生就是为了找寻爱的过程, 每个人的人生都要找到四个人

第一个是自己,
第二个是你最爱的人，
第三个是最爱你的人，
第四个是共度一生的人.

首先会遇到你最爱的人，然后体会到爱的感觉；
因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；
当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，
才会知道什么是你需要的，
也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。

但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，
这三个人通常不是同一个人；
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。

你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？



真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，
你都希望这个人陪着你；
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，
也就是没有丝毫要求。

茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？

some random stuff while surfing forum...on and off mood to study kfc..lol..dam..

first 2 months of 2010 and already 2 major earthquake...haiti and the recent earthquake from chile...8.8 magnitidue sia...dam..mother earth is getting sick..

ok back to kfc

today was call up for work unexpectedly..hear they very few ppl work..ok la cincai since im doing nothing at that moment..then go work lo...was dam hectic..immediately reach there le chiong all the way to 10pm close to 11..sianed..work to closing..after tat as usual..pool and l4d...wasnt in the mood to l4d..just sianed for some moment...

hope i didnt neglect anyone during these 2 weeks of mia..if so pls understand and accept my apologies yea?

now back from market...and dam i hit my little toe nail on the wheel..dam pain siol!

gonna sleep now and wake up at noon study..night i wanna watch rush hour 3!

tml kfc paper 9am..which means i gonna wake up at 7..no more funshion.com yea by...

im slowly getting to know who i am..i hope this is the way it is

wed 230pm marks the end of my poly life..i like!

warning: long post..pls take ur time to read if not dun read..haha

today studied at school..reached at 10..best..absorb alot today...i like..but sibei tired..nothing much happen.

hope for the best i can say...had a rare once in a while talk with my sister last night...i feel i can be a better brother..i feel i can be a better person..soon to be man...sometimes we have problems and feel annoyed and dunno who to turn to..might as well keep it to urself...wrong..just grab someone and talk to...so if u have any troubles bottled up just pour it out to me..it will always help..likewise im having the same problem i have alot troubles bottled up..so annoying...i can feel a bigtide ahead of me that i must pass through..hope my friends will accompany me through this part of my life

i must say this before this last semester of my poly life ends...this 3 years in poly has been like a roller cooster...ups and downs..hardest time of my poly life prolly is last year till now..year 1 and 2 are sort of easy..do ur work got attendance do lab test folo study guide do presentation..can pass already..made alot new friends in that 2 years..enjoyed air-con rooms where u cant enjoy in sec school..only in AV theatre luh hhaha...best part..dun need wear school uniform..yea..sorry talking all these lol...ok...back..then hardest part of my poly life is last year

immediately after year 2 exams..2 weeks break and my final year project starts...12 weeks sia..everyone was totally seperated...some go industrial attachment..or final year project..i can say i tio most suay one..cos most ppl fyp lab is at least 10+ people during that time..mine only 3 ppl..owned..slowly got used to the cold S446 ARG lab..everyday 830 to 6..yea..week 6 and 12 presentation all tio shoot cos never do properly..not to forget the suzhou trip during fyp..i made another batch of friends..they totally rock my life lol..closing to week 12 my relationship with my 2 other labmates and suzhou clique are like the best..after week 12 finally over...sad news come in..2 days later IAP starts

i was like wth..2 days break only and go attachment 6 months..that 3 months was hell..practically stoned there...perhaps we didnt know wat to do..we only help do some reports and analysis of their project.....but the experience was invalueable..i must say i dam lucky to be attach to ST electronics cos its near NYP and ST is a well known company in the electronics world...i saw alot wonderfull dam cool stuff..those producs that have never been introduecd to the market yet...really inspired me to be a better engineer..most of the time just slacking..ok..bad la lol..but heng didnt fail IAP..so i guess im lucky lol.. after attachment finally 2 months break came...dam happy can rest after chionging fyp and iap..those 2 events totally change my body clock and everyting

october..start and last semester of year 3..with the year 3 logo on my head i can feel the graduation day getting closer...year 3 study path mine is aerospace..theory i can tell u is 200% totally make no sense to u when u first see it...but slowly i understand it...cos near to exam ma..so no choice force myself these 2 weeks chiong exam notes..now that exam are here and gonna be so over soon...i wanna delicate some word to the foollowing people below..not in order dont worry just the person i can think of i put:

chow shin: didnt really get to know u until year 3..haha...thanks for pei-ing me pool,l4d study,do project,lab,group work,makan and all other small stuff during this semester..u are a nice person..good guys will get good girls dun worry shin..haha

jun yang: also same..really didnt get to know u until year 3...thanks for taking the leadership during comm skills project, giving ideas and really took initiative when being question even though its not ur question...u help out us alot this semester..thanks

lim fung: wakakak otar face..jk la haha..the most noisy but reliable lady in our clique this semester..去哪里？ lim fung haha..basket sia lol...thanks for pointing our those small mistakes we didnt discover eariler..if not alot trouble sia lol..

teck soon: same work place same block same specialise..best sia haha..we had studied together during those test exam period..joke about stuffs..i can say we are best buddies in school and outside...jiayou for ur fyp soon!

kang wei: slacker but DAM lucky guy...can spend 2 hour before exam absorb everything and score better than a person who spend 2 weeks studying for that paper...dam power la lol..3 years in poly i think all like that lo...dunnow how he do it de..thanks for taking the intiative to do the NE project when all of us totally forgot about it..hahah jiayou

meixian evonne: easy going girl..can talk alot de..thanks for pei-ing me talk during im bored haha

note: i will add on more in the future



ok...saturday night! i have worked so damn hard this week..i shall enjoy myself tonight! have fun people!

Didn't update past few days as I was busy studying..Monday paper was total scam..alot ppl like me folo closely to study guide and only 30% come out..hope got moderation lo..then study for the next 3 days till now..dam drain by just trying to understand all this chim terms they use in the books..but I also had some fun these few days..destress lol..we wentto play l4d after studying to destress..abit effective..but after that go home makan le then nua on my chair till sleep...

Now as usual..super tired after doing those past year paper..think gonna go home straight after this..eyes are closing..

Thinking of my last paper next wed..I got alot activities coming up..Thursday medical checkup and maggie's bday.. Weekends work I like!! 8-10 march chalet to celebrate end of poly..I can't wait!! Right now just need to get over this exams and bye bye nyp!

Wat will my life be like after exams? Universal laws is inflexible i know..hope I learn to open out more in the near future

good luck to all my friends having exams from tml onwards! after this its all over!






hold on...hold on
dun be scared
you'll never changed whats been and gone
may your smile...shine on
dun be scared
your destiny may keep you warm

cause if i am to go
in my heart you'll grow
and thats where you belong

most super tired day today...suppose to meet shin at hougang mrt at 12..then i 10am lie on bed awhile read magazine..then fall asleep..pig sia me..then 1230 wakeup he call me bobian ask him take bus come here...dam paisei siol...then slack awhile soon join in also then study slack...on and off...but i think i slack the most cos dam tired sleep awhile...tml going back again study...

wah sky so dark heavy rain coming..will the lion dance still be on? lol..

ok i think im going to have a early night tonight...eat dinner le then go sleep..still tired lo

last night went out with katrina to get the photos that i wanted...couldnt dl them from hotmail...then after tat went to lek house slack till 12..then went down to bliss wait for the rest to finnish work...yen ping is dame funny la...hahaha can talk allot crap lol..thanks huh...only weijun layyen and jess come play l4d...then layyen de other friends also come play vs...i like..

later 12pm gonna meet shin at mrt...come my house study tml paper ba..omg..exam coming why i still like so slack..ppl ask me i also like no answer..wats wrong with me

just back from market as usual...today i was especially early...620 reach le haha...even the fish uncle haven prepare yet lol..then i buy veggie first then fish..alot thing siol today..dam heavy..i love the walk home lol...so cooling

俺の仮説に、すぐにでも、何か知ってジャンプしてはならないことを私はやっていないイムは、過去には最近いない権利はありません。なぜ

today study only till 4pm as it was friday lol..dam slack..was called up for work...since that time im playing pool and nothing to do at night might as well go help out lo...

wah seh...dam power ranger today..cock up alot siol...run non stopp all the way to 12+..then machine chu stunt all bill all messup..then have to bill all customer and cannot take any order...fuck..so many customer keep asking why cannot..i also bobian...but cannot talk cheap tell them bobian...but also thanks la some customer understand..wish got more of these ppl around..so little staff and u expect us to attend to all the table at once..1:100 ratio lo.so just keep saying machine spoil lo..then dam dulan..once machine ready i send out 1 jug le then all table keep calling...and also table 25 that lady drunk..dam...grab me at ask for another bottle..keeping saying "i not drunk" mabok face walk not straight loosen buttons..lol..i just dun care her..

now super tired...gonna go back school study again later..hope tml will be fun!

and wth..poly fee increase by 50 dollars...but heng ah..last sem lol

random note: should i go register to study in uni? i see so many of my friends talking about it...maybe i should do some research

like wtf just open 1 week casino and this kind of thing happen?! siao liao la
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20100217/tap-033-indonesian-lost-casino-resorts-w-231650b.html


very tiring these 2 days..studying non stop...need to de stress lol...hope i know wat i am studying for lol

nothing much..so gonna stop here

This 2 days was hell for me...it's about my family..I feel my rebelous self is back again..but not as worst like last time..previous day I promise her I will wake up at 8am to go market.. Then I overslept and woke up at 830..then she face black whole day...I keep thinking wat I do wrong..just because I come home late for 2 days and like that.. Not that I wanna blame her but i really dunno wat I can.. Talk to her and want to help out she dun want..I dun want it to be like tat..couldn't sleep well for 2 days and still dunno why..stresss

this morning same thing happen..I dun want to argue anymore so I left for school at 830 to study..managed to cover the harder chapters..gonna study more tml..eyes wanna close ald..


Am I even a good son?

This year cny of mine totally sucks..this cannot that cannot then wat can...really put me back to negative thinking again...guess it's mine problem dun wanna spoil anyone new year mood.. Enjoy ppl

last night went out to drink with soon jeolyn at bliss..yea..drink till 1am...had alot fun talking with joe..thanks man..so much advices i dunno how to summarise...but wat i think most important is " just be myself" haha new year i look sad...nope...just bored...entertain me pls lol...after tat pool and l4d then homed..

i washed my fan just now and now its super cooling!! woo!! weather so hot i on max speed still very hot...now so shiok the wind hahah..

i guess the end is coming...end of semester haha...next week exams 3 maarch last paper...wat to do after tat...

meanwhile...have fun while u can ppl!

ytd reunion dinner was ok...not much fun i guess...bored out...went to plaza with bao liang and carson..talk alot catch up with stuff...then they left at 430..i decided to stay there till 530...yea..had thought about alot of things tat time...bought big breakfast then eat and sleep...

next monday 22 feb exams..gonna do some studying tml...now im so moody..sianed

Today work was total cui tell you..though working at deck fuck was so tired...super fucking pissed off.. Can't be even bothered now...just now drink abit... Talk talk then pool at plaza..reunion dinner tonight..hope I can be able to help out..

Suddenly I so getting back the same feeling back then... Or is it the alcohol causing all these? Even without alcohol influence..I still strongly feel weird..super hate it

exams exams.. Next week off gonna study study

wished i was remembered for something

Selflessness: In a world where many people don’t have the time or the interest in others, selflessness is a quality that seems to be less and less common. People can be selfless in the time they give, the ability to listen, their level of patience and the love that they give. Those who are giving and generous in nature have the power to make others feel loved, appreciated and special. While those who are self-absorbed tend to do the exact opposite.

Tolerance: Those people who are tolerant make us feel comfortable with who we are and special as individuals. All of us are different, and many of us have quirks and idiosyncrasies. After all, these differences make the world go round. Having the ability to accept people for who they are and not expect them to be who we want them to be is important in life, happiness and in the health of our relationships.

Genuineness: Having the ability to be real, authentic and honest is unique in a world where we put so much emphasis on the superficial. Feeling comfortable in one’s skin and being true to one’s self is one of the most beautiful traits one can possess. To have a REAL relationship with someone requires honesty…it requires hearing and giving input or feedback that may not always be popular…it means having the strength to tell it like it is and to not be afraid to face the consequences for doing so…it means loving people for who they really are…deep down…and not for what they appear to be.

Sensitivity: So often we are focused on what is important to ourselves that we can forget about those around us. Those who are sensitive are often thoughtful, appreciative and loving, in a way that makes you feel understood, valued and respected. Often, sensitive people are also self-aware, making them mindful of how they impact others with what they do and say.

Integrity: Call me cynical, but I think this characteristic is especially difficult to find. In a time when people will do things that are underhanded to make an extra buck (Bernie Madoff…can you hear me?), expose their personal lives to the public so they can be famous (balloon boy’s dad and any other reality TV mongers) and do what feels good in the moment without necessarily thinking of the consequences (Tiger Woods), integrity is a characteristic that is especially unique today.

Humility: Whether someone is super-smart, extremely talented or drop-dead gorgeous, there is something extra special about them if they don’t come across as though they know it all the time. Humility in those that possess extraordinary traits make others feel special too

i think i need more genuineness...wat about u?

today spend whole day at school doing AOP project..dam headache..this can work that cant work..that can work this cant work again...nb..kena cut by the metal on the door..work today dam power...3 outdoor 3 deck..but ok la..not that much customer..quite smooth...mr gopal came down! as usual lol..talk talk talk awhile only...

going back to school to do final everything for the project..dun care le..just submit wat u have..dun need to be perfect the cicuit..if want perfect working need 1-2 more weeks lo...

tml work will be fun i hope! after work activities!...sat if u ppl after work want come out drink pls jio me thanks

today Hf common test...40 qns 40% of total module..totaly wtf..die die la..after that went back to continue troubleshoot circuit..but still failed...after tat shin wanted to pool cos he very stressed..then pool when him then home..

tml mornig going to bring father go ssee doctor..dunnoe why his foot sore..

everyone seem to like going to fall sick..please take care of yourselves people! CNY coming!

the end is near

Sleep at 8pm last night till now..dam song but still headache...common test at 5 later...going back school study abit..

Now going to clean up my room abit..cny coming still so messy lol

Never too late to make it right

They say when you have problems outside family plays a part but when family have problem then who plays a part..

I feel so fucking useless now...not that I want to shout at my mum..if I talk normal she can't hear then shout but not in angry tone she dulan me..now she has to take care of my father and sis and she herslef is also in no good state..I really want to end this right now...but it's irresponsible of me to do that..but wat can I do?? Lost..standard..

back from shopping cny clothes...abit sad cos recoil didnt haven the shirt of my size..last piece only L...total bought 4 shirts $70+ fly..pain..

tml got school sad lol...wed common test HF..and i haven studied...AOP report not yet touched..GG.

Didn't manage to wake up go school just now...failed.. Dam.. Disapointed...now I feel so useless.. Wake up makan then night liao... Didn't do anything today...haiz...maybe tonight I go shop for my new year clothes..

dame bored naos...just now slack awhile with soon amanda and jeolyn..saw imran! omg so long no see him le..yea..talk cock alot..pool awhile at plaza then back to bliss..

carson! ytd u jio me go drink then just now i call u never answer..argh...

now at plaza with kon only..played l4d..clear the map too fast lol..nothing do..thanks kon man...didnt want me to be alone for whole night..kena lock out from house...thanks..

fuck..so moodless..suddenly mood so numb...i know i hope this wont last..cny here...

i show my emotions too easily...when im troubled...soon will know..ask me why emo..when im happy..im really laughing from the bottom of my heart...is this a good thing? or is it time to grow up?

back from market...lol...after 2 weeks going market..realised i really dunnoe how to communicate with the ppl there..i told the fish uncle i want this this this fish then another auntie came in and told him she want this this this fish he immediately take for her...then after awhile my turn...i think this is call regular customer..lol...they talk dialect..i know abit but dunno how to talk..maybe should learn more..those ppl there are really helpful..thanks man..

i dunno why now i like going to the market...like long lost feeling...still remember those days i go market with my father...walking home from market breathing in fresh air...watching birds eating on grass...feel the cool breeze..refreshing siol..okaaay random

shit i forgot wat i wanted to say back then i was on my way home...hate it!

hectic week alert! this week is so gonna be busy..




little things that made life great..yet we didnt realise it

today work was also same like ytd..super bored..alot troublesome customer...drink and vomit type..throw mug somemore..ytd got 1 throw bucket also..after work didnt drink as soon no buy liquor..so pool at plaza..now just back...going market later on..dam the list is so long this week..think gonna take a trolley with me later..i look like a ah pek..lol

layyen hope u will find ur soul back...i wanna hear u meowing~ again

if later come back i no tired i might want to go shop for my cny clothes..IF LAH LOL..

JUST get back up when love knocks you down

actually i care

today went to school at 3pm...dam sian...project not working sudenly...want die say die..sian 1/2...report still not yet done...wed common test...monday no school..wat a eventful week next week..cny coming...i dun have the mood looking forward to it like the past few years...valentines and cny on same day..great..

work is boring just now...fucked up new machine...too intelligent until all of us kena fooled by it...time pass very slow...sibei moodless...

im kind of affected by all the people around me...when my friends are happy my mood brightens up...when they are down..my mood also goes down with them...cheer up ppl...u know i love u ppls

tml after work im ffree to drink..but maybe not so much cos going to market after that..same as last week..ima good boi!

why is it there is always a big negative point in every beautiful things i see...

today work was boring..time pass quite slow but as it was payday so it was OK LOL..dam happy cause work 106 hours...earn quite alot..so gonna save up..gonna use it wisely..after work drank abit in front with kun and andy they all..dam seng..we chiong the whole tower lol..after that pool..keep losing as everything i see all giddy de..lol..after that jalex come my house do his ipod stuff..

school at 3pm tml...dam nice..2hour lab then release..lol..then off to work..hope tml work will be (Y)!

cause if i had to go
in my heart you'll grow
and thats where you belong

maybe i just wanna fly
i wanna live i dont wanna die
maybe i just wanna breathe
maybe i just dont believe
maybe you're the same as me
we see things they never see
you and i are gonna live forever

argh...skip morning lecture as i was working on the report last night..but still like not enuf luh...dam and tml is the deadline..shoulder like want to break liao...haven been sleeping well for so long...i think i need to get a new pillow lol...

k gotta prepare for school naos

today total slack in school...1030 break till 1pm..went to amk makan with other class..and pool too!..so fun i like! after tat back to tutorial then home..bought alot things today..veg and alot canned food..lol..and also some vcd for my father to watch in case he too bored...now im so worn out..and have to finish a report by fri...which means i have to start now!

i wannt to go somewhere faraway..where i can sleep all i want!! away from everything for just that moment




Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a beautiful smile
Can stay for a while
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

I'm so proud of my dad..walking on clutches is no easy thing..esp when u are very heavy and have a metal rod inside you..I promise I will be a good boy..I will go market every weekend and mop the floor every 2 days..slow down everything dad..u need a long break from work

I have to manage my money well from now..news year stuff and daily expenses already burn a big hole in my pocket and it's still burning..I need some planning dawg!!!

TOE-MAY-TOE!

got myself a new haircut...i tell auntie i want short but keep the style..then cut until so short!!! now i look like a idoit...sad..

father back home...now he lying on bed..i thnk hes been lying there whole day..lol..i see le also xinku..dun noe how sia...

hey apple! u look fruity hey apple hey hey..LOL SIBEI ANNOYING INDEED funny sia!! lol

only went to lab session this afternoon..dam common test next week..so last minute then know lo..good news...HF project submit le..can heck care le...but common test need study..

visited my father after school today..his casting remove le..wah seh..he tell me they put a 35cm metal rod inside the leg..so long siol..sad thing he wil be using the chopstick like thing to help him walk for the next 6 months..which means we cant go out that often le..and im going to army soon...im worried

been thinking alot..realise i attitude alot ppl who are trying to help me despite i lock myself up and shove them away...im so sorry all..i will try to make full use of the time we spent together

i want to have fun after exams...pls bring me to level up slowly..dun straight go lvl 10 hahah

feb is here! good luck to all who having exams and enjoy a brand new month!

braviest act of all : unconditional love