motivation for the book out! jiayou everyone!

realised my brain thinking process really slow down quite abit...lol..whatever

hopefully this week book out can watch movie meet up with my friends

also blood donation this sat! anyone interested im really happy to have u to join in..only me and carson currently..anyone anyone??

k time to pack and prepare cya coming weekend

2010-10-03T16:41:00.002+08:00

due to time constrain..think i will blog once a week whenever i can

this is the way we found
even though they'll let you down
nobody’s perfect now
don’t let that hold u down
lets stick together now
we got to stand our ground
its easy to believe in
believe in u and me
one love

2010-10-01T09:14:00.002+08:00

firstly happy birthday to these 3 girls! happy birthday lol

finally im enlisted.what can i say about the 2 weeks confinement week? it was eyeopening, tired , tired and more tired. lifestyle inside is complete diff to civilian life. my sleeping and wake up time has already changed alot. i met alot new people..from diff walks of life..some ah beng some chaokeng king some IT hacker some talk cock king...but still i can get along with them well...time pass really slow at first...but after 1 week time pass very fast...

everyday we have at least 3 physical training..it doesnt includes the 5basic exercise we have to do everyday we wake up..everyday we also have to do pullups...good thing is my pullup is improving lol...tired is the only word i can say..but as long everyone is in this..we shall pull it thru together...do it once do it good

integrity is important i can say..pls dont sabo the whole platoon or whole company even..like come on..i dont care what you are last time..what you do last time..we in this together..im not forcing you to do anything against your will..pls dont carry the bo chap attitude la..pls pls i cannot tahan already...ok bye

ok whatever...i gonna enjoy my bookout before bookin..so if u wanna meet me text me!

2010-09-13T02:07:00.002+08:00

cant sleep properly for the past few days..alot stuff running in my mind...first thing first..tml im going to be enlisted...yea..keep repeating for so many times..its another life changing point i u anyone else have to face...dont worry about me cos i will do fine..

catch up with quite alot friends past days...took quite alot pics too..with my hair lol..maybe next time if book out can compare the difference yea?

ok..i willl not update here mush as often due to ns..so i will update on twitter...more live feeds...so catch me there for those who want to know whats going on in ma life

i will just say bye bye with my fav final year project and attachment song

2010-09-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

Take the time to make some sense of what you want to say
And cast your words away upon the waves
Sail them home with acquiesce on a ship of hope today
And as they land upon the shore tell them not to fear no more
Say it loud and sing it proud today

And then dance if you wanna dance
Please brother take a chance
You know they're gonna go
Which way they wanna go

All we know is that we don't know
How it's gonna be, please brother let it be
Life on the other hand, won't let us understand
We're all part of the masterplan

2010-09-01T01:17:00.002+08:00

yea..not much happening in my life these few days or weeks..got myself i new member to my "happy" family..some might say im stupid..i dont want to care what others look at me anymore....im going to hopefully enjoy the last few days with me myself as a guy who is going to be a man after that...

some few things i want to say but will only be mention somewhere else: thats for me to know and for you to find out..blehhh

start of a new month..and a new life begins in 13 days..and 6 days for carson..hope i will have a nice buddy and good sergeant when i go in ns..all the best to those who are enlisting this month

if those walls around me can talk..they would have so much to say

2010-08-22T22:51:00.003+08:00

memories are there for 1 purpose

jamming is like so cool lo..just play loud loud only..lol..i dunno how to play the base..abit out of place..but overall its aawesome ttm

caught expendables today..dam nice gore...power pack action movie...had a good seat in cinema so didnt sleep lol

this one for the lions fck yea...

im proud to say that my mind is overclocked to 1000Ghz and 24/7 online..but processr running at a high speed for long time will get burnt de..can anyone just hibernate me?

whateva...around 3 more weeks to enlistment...what can i say more about NS after hearing endless stories told by my friends...like u all said.."if i can survive u sure no problem" soulja let me say BRING IT ON

im so into britpop now...pure brillant...its my winston red...

i just feel awkward about some situations now..really can jamm there

2010-08-18T05:28:00.003+08:00

firstly...thanks for all the wishes and presents and surpries and all who came down and celebrated my birthday with me at bliss...really cant find words to describe how i feel or speak...just a big thank you to you

went to bras besar with rena jong92 jinyu and her classmates to a restaurant call timbre which has a gig performing there...awesomeness...never see live band in my life before...but the bad weather spoil everything...really made me so wanna see oasis live concert in singapore...but i know thats impossible..sadds..had a little beer than we went back to hougang...haha thanks for the small outing though the weather is bad

went back to bliss got a big surprise lol...lol..so many ppl siol..haha..thanks for making this happen..i rreally never got surprises in my life before..so i can say this is the first and the best hahaha..

drink a little eat a little also...thanks alien for the pasta and carson for the drink...

then to plaza pool l4d..l4d abit not fun cos only 4 ppl playing..im getting lousy at pool lol..must jiayou

ok..later 630 still gotta go out..hope my daddy minor operation goes well!

and happy birthday to my little sister! hope u will excell in ur A lvl and get into a good uni...this year 18yo must more sensible ah..know whats right and wrong...

lastly..i hope the best in life for everyone i know especially a certain few...hope all things will turn for the better and let this flame of ours never burn out

i hope my birthday wishes will become reality..i dun want to be drawing circles again

2010-08-15T23:29:00.002+08:00

watch salt and last airbender..both shows very nice..but just dont like how they ended the movie..went out with jeolyn and eugene caught airbender...then prawning...very headache...think cos is the new specs not yet used to...

ok peoples...sunday take off ah..jio-ing ppl go watch the expendables...must watch!

and also avatar 27 aug got special edittion come out..also must watch

oh me gosh...im so gonna miss my blankie and bloster when im in tekong

quote from a movie i found it quite nice

“Moral fiber. So, what is moral fiber? It is funny, I used to think that it was always telling the truth, doing good deeds, basically. Being a fcuking boy scout. But lately I have been seeing it differently. Now I think moral fiber is about finding that one thing you really care about. That one special thing that means more to you than anything else in the world. And when you find her, you fight for her. You risk it all, you put her in front of everything, your life, all of it. And may be the stuff you do to help her is not so clean. You know what? It does not matter. Because in your heart you know, that the juice is worth the squeeze. That is what moral fiber is all about.”

so take it

2010-08-12T02:17:00.002+08:00

Sorry to all bros and sis to angry and worry me..whatever it is..I only post it only my private blog..so lol..we cool k?

Didn't go anywhere during national day..rot at home...brought my little cousin to my grannys house..kids are like angels and little devils lol..sometimes they can be so guai and cute and funny but sometimes they can really piss u off like doing something in public mrt which embarrass you..but also funny in a way lol..thank god I'm a angel from kid till now lol

Went up to my granny house with my little cousin..man she is really getting old..as in forgetting things..I really hate rich sons locking up their mother in a elite bungalow or condo cos i think really unhealthy for old people like her la...yes condo can have swimming pool big tv everywhere aircon..but have no friends..then keep thinking which grandchild will get married first..and alot alot etc stuff if u know what I means..when I grow up I want to earn big bucks drive a European car and live in a ordinary at least 4 room flat with my parents and wife..if my life is good

Been watching alot funshion online movie recently..dam inspiring sia..castaway is a fucking must watch though it's quite old...I think I still stuck on my own island for a long long time..it's my choice and will whether I will be able to get out of my island..right now I'm waiting to die..but I promise you give me something and I will make it my direction to work for

Lol why type so long..no one also will read de what is it..to conclude..I really haven been sleeping well these few days cos I'm miss u all and all those things running in my head..but I have learnt..sometimes things are just ment to be like that..and forget about what happen in love stories happily ever after..it's your own movie..you are the lead actor, director, scriptwriter. You decide how your story gonna go and end..and the most amazing thing is to have someone who is watching your movie all the time

IMY nights

2010-08-08T19:03:00.002+08:00

Finally downloaded starcraft 1 to plAy...yes..the epic game...what else..I don't have a life now and spend me time nua at home lol

Did a néw pair of specs with jeolyn on sat..dam funny la I wear that specs..gonna collect them next Sunday

Last night went prawning with bliss clique..first time so many ppl come I like!! Omg lol we almost caught the super big big prawn like 4 times!!! So wasted and sad man.. Overall we caught alot prawn and eat

Do you know how I'm feeling right now?

2010-08-05T21:38:00.002+08:00

ytd went out to tcc eat as i owe someone a meal..lol..everyone got fooled by me stupid...overall..i feel alot warmth ytd...thanks ppls

i really really realy want to go genting or somewhere overseas before my ns or what..but i like dunno wheere to start..sho moody

backtrack...my back is really really want to break like that..cannt bend or what..workout 2 days only now like that..so weak me...legs still ok..but still cant feel the strain..

ok baibai

2010-08-04T01:25:00.002+08:00

There is nothing for me to emo about
There is nothing for me to worry about
Then tell me why I is like that
Reason: I'm lazy to do anything or I'm just born to be like that

Whatever people are getting affected by me and I know that I will keep away from everyone..

So I will create a private blog for myself to do whatever I want

2010-08-02T04:15:00.005+08:00

this words in purple font describe my not emo stuff....so if u are tired of my not emo stuff skip and scroll down to read the normal fonts post

what will u do when u are already so lost in ur life..and u found something that can give u faith motivation..and suddenly because of 1 issue u dont want to see it again..thats what ima feeling naoz..now that game had effing piss me off..whats worth my rage..hai..dun wanna talk bout it...just feel so lousy..everything and everyone is avoiding me

now that i have lost my game...what can i do for the last 1 month 13 days as me...beside working out...i need some faith and directions...

and also the fact that im going 20 soon and ppl needa sort of advice me...i once told myself im here to lead not follow...i dunno what other adjective can furthur describe my uselessnees...

been thinking alot bout ma life for the past few days...what life is like 4 years back then..when i was still sec 4..i feel the seed of my character now is somewhere in sec 4...not because of a girl bgr stuff...i just cant remember..fmlttm

finally..i quit bliss..really sad to leave that lousy place with awesome people who changed my life for the past 2 year+...last week of work was expected...runner all the way...whatever..xgjh...i want to thanks all those people working there who have been helpful and cheerful despite the environment is harsh and sucky...u know who u are...thanks for the times u help me when i was running up and down like dog...thanks for the times when i was drunk and u stood by..thanks for all the laughter and nonsenese we had during work...thanks for the times when i insist dont need help and u just help...thanks for all ur cutie pie smile which melted moi...okkkkkkkkkkkk whatever it is..i just cant bare to leave u all but i have to...this last month is very important...to me myself and i...you..and all changed me...i know u know can already'

whatever i know alot words are left unspoken in my heart..but if u know whata i am trying to say...or how u feel after reading..please just kindly accept my feelings for the first and last time...i just need u to feel..no needa talk..

side track: inception is omfg inspiring...to die is the only wake to come back to reality...it feels like god to be in a dream..where what u always desire happens..and u can do anything...but is the you in your dream same as the you in reality..if u can be the you on both world..then u are truly living your dream..

so just let me end my super long post with this song...just listen and feel

You know I'm a dreamer
But my heart's of gold
I had to run away high
So, I wouldn't come home low

Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they're always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone

Take me to your heart
Feel me in your bones
Just one more night
And I'm comin' off this
Long and winding road

I'm on my way, I'm on my way
Home sweet home, tonight tonight
I'm on my way, I'm on my way
Home sweet home

You know that I've seen
Too many romantic dreams
Up in lights, fallin' off
The silver screen

My heart's like an open book
For the whole world to read
Sometime, nothing keeps me together
At the seams

I'm on my way, I'm on my way
Home sweet home, tonight tonight
I'm on my way, just set me free
Home sweet home

2010-07-29T17:29:00.002+08:00

i dont know wadafak is wrong with me these few days..."come in come out come in come out" is what i feel...sory if i attitude anyone...i needa sort of my thoughts...humans are evil..if u can be selfish for so many times..why i cant be selfish for just 1 time..i rather be a animal..

anyway i will be leaving that place call bliss on friday..so be it

2010-07-24T15:42:00.002+08:00

work was shiat last night..just very tired after work this few days..dam

just sick and tired of ma life

my own life starts next week

2010-07-23T15:45:00.002+08:00

what to say about this week..same old shit..work sleep play...good thing is my body clock is slowly adapting to normal timing..so late sleep still can wake up 9am+ these few days..got improvement

happy bday weijian! hope u enjoy urself ytd though we didnt go according as planned...heypi jiu hao la hor?

someone posted in fb say there is no brotherhood..end of the day u still have to face the battle alone...yes..true...but it is brotherhood that help u along the way..makes u strong and gives u a belief..something worth fighting for..something u want to protect...

kao..why everyone like that...i think i will hold on to my defender for the last time..i feel better there

2010-07-18T20:01:00.002+08:00

work was justxz so shitty for the past 2 days..alot new staff and alot customers...lan lan...wasnt feeling really good last night..home after that..also didnt go market as i sick...the feeling is very awfull...dam..now having diarhoea and i feel like the end of the world DAM!

ok...despite im feeling super awful now i going to update u all also...sat blood donation with carson chien wan amanda me lol...chien wan vein too small cannot donate...amanda surprisingly can siol!! and donate even faster than me...she very brave! thumbs up!...meet up with jeolyn for dinner at bliss before work...slept for 1hour only..lucky i woke up suddenly because i thought of the incident last time in my dream lol..had a dam nice dream last night...dreamt of i still in my older primary school..loyang primary..then last time i primary school recess time always race with my friend see who first to reach canteen....then we run run run...run to north vista secondary de canteen siol..lol..then i woke up again..

im still growing...but i strongly believe i will pwn so badly once i reach the required level

hes awesome tell him about it uh huh!

bastards always win the other way round..or should i say bastards always gets the girls

2010-07-16T15:35:00.003+08:00

updates updates~~ gbc for the past few days this week..and yes i mean really gbc lol..sunday watch despeakable me and pizza hut and massage on tuesday...like so shiok massage...been eating alot alot food also..like non stop only uh..wed buffet at pariss..dam i think my tummy coming out liao...finish 2 bottle of chivas with kon also on wed...nop..no one got drunk lol...sho much happenings sho little time

thinking of getting a netbook for my sister bday...which is the day after my bday..omg another burn in my pocket next month

after like 2 months of intense training..i think by next weekend i gonna achieve what i want

blood donation tml morleng...hope i will not almost faint like last time

sho bored..juzx sho bored

2010-07-11T04:27:00.003+08:00

work for the past 2 days is full of shit...dam epic busy on friday night and abit less busy last night...dam my attitude on friday was shit also..sorry all..smash a plate in kitchen and smash a housepour red in front of cindy...but it is really really really dam busy..so busy until bar want to break le..watever...played aeroplane with carson and weijian after work..dam fun..i like!!...today abit slack..but still busy..ok..nothing much happen...

why my character is like that...i smile laugh to others ppl thinks im crazy not funny..no im not trying to be funny or crazy..its just when i look at you it make me wanna smile..how cute u are..how funny u are..i dont think why i should hide my feeling cos thats how i work...i hope like that also can help us like cheer up someone...most importantly how special as a friend u are to me..ok

ok..off day today..gonna watch despicalbe me later with celestine...no we are notch gay boy couple!

2010-07-08T11:16:00.003+08:00

Ytd was suppose to meet jeolyn in town to buy ah kon present..fall asleep in waiting and let jeolyn go town alone and so many ppl call me.. I'm sorry jeolyn..sorry

Celebrated kon birthday after work last night..as usual drinking time..some nasty stuff happen dun want say much..and yes I cried like shit because I couldn't take it to see him like that...but thanks to those who help out last night...

So much shit is going on.. I kinda blame myself for all this shit

Let's roll yaw!

2010-07-07T10:04:00.002+08:00

haizz...didnt manage to wake up ytd as i was too tired to move...i mean i really didnt wakeup ytd...slept the whole morning afternoon and night..exactly 12am then wake up..phailed..didnt do the card..and now im still in the mist..hate it

wat i did for the past 10 hours?? watching online movie fb forum-ing...all the material in ma sister room dun want disturb her sleep lol..think i will just stick the photo on the paper and write le..no time..

bringing my mum to hougang mall eat later! sorry mami didnt wakeup lol

later noon town with jeolyn to get kon present! hope i can be on time to go bliss eat then work lol

tonight is the night to get HIGH man!

she's out of my league..nice show go watch it

2010-07-05T02:59:00.002+08:00

today work was busy..very busier than friday and sat...help jeolyn clear handicap toliet cos got customer want to use..in the end use normal toliet..but seriuos wtf..sho many things can squeeze into 1 small space..power..work with layyen was always sho fun! haha thanks for colouring ma life..

although sometimes work is fuckup dulan cmi cui watever u call it...but we still make it through together right? hope we can treasure my last moments here friends

k gonna make a card for kon later..think i will be going around getting ppl to write something on the card..if i can finish it on time..

im surprise that i can actually get 21 ppl to kup ah kon present..happy la..can share dun need shoulder the burden on myself...but feel abit bad sia..like forcing ppl to share..hai.and i was abit rash to buy the nano last week..he always wanted a itouch..now i feeel like refunding it and get itouch..dam...or i should just give him mine =x

2010-07-04T17:00:00.002+08:00

Had been drinking after work for the last 2 days..anyway happy birthday to Amanda!! Lol she dam funny when drunk..power..work was slack for the past 2 days..been spending alot also..prawning after work last night...didn't caught alot of prawns..not on form uh..everyone left early and left only layyen Jess me...cab home and sleep

This week is another power pack week!!

2010-07-02T08:55:00.002+08:00

Last night work was effing dulan..work at deck key..no ic..who the fuck suppose to led..no one..so key lo..already dam busy cos of function last minute rain and late crowd..I see some ppl still idling like waiting for punchout..ppl at outdoor calling I from deck see no one from outdoor go attend..have to fly from deck and outdoor and clear the mountain in food trolley..really no sense of urgency..really scare ppl from deck run bill cos last minute rain and alot late crowd ppl come deck and go off so fast..lucky everything went well after that..It's not already the first time I work seriously want to push everything outta ma way..feel like slamming every single thing into customer face..I dunno I still can take it the last month here anot..but I know for sure whatever fucking story rule law management say I will not stay when I say I want to go

Ok long story lol..can't sleep because of that.. Later going out to get presents!! Woo ima Santa claus now! But this Santa is poor..any fundings?

2010-06-30T17:46:00.002+08:00

Last night had an awesome night! Got my ax belt! Woo! Makaned at bliss! Celebrated Marilyn's birthday at bliss! Happy birthday! Went to plaza pool and l4d! Played 4 maps! Woo! So tired but shiok..sad to say ytd xianglong last day..gonna miss working and joking with him..sad mans..so many ppl leaving including me in a few months time

Whatever it is..dun be sad..u guys are great ppl..really..I will treasure the moments here for the last month here

2010-06-29T01:35:00.004+08:00

LAYYEN BIRTHDAY IS ON 10 SEPT!!!!! I REMEMBER K?? dont draw circles on wine cellar le

work was effing boring today..totally lost mood when i tio aim..sian..

tml tml tml! woo!

just read in forum about ns life..its like going to school...just that u learn military stuff...whole process is really self discovering...its just the regimentation that sucks...hmm..i forgot whats the feeling of going to school like...i mean really going to school..like first time in primary 1...ur parents stand behind the gate say bye bye to you..lol..nah..i should not worry so much..life isnt life if u know whats going to happen tml rights?? lol

2010-06-28T17:30:00.002+08:00

Ytd didn't go market as was very tired..gbc outing was a success..walk around plaza sing..play at arcade..and the buffet was nice!! Lol..pro sia the food throwing chef..caught toy story 3 again!! Nice man..very sleepy..go home straight after that..

Another shitty week again..with only tml off and working 6 days..I bet it's going to be a boring 6 working day..oh well nvm..tml makan again :D

2010-06-27T04:49:00.002+08:00

Today caught toy story 3 with katrina..dam touching I tell you..our memories live in our toys ppl..treasure what you what now...

Today work is fuxked up..ok I think everyone also dulan..so I dun want say more..closing no fucking staff on floor..alot customer call here and there..no this no that..really want to cry..sorry xianglong jeolyn if I attitude u all..just cannot take it..this place is so ducked up but all my friends are with me together in this..I shouldn't be so selfish anymore

lepak awhile with them..nothing to do..sent jeolyn and kon home..thanks ppl cheering me up..haven had such a good chat with kon on the way back..haha I feel blessed to have them

now slacking with Carson and zhon Hao and my house void deck lol..using Carson iPhone to blog..power..

Gbc outing tonight! Hope I can enjoy myself!

2010-06-26T05:46:00.002+08:00

last night work was boringgz...flaming lambogini after work! power ranger LOL!! burn my throat sia..buay tahan..off to plaza pool...had alot fun with them woohoo!! and my beloved ipod hanged on me! very sad =( now trying to revive it..hope she can be back to normal

this world is filled with assholes and bastards..i fucking hate it when guys like table 70 make fun of girls..dam dulan..why do this kind of ppl exists...really no respect for ppl...whatever..

toy story 3 later..hope its nice and i dont sleep lol

2010-06-23T11:24:00.009+08:00

just finnish packing my room...super satisfied as i clear like 3 big bag of junks i collected for dunno how many years...and also rearrange my desk to a position where i can view my movie from my bed...lol..

some pics to show u what i have dug out from the golden mine

who has more order pad than me??!!

very shuai rights??

nah...recruit BY now..sad

and also ytd my dad counted all the coins i collected for like 6 months? 200$ sia...so much lol..gonna give my mum help me save..lol..

nothing gonna get in your way if u truly have the determination

2010-06-21T23:03:00.004+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/this_urban_jungle/397078/guy_goes_down_on_both_knees_and_apologises_to_girl_in_public.html _on_both_knees_and_apologises_to_girl_in_public.h tml

2 pieces of wtfisthisshit new made me cant sleep

KIDS nowadays are getting wtf
getting inked is a trend in KIDS
mediacock brainwashing KIDS head
casino sucking everyone money
gahmen still do nothing and add more "law" to suck more money

seriously i really want to FUCK this KIDS up but i also worried for them..like comeon..in this era we living in..we already ourself have a hard time keeping up..what will be the future for them? singapore really is stinkapore somehow...u see all those yaya ADULTS held their head up like peacock? guess this is a singapollution happening for a very very very very very long long long time...

KIDS cant get what they want when they are little..promise to themself grow up will make alot money no matter what method...and when they did it..they start pushing those who didnt did it and those who were not in their league...and those getting pushed around promised to themself they will not let their KIDS suffer like them...argh i wrote a ppiece of crap here...whatever im so pissedd

ignore my languge for my bullcrap here..im just so pissed and worried for them and the future of the society..fi

i forsee in the next 10-20 years life will be hard in singapore..life expense goes up..salary still same...BUT life must still go on right? with u awesome lovely people around =DDD we will get thru this TOGETHER!

2010-06-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

today had a small outing with sec friends..caught a team...like finally lol...dam nice and funny..pro sia the ending..must watch..pool and l4d awhile then home...ALWAYS HAVE A PLAN! lol

dam..tml will be another 5 working non stop week for me..tired i could feel my eyes closing now

i want ice cream aagain!

2010-06-20T19:18:00.002+08:00

FinAlly got my super long day sleep..but I'm still sleepy! Off today and tml..thinking what to do later..I feel I need to strectch a little cos my whole body is aching like hell..

Ok whatever I just wasted 1 day like that..and i'm lying on my bed now lazy to move around..wapby

2010-06-19T16:58:00.002+08:00

Last night work was uber fun with all my fav ppl..guess only weekends are the most fun for me..weekdays are like so dead..dunno what I doing ytd..pour erdinger all bomb..broke hoegardden glass..had prata at ave 8..thanks Eugene lol..

I want to play nfsc!! Anyone got the cd can lend me??

I wanna do sho so many things suddenly.. But I dunno where to start

I need a massage.. Badly

2010-06-16T23:47:00.002+08:00

today had a bad day with myself..firstly..woke up at 5pm and realise i work at 6..chiong to bath then half way thru dad shout to me " ah yang ni shou dao xin liao!" i still half awake bathing dun understand what he say..come out see the letter..like wtf la..kan pua sian..14 sept enlistment..super fast..totally no mood go work..

and at work today food runner...wah..i dunno why so suay..got a small sharp glass piece poke into my shoe..poke thru the sole somemore..then pierce my foot...dam pain got blood sia..uber suay..

and today i also kena shout by customer from indoor..table 8...i walk from outside going to kitchen this guy shout at my OI!!..dam tulan..then keep shooting me why his food haven come..i tell him i go check again..maybe coming liao..then in the end is i cover up other ppl mistake by taking the blame...im so tired of this..i work here not to be fuck by customers and U..yes..it will be better if i leave bliss at end of july..i will be the best for me to rest and train up for NS

just realise world cup brings singaporeans together lol

2010-06-16T02:41:00.002+08:00

today work was fun and fuck and fast and furious lol..deck with yulin and 2 statues lol..thanks yulin for pei-ing me till 11 and give me good advices and even get gan by that stupid table 59..totally nb that idiot..want complain complain la..we also huamns lei..u want sit let u sit ah..? CHEK!

and and louis 13 was SOLD to a random customer who walk in..power ranger la...but i think he is clever cos louis 13 now market price at least 3k+..bliss sell 2218 only..somemore the liquor already there more than 9 years..

tml HOPE i can wake up on time go movie..hope la..working 6 again..sianss

im so vunerable to so many factors

2010-06-14T03:11:00.004+08:00

Updates updates..been having alot fun after work and till just now..omg so pain money just keep flying..whatever it is..thank you guys for being so awesome! Although I is super tired la..new hair color with layyen I like!! Omg 300gram prawn is so big..ben jerry phish food in 7 elevEn is like water lol..karate kid is awesumz!kungfu lives in everything!

suddenly realize I gonna miss out alot things next week..

thanks for never giving up on me..yes you and all

2010-06-12T16:57:00.002+08:00

Last night was boring..cos of the world cup...requested to go off at 12..play pool with jeolyn at plaza..we draw ok?! I also not bad lo.. Lol..kon came for awhile then we went off le..

Guess tonight will be the same..see how it goes..

I feel like a pig now...dun want to sleep at night and create trouble for people instead..and owe someone 2 meals..chek!

2010-06-11T11:54:00.002+08:00

Definitely had an enjoyable night with them..happy bday again liang how!! Hope u enjoy ah though we were keep playing game and singing k..abit seng..slept till 11 wake up..open laptop then PI CHA sia!! WTF so sian now..actually want to trade it with another person and top up money..but now like that I tell him cannot le la..kan pua sian..and my pes stats letter come Liao too.. Pes b..and ah soon also same as me..is so sian de lo..guess my time as a civilian is almost there.. Ok shall stop ranting off to sleep again

疯狂的勇敢

2010-06-10T17:45:00.002+08:00

ytd was super tiring..no energy to do anything..ya..all my fault..why say here in the first place..slack with them after work...pool then home..sleep sleep till 3pm+ wake up...headache siol..how to drink tonight..

i might get my new pc on sat woo!

keep dreaming by..dream on

2010-06-09T10:59:00.002+08:00

so dam piss with everything..now i know what is terrible moodswing..i dun want to hear see anything!! dun blame me if i push everything and everyone awaay.. fuck fuck fuck...

2010-06-07T02:21:00.002+08:00

slept till 5pm wake up chiong down to work at 6pm..nb..today is really dam dam dam dam dam dulan...QC ah!!.6 come in already dam dam dam dam busy all the wayyyyy till 9pm then cool down...somemore 4 ppl put aeroplane at the same time! wtf..have to cover their asses and put more shit in our work...was food runner somemore..fucking pisssed..non stop sia kitchen...and tio kp by alot ppl..like i never do my job properly...already put in 101% and using my spare battery to run everywhere without dinner..really feel like dropping everything and just run away from everything..really really really appreaciate those who keep helping me out on the way even though themselves already dam busy...and thanks mr hock for the tower and pizza!..guess once in awhile drinking in this kind of event is good...really i understand somehow..

ok lol...so long post of rants stuff...sho tired now..sleep sleep

2010-06-06T08:47:00.002+08:00

Work for the past 2 days was tiring but awesome..had alot fun with my friends..talking cock..l4d..pool..limpei!! Lol so funny amanda..really had alot fun with them after work..just disturb only lol..magnum for past 2 days also..power ranger!! Thanks friends for making me feel alive again..

November intake receive letter liao! I haven get..better la..dun need go national slavery...work more for uni..

I need a purpose aim focus in ma life like right naoz!

2010-06-04T16:10:00.002+08:00

Work was alright last night.. Payday finally..abit little lo..gona scrim and save this month...had fun at plaza last night..pool l4d...after that whole body aching sia..dam hard to walk..now just wake up still pain..how to survive tonight..

Ishush

2010-06-03T14:24:00.002+08:00

wasted trip to alexander hospital ytd...nb sibei dulan..dun want say..but i can say no more checkup for me..think is just wait for letter le..

very tired after ytd wasted trip..slept at 9pm+...had a nightmare lol...i dreamt i was sleeping and i heard "SCHOOL 1 BLOODY HELL FALL IN NOW!" then i thought real one..jump up my bed and realised it was a dream lol...anyway..all the best to all my friend who enlisting this week..so many ppl enlisting man..

still very sleepy after so many hour sleep..headache i say..headache make me wana sleep..back pain somemore..whatever..working tonight cya all

2010-06-02T12:45:00.002+08:00

Last night went out to celebrate Celestine bday at bliss..haha..had fun talking and listening to Celestine and yulin ns story..then send jeolyn home and then home..so tired even I did nothing ytd..dunno why

later 320 still checkup..I so dun feel like going..waste time..stupid stinkspore elite always use money press ppl down..I hate them..

K Ima useless and disapointting yes

2010-06-01T18:41:00.002+08:00

requested go early ytd as very hungry and tired..ate gourmet sausage at back...waited for celestine to come down lepak..pool at plaza..2am leave le..later going to meet them again..

went out alone shoppinh..not shopping..just window shopping lol

cbox is back and working..stupid spammers

hiccmuh

2010-05-31T01:19:00.003+08:00

today had a boring meaningless day..wake up chiong to work...so boring at work..no one talk to..no one entertain me..so sad to keep thinking i work alone...makan and homed..

im really dunno why im troubled over small issues...im too concern about small little stuffs..why are there always problems in our lifes..see..these arent really problem if u think why there are problems in our lifes..just take a small step everyday...give yourself time..we are still young..dun have to be like that..

ok..enough..time to make time for yourself

2010-05-30T06:28:00.002+08:00

today is a boring day..everyone no mood i also turned off..after work everyone charbok..lepak at 401 while xianglong they all...then only me and kon go plaza l4d..steady..going market nows..i don want let daddy go market..

sian..they are just so evil..i really dam dulan..comeon..u are nothing without us

also...dunno what happen to everyone dunno what i can do...just hope everyone will be fine

this says it all

2010-05-29T16:15:00.002+08:00

Last night was sent home at 10..dam bored..waited for them to end work at 2..in the end everyone also no mood..lepak at kon house then go home..my back is dam pain

lifes a bitch..I shall not speak more from now..it seems I'm so useless

2010-05-28T13:45:00.002+08:00

Last night work was hell..machiam like weekend...nothing to say..l4d after work..power ranger...stomache pain sia..cough until there pain...

Home alone now... Cook pasta!

I dun want anyone to follow my footsteps..cos I'm not much good of a brother, senior, friend...how can I be a better person

2010-05-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

last night work starting was very very chiong..put me in deck with new comers...and sho busy lohs..order i take key i key setting i do..buay tahan man..then 730 jeolyn and the rest came in i go outdoor le..tired siol..coughing non stop...l4d after work...versus i like!

and this is so epic@!! stoopid emcee

k gotta prepare for work..1am sia today..cya all laters

2010-05-26T02:25:00.002+08:00

Ytd night drank with xianglong and soon..like finally luh...Kilkenny and draught like very very light..not nice...drank wine..lol..me and xianglong Finnish whole bottle sial..but we both very seng after that...sleep sleep sleep dam nice to sleep after drinking wine..wake up like fully charged sia..work just now was alright..just lack of staff and I have to run in run out even though I was deck key..in the end also stay outdoor...like sian luh..finally ended work..thanks jeniffer for the magnum!! Wakaka lol..so shiok!!

Kk very very tired now gtg to lalaland see you there~

2010-05-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

work just now was alright...just having a bad cough very troublesome...was food runner..and alot new staff..lazy to teach sia..requested to go at 11..have ocean baked rice..i love cheese!

tml off woohoo! chalet chalet!

june is coming..many of my friends going in ns..sadded man..still wondering when will be my turn

shiittss..next wed still need checkup..again..wth man

take care peoples..u know i always wanted to say that

cos its too late
there is no escape
might as well face it

2010-05-23T12:53:00.002+08:00

past 2 day work waas boring..okok...cook pasta ytd as i waas dam pissed..dam no mood even the sauce is tasteless...im having a bad cough and im still working..

why sucked up ppl always get the benefits while hardworking ppl always lose out..nb..they are just so blinded by their fuckup attitude...i dun care anymore..i say it once and never say it twice again..

i feel like being alone tml again...off day like only tml..and have to work while im sick...wtf is this...they will say "i dun care"..are they still humans? i 101% think not..just people who want us to run our asses around to make money..so pissed fml