i need some pills..knife seems so pain

alrite..this weekend was boring...but good eh..didnt spent too much money

sooo..another source told me i will be starting my weapon phase on 22 june..hope this time really is true..cos im tired of waiting and wasting my time away emoing and shit...i wanna to do something constructive!

so tired..really tired that i slept till 4pm today..its been ages since i slept till the sun is going to set lol

going out alone can be boring and self hurting everytime..i went to nex ytd to the library to do some research...on the highest lvl of nex got the pet store and the baby store..omg so cute sia the baby learn how to swim..i want a child of mine!! the doggy area also alot people watching the dogs playing in the enclosed area..dam cute laaa..and the open water park for children to play is so funny lol..watching kids kena owned by the big pail of water splashing on them really can lmao..

i see that you are not having enough rest recently because of work...take care yaw

hi humans...im glad u pop by here once in awhile to check to updates..thank you

last week has been short..cos of the leave i took on friday and todays vesak day lol..

soon's celebration was ok..happy birthday to him again!! 3 more months from today and im 21..and i have not achieve quite alot of things..

let me think what i have been doing lately..yea..first time to club on friday..yea..i know...its abit crazy over there..and i accompany my friend there..did went to the dancefloor for awhile..but my body doesnt know how to groove to the music..so in the end just step one side..damn awkwward

and ya..wtf is wrong with fund transfer on the atm this few days..i owe liang hao money still cannot transfer to him..dam...

watch 2 movies on 2 days straight..i like..beastly and priest was nice..though beastly was better than expected...i really enjoy ytd and today...

yea..im thinking of getting a dslr in july or august..what do u all think which dslr should i get??

so..20may is not the start of my course eh? i seriously hope it wont clash with my taiwan trip next year...

deep down i think no one ever thought of me..im just a "hi bye" guy..cant it be more? stupid of me to believe what happens in love story cos it wont farking happen in singapore..maybe other countries might

if i could stroke you to sleep i would
if i could be always there for u i would
if i could hug u and say everything will be ok i would
if i could hold your hand swing like a little kid i would
if i could tell you what is it like when i cant see you i would
if u only give me ur attention

but problem is always myself..
fucking think so much for fuck
i know its dam sweet to think of this
but its not within my reach
stretch my hands too far will only make me fall again
ok someone will kan me again lol

blah blah blah..i think im turning bad to worse..hope u are not reading till now cos those that i want them to read my blog most probably wont read..so if u are reading..i want to say i need ur attention..it means alot to me

kthxbye

so...i heard my course will be starting on 20 may..im posted to guns..which is the oldest weapon from gbad..but i still dunno why they post me there..whatever it is..im all ready for the action im going to face in weapon phase which is 3 months..

life has been crazy this few weeks..whole of singapore eyeing on adjunied becos workers party is fighting for it..weather has been a bitch lately..fucking hot..even at night..its must be a sign from above to tell us something..guess most of u never thought of this eh..

i have been trying to learn to put on contacts lens..i can put them on..but dunno how to take them out...lmao..i will keep trying

been wasting alot money on movie and entertainment recently too..well since no one wanna pamper me..i should pamper myself right?

also spent quite alot on family insurance recently..bought fire safety stuff to put at home..just thought of it cos u never know when a fire breaks out yea..
and also open another prudential saving plan recommended by eugene...gonna save up for my children mainly..whether i gonna have kids next time or what you know..

i dont know why but i have a strong feeling my 21th bday this year gonna suck my balls

nabeii fucking emo