hi guys..im back again.. so updatess..yea..driving course has ended last month 20th..overall i think im a better driver after that course because when i drive the big 5 ton and i drive my own vehicle...like no kick like that lol...okie..but i have to say we must drive safely and not endanger the lifes of other road users and pedestrains.. so..my life is still plain plain..but somehow..i slowly begin to see what i want..its like i can see a light after being stuck in a cave for so long...but i fear that i might be thrown back to darkness again..i dont want that..point is i dont really trust anyone sometimes i wonder is it really that hard to be truthful to someone? although we are just normal friends, close friends. i can feel some of my friends are not being truthful to me. not truthful as in hiding things behind my back. im not going to pursue it but i just dont understand why they want to do this. what have i done to deserve this? i hate to tell lies and i really do not like the feeling of being lied/badmouthed. i feel theres no point hiding things like that..although i know you might say its for my own good...but still it wont help right? i really feeling lonely this few months although i go out enjoy life with my friends and all..i feeling empty..feeling all sad and alone when im in my room..i know lifes problem probably wont have an answer to it..unlike maths qns...ill guess i will have to suffer for quite some time again.. okie..i think thats all..this place is a place to pour all my thoughts..since theres no one for me..okie good night my friends

hi guys im back after a looooooong time lol. so updates ya..on 19/07/2012..i passed my TP haha! so happy that day..guess everything went well for me.. also my course in AFTC ended at 18 May..so back to unit after that..but now im on course AGAIN lol..driving course..military class 4..yea..those big trucks..5tonner.. hmm..and also i got enrolled into unisim..school starting next year january..dunno i can cope anot..daytime in camp/tekong..nighttime clementi@ unisim...chiong here and there..still got in camp commitment plus school work..lets hope for the best for me alrite? guess im really getting old..time pass like a blink of the eye..i was childish yesterday..i feel i had to do something about my life and i did it and had no regrets..life is full of surprises eh? just have to learn to accept it and live with it... and ya..to those who are going to ORD on 13 sept this thursday..all the best to you in your future..those who going uni studying all the best hope u can find ur way back after rotting for 2 years...those who going to work first all the best to you hope ur new boss is better than the current one..those who wanna relax eat shit play everyday all the best...after all u all deserve a LOOOONG break..thanks for being a part of me yea thats all for now..see ya soon

ok updates guys..been 2 months since i last updated?!

life in AFTC as per normal..driving lessons..yes man..for the month of feb and march..i have been chionging lesson..cleared module 2 already..only left module 3 which is parking then off to TP..but the sad things is i failed my FTT which dragged my TP date to at least june or july..sad man...must pass my FTT on 25/05/12 again..if not cant get my liscense.

and placing for uni..i think i have been rejected..didnt hear anything from ntu or nus..fuck up..they should have just drop me a mail to say im not eligible..oh well try again next year..zz

april is here and ippt window has open again..hope i can maintain my silver and get 100bucks!!

so finally a new year..new start i guess..alot has changed..donno for better or worse..2011 has been..a turning point..looking back all the shit i gone thru..actually im quite proud to say been thru done with it..

summarry of 2011..new phase of regular life..jan to march was a chiongsua period as infantry trainee..quite an experience..march to june was a long wait for another chiongsua course to start..during this period i had a good long break..made some new friends..met her after so long..june to end of september was chiongsua again..that period was mentally shag as my encik always say "when u all pass out, whether ur gf family can sleep peacefully at night depends on you"..true to say..this is my job no one else want to do..i know alot people look down on me..but i advise you not to do so cos we are all the same..soo after that till end of 2011...im in my parent unit chongpang camp in yishun doing ops and keeping you guys safe..

right now im being posted to PLAB for another course till end of may..so maybe its another time to take a break from unit..stayout :D

so new year resolutions..been thinking quite awhile pardon me..

-driving liscene by june(8 lessons so far..)

-get a placing in a local uni( should have done that last year but miss it..hope to get into one)

-hit at least 22k saving this year

-revamp my room ( been thinking to buy a projector and table to facilitate my ps3 and gaming pc)

-own vehicle ( not likely possible depends on where my daily duty will be at)

-travelling to another country ( been on my list since last year,thinking of organising a solo trip to X country this year..depends anyone want to join me + if time allows)

-her ( long story cut short, last year there was her, almost got together but suddenly break.nevertheless thank you. i will find a better one and hope the same for u too)

talking about "her" i think i have a thing for malaysian girls..not to say..last year..donno what made me crazy..i express my interest to 2 girls and would like to be friends with them..ok this is crazy i know..1st girl failed instantly..2nd girl just recently only..but broke my heart when she told me she has a bf and sounded not interested..well normally in sg ppl dont do these very often? i donno..strangely both of them are malaysians so ya...

so i have been quite lonely other than gbc to accompany me for the weekends..my life has been dull since i enlist..im 21..going 22 this year..quite a old man already..still much to learn and never experience those puppy love like u see in movie or outside..even my friends in army who have gf outside are also having problem with their gf..not to say being a regular..guess its very hard to find a girl who understands ur situation but still is supportive of you despite the fact that both meet up very irregularly...i think the most suitable girl for me now is the one who can change me, my attitude. but i think its gonna be very hard given the fact im in SAF.

so to sum up..i thank u to spend time poping by once in a while, hoping i will post something..
to my all my friends - hope u are doing fine out in the working/studying world..dont belittle of urself, u are better than u think...hopefully 10years down the road if u get married must invite me ah!