updates..nothing much happen recently..lets see

yea..gratz ah soon pop..and he got posted to ocs..up there one..what more i can say..good luck to the training there though im never gone thru ocs..but i believe its much tougher the scs..just endure..after that u will feel the pride after 9months..being commissioned by the president

sometime i was abit busy in aftc because of the coc parade last week..did alot of physical work..setting up the sound system is a bitch...substaining the volume..bass..treble..all these headache...but hey..its a learning experience for me..i did learnt quite alot during last week..how we should work together as a team to make things work..

and yea..i got drunk on that night lol...dam scary..next morning wakeup totally cant remember how i got home..really balls can shrink..but it proves something..im a lousy drinker lol

yea..bliss is relocating to cheng san cc like tml..had a gathering last night despite i have to wake up at 545 today...drank a little..bbq a little...talk a little...much much memories left there..i love all the cute people there..layyen jeolyn and many more..they so cute la...but hard truth is bliss in pungol park is gone...im afraid our friendship will go down with it...i just hope 10 years down the road if i see you..you will still acknowledge me..aww..i do not have individual photos of you and me to upload..i hate this ending...

you know what
all this while
ive been disappointed everytime
maybe i think too much and you think its not the situation
but all the time
even by just letting me know whats happening around your life
it will give me a boost to push on, brings a smile to my dull face

many man like me will experience the same thing as me
but at least they feel at the end of the day
when the sun sets
they know there will be always a woman behind giving him motivation
and feel a warm snuggle in their heart
while me, i feel unwanted

the point is : im officially missing you
bet you dont even know

im sure this picture you all have seen it these few days...some say its photoshopped..some say theres nothing wrong with this maid carrying the fieldpack...what i think is this soldier should carry on his own la...soldier alrady should know what to do in the civilian world..really brainless...

this weekend should be fun..friday dinner at bliss with gbc...sat going to book BTT lesson..layyen you book already?? sat night deshun 21bday...sunday go baibai...i want a 15hour sleep! sleep till the sun on my backside!!! can i??

doushite?? i cant seem to concentrate well..i feel distracted..my mind is wandering...the feeling is welling inside me..same old feeling...dam gao wei..someone please knock me out...im so mentally drained

you are no ordinary girl

if you think reading this is a waste of time and theres no point reading..i advise you to close this browser

recently it comes to my attention that serving NS is a waste of time..and those who serve NS..which 99% mostly are guys like me..are being look down, neglected on...ok..maybe its only me..stbm

but let me get 1 thing straight to your head..while I am serving my time in NS..there are alot things I learn but its classified..I am DYING to tell you what is happening inside my life..what I am really DOING inside army..how army shows me the importance of defending my land, YOU and my family...what are the reasons to hold the rifle and what I could do to protect YOU

while I am serving my time inside..every book out I am DYING to see you..sad truth..half of the time we do not have time...I really treasure those small little time I get to see you..be it a deliberate or unintentional meetup..

I have to say army made me think slower..rather think only one straight way...stupid is the word to descibe...maybe thats why my north has changed

maybe this effect is just only happen to me because I am not super yandao...I am not some big muscle hunk or some super korea hongkong drama actor..I dont care how others compare me...I just want you to interact more with me..or at least acknowledge me

whatever..my blog just full of emoshit..private blogging ba

this week in aftc was not so bad..OTOT work out all the way...next monday report to GBAD school..hope it will still be as it is now..i wanna buff up for GBAD

watch sucker punch ytd..dam awesome..hot girls with weapons kicking ass..but abit unrealitic la..kena whack by one giant robot still wont die..but anw..i rate it 8/10..

i want to let you know what im doing everyday...but whats the point eh..my command is english is already very jialet before i enlist..now its below worst..plus i dont communcicate well..heart and body have a mind of their own man..

weekend just is so fast..one blink and gone..seems like i have no time for you

yea..bliss is going to be relocated at AMK CC next month..that place sucks..but what i learn from that place for the past 2 years+..or what i experience..its only once in a life..i made so much friends there..made me realised so many facts and mistakes..from that day i left that place..i miss my friends there...i hope we can remain in contact and meet up even bliss is not in pungol park...you know that dont you?

we have grown so much..you have grown so much..looking back at the photographs which seems like yersterday...you might think you have never changed..but in my eyes..you have grown more matured...this applies to everyone..you may look at yourself at the mirror 365 days everyday..but through out the months of the years...its the people around you that watch you grow..watch you experience life..i rather be a guardian..watching over you from far..

whatever it is...i think i have to change for the better...time is the challenge as usual

reported to airforce school on wed...hmm..life there is like going to school like that..very slack lol..but i think only my vocation is the most xiong.."the commandos of airforce" is what they say la..i see people do pullup in sbo sia..dunno i can anot..army aside..since no one really reads..whats the point yo..

i can say from friday till today im sorta enjoying and torturing myself..thanks celestine for being there for me from friday till today..really gbc sia we all..meet up with katrina for dinner on friday..next time let me treat! why always snatch bill from me?!! lol..watched midnight movie battle LA..nice show..alot action..u people should go catch it

random faces of you appear at random time of the day in my mind..doushite

met my tuition teachers who taught me chinese 10 years ago..man..im so glad they still remember me..im really touched dao...

sometimes if we were to meet each other on the street 10 years later will you remember me? cos every smile of yours brings back those memories we had in the past

lmao..5 more months im 21..i want to have something big! who want to be in my event committee?

seems im having a good life...actually not..inside i feel empty...i needa some colours..some sparks..or even some trouble also can..i feel so empty

k..time to rest..for another week in aftc..8-5 ftw

so..i have passed out from scs foundation term..28km route march was a total bitch..slightly more tiring than the 24km one..cos we walk in the forest..like nothing to see..and also its like fast march..with fbo..knn..almost want to fall out..but since everyone is going thru it together might as well stay back..

yea..right after i pop-ed..the next day reported to airforce school..lucky my oc good let us leave till this tuesday..if not i confirm shag cannot think..lol..i wonder what its like life over there..what i know now is i this wed got 1 week 8-5 for me..cos got airman orientation..so shioks

life just boring without certain people

2 weeks in camp is totally hell...lack of sleeps plus tiring activity everyday..fieldcamp is very fun..just that the regitmental part is sucky...fieldcamp here is better than tekong..we live near the expressway..everyday can hear car zoom zoom pass lol..ex. wanderer was also fun..though i carry the signal set whole day..need to comms back to hq to check on our status incase someone is injured or we are lost in the jungle..but luckily we manage to navigate our way thru the thick vegetation and come out successfully lol

wow..coming to say that time has past..2 more weeks im out of pasir laba and heading to aftc..sort of miss the times here..though my platoon encik is the ocs type while other platoon lepak type..im still proud to be in platoon 1

im still lost i conclude

as usual..tiring week this week..but next week will be worst..outfield outfield again..nvm ba..after that 3 more weeks then pass out already..tough times dont last..shant talk more bout army stuff

i feel so tired every bookout...everyone has someone something to look forward every bookout..i just got nothing..go back sleep on computer..whats the problem man..

whatever..tml going out with bliss peoples..hope its gonna to be fun..cos i wont be booking out this week..14 days in camp..disappear again lol

cny week was boring..though i get to go out unlike last year...but still..i find it boring lol..didnt manage to sleep for 10+ everyday cos used to the sleeping timing already lol..i didnt really get to rest properly these few days cos im restless..finding things to do..and so i have wasted 1 week of leave just like that..ccb

whatever..from now till end of this month..i think im gonna be fucking busy in camp...all the high keys come in 1 shot...live firing..UO..OD..fieldcamp..navigation..and the dreaded 10km exercise wanderer..so fabrury is a busy month for me..

not to forget valentines..which im going to spend it with my rifle my buddy in the muddy jungle this year..how sad..even if got valentine also can do what lol...

sian manz..ppl book in tml night..i book in tonight cos got duty for tml..why cant time slow down when im outside...

gotta plan for myself for the next 5 years man..what i want to do after 5 years..what i want to achieve during and after 5 years..i know somethings i comfirm already have in mind..just need to put it to action

ok cya guys..have a great cutie bunny year..wish all my family and friends stay healthy and fortune be on ur side..huat AR!

catch me if you want to

tiring week this week...live range again..navigation..omg i got lost twice in the jungle lol..serious shit how am i gonna pass my navigation test sia..totally lost yes lol..

ippt got silver! wOOT! 100bucks credited to my bank..shiok only..now i must maintain this standard man..

emo week yea..book in today book out tuesday...happy cny all

first week in scs..dam im missing my bunkmates already...life here is more relax then tekong..but the expectations is much higher...cos the daily activities is run by us..not the enciks..so if anything goes wrong..we are going to get fucked lol..

foodwise is lagi worse..tekong food is much nicer than here..food here is like cui..5 6 plus company squeeze in 1 cookhouse...so the queue is totally wtf..im the suaykia..im attached to mike company..most of the people here are from cougar coy in bmt..only me and some of my friends here..and im in diff platoon as them..dam sian..but so far im getting along well with them..actually they are very funny lol

everyday routine is run run run till u shag..dam..our pc siao on..other platoon run 3km we run 6km..wtf..but its good for my 2.4km so i dun mind la lol

ippt im just 1 more pullup awaay to silver!! $100 will be credit to my bank if i get silver for ippt this week man!!! must push myself...

so far doing good in scs..but i think shit will come in coming weeks..confirm de la..lol

cny is just so near..and i have yet to buy my new stuff! cui man

guess i have no more time for anyone in the future..i just hope u will remember me

sorry for anyhow typing..cos sortof in a rush yea..very little time...wish i could split myself to two..

this week is very fast..but i did really enjoy myself thru out this week...

guard duty on wed night to thursday morning...haha..was very tiring but fun..cos we are laojiao alrady..chek lol..

ya...posting was out...surprising alot ppl i know got into specialist cadet school scs...only 1 person in my bunk went to ocs..power la...hmm..new life in scs...i will be attending for 2 months of basic section leader course then posted out to 6 month of airforce unit...hope to see familiar faces tml at scs man..

and talking about im posted to scs..which is at pasir laba camp..fucking far end of singapore..and i have to bring everything back there..oh mai gawd lol..lucky my uncle is kind enough to send me there tml...i hope theres no confinement weeek in scs man..

and my contract..yea..im officially a regular tml...dunno what made me sign the contract..but i feel its the right path for me man..since i done it...i shall make full use of my time this 5 years...

k..gonna figure out stilll got what item not prepared..like alot sia!!

in the early evening march
with nothing on my back
with an aching in my heart
and my body got no sweat
come a long long way from home
and i miss my lover so
in the early evening march
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
when the cold wind blows
i know i know
u have to go
so hurry back home
cos i miss you so
i know u know
i have to go
so hurry back home
cos i miss you so

time pass very fast when there is holiday..thats sad..

last week was very tiring..tedious..everyday GP rehearsal till sunburn..powerpack..the SSM dam funneh also lol..lucky the vetting on wed we pass..if not they activate thursday for us we honggan...

POP 24km march! was a fucking killer man..although we did not march on tekong..which has more rocky and rough road to walk...it was still more or less the same..somemore it much more longer then 24km i think...on that day..we had lunch at 11am..lepak lepak..dinner at 3pm..lepak lepak..then head out to ferry terminal le...start the march at 6+...tell u..we walk 1 whole big round around changi airpork..then right turn to the NSRCC at the start of ECP..walk the whole stretch of ECP..left turn at fort road...1 whole fucking round around the constuction site and the golf course...1 endless road to the benjamin shear bridges...walk across the bridge and some distance to F1 paddock...lmao..i write too detailed liao..hope it doesnt bored u..

settle down there only had 45min for me to change uniform, eat breakfast, and take a quick nap..after that..we headed for the floating platform..finally everything is paid off..it doesnt really matter if the 24km had caused sever abrasion in my groin and waist..im so going to do this a 1 time good one for myself...

blah blah blah..finally pop...ate canivore buffet at vivo...dam exp..dam nice..dam full..the food there is good..chicken heart is dam Q wor..lol..

eaten alot junk food these few days..back from section bbq..failed lol..cos of rain..in the end microwave the food..hahah..but we had fun so its still ok..

guard duty the wed..12hour..fuck..must go back to tekong just for the guard duty..somehow i really feel i have bros with me in my section..i kena guard duty with my buddy..then 3 more other ppl in my bunk volunteer to do with us..what more u can say...we are brothers in arms~ lol

ok..i have signed on as ADSS..hopefully i can get in on the results on friday...good luck on ur postings everyone! ciaoss

when can i really see you

this week is dam lepak..games day whiskey finally win!! overall champion for school 3 games day..although i didnt take part in the games..i still feel proud im in whiskey!

POP is just next sat..its gonna be a long night 24km march..and graduation parade is gonna be a test of endurance...after that canivore buffet with celestine..woo! not enough sleep ftw!

knn wear helmet cannot think ah?! lol ps ah..keep repeating the same shit every post..got alot thing want to type in..but last minute all forget..pardon me if anyone is reading

1 more day to new year..what can i expect for myself in 2011? only NS..if i manage to become a airforce regular i will be mentally drain for this year but much more money to spend..if i manage to get to command school..i will be fugged for 6-9months and posted to some unit if i pass out successfully..if i get posted to be a man..i think i will cry lol

new years resolution? really cant think of any...just want to be more healthier this year..more money to spend..hope to travel this year...make moar fwens...find my other half..

wish all of u have a healthy and fun 2011!

merry xmas everyone! lol this girl so naughty go bully the dog

this week in tekong was rather not say xiong or slack..just tedious..drills drills drills everyday...knn draw arms everyday go parade square do parade..in prepearation for drill competition and the graduation parade...drill competition i think we have a low chance to win cos of our bmtc roar was not fierce enough..didnt manage to make the ssm balls shrink lol...viper coy roar was wow!! nice

and ya not forgetting the final ippt...i finally fucking pass! so happy...pullup i did a standard 6..not chao keng one ah..dunno how i manage to do it..just have to pass thats all i was thinking..hope i can get into command school

i also express interest to sign on as a airforce engineer..pay is good..lummpsum is attractive..stable income for 5 years..somemore its a field i have study before..hope the interview goes well..but thinking of the 5 years..yea..i waste 5 years of my youth..5 years when i can spend the time going to furthur study..watever it is i just need some moral support

watch tron finally! wow..dam nice...worth watching

christmas this year was very different from last year..not so happening for me...didnt want to drink cos i dun want my body to be weak for the 24km final march...maybe after pop jio me drink lo..

today book in..wed book out..how awesome right!..think i gonna stay at home as im broke..lol who is kind enough to come up and pei me..



saw this on online forum..knn so funny yet so true..

where is the love of my life?

this week was fucking shag..monday night 16km routemarch..7pm till 1am+..dam tired but also fun..first time i really enjoy the journey with my buddies..all the singing photo taking seesion..now im left with the 24km POP march WOO! im dam determine to complete this cos this time we will be on mainland..where all my family and friends hopefully supporting me...13sept till now aint no easy road...ive seen shit..been thru shit..and now back bigger and stronger...coming to think of leaving tekong...i kinda miss there cos its really a chalet compare to unit life..also im gonna miss all my crappy buddies who have helped me thruout this few months..im really grateful..lets treasure the last few days together peoples

btw ppl..soon is in tarus company..same as his star sign..very near to my company..but i have yet to see him lol..have a phonechat with him on one night...just hope he will hang on there till his first bookout..dun worry bro...when the going get tough..the tough get going..

but nevertheless...im gonna shout out 2 MORE WEEKS TO POP AND WE ARE SO HAPPY AH! LMAO!

knn i think ns has a negative impact on me...i start scolding vulgarity..browsing fhm..wearing same clothes for 6days..lmao..we are the lowest lifeform..nobody loves us when we are holding guns while all we need is just one to hold on our hand, ask how is this week in tekong, go out enjoy on my bookout, play a simple game of monopoly, stay out late talking with me, stroke you to sleep and many many more i could think of lying on my stinky bed in tekong..im really is sorta going nuts despite the festive mood going on and POP mood..maybe thats just my life..too bad so sad

army aside..i have yet to watch megamind, hairy potter, rapunzel(some say its awesome), tron..hope coming bookout can go watch with friends...

my timing reach liao..buay tong..going to sleep..tml early bookin..looking forward to this week in tekong oh yeeah..night sinkies

finally all the high keys over!! woo! live range was a total bitch..2 days shoot untill 2am+..dam fucking tired...but i got marksman..sadly dun have allowance cos still in bmt...sittest 12km route marrch and 6km fast march..12km was a killer man...fast march too..but overall its much better than fieldcamp..except that our basha flooded because of the rain...but that night was slept in training shed! how cool eh lol...i had fun in sittest man..doing things i never thought i will never do..

now only 4 more bookouts to pop..im start to think wats my ns life ahead..i thought of going to command school..but thinking of the shit i have to go thru again..im still considering..but whatever posting i got..i will do my best in it

talking about bookouts...now dun have sat bookouts!!hahaha..only friday and i remember got 1 bookout is on a wed cos of holiday..shiokness siol!!

pop on 8 jan at marina platfrom! i cant wait!

omfg..i cant believe i survive last week fieldcamp lool..anyway..all i can say i still cannot believe i can pull it thru despite all my injuries all over and the harsh condition in the jungle..well done to myself..sortof feeling funneh when i came back to civilisation cos all i see everyday is trees and mud lol

cannot book out this week end cos of sitest..which includes a 12km route march and 3 days outfield which also suay suay happens on sunday..so sad..i just hate outfield esp when its rainy season..kena bite by leeches mosquitos..sleep in mud..eating dirty food..but coming to think of that..its quite an achievement eh?? lol

my left foot still hurts alot..just hope i can pull thru this 2 weeks of another busy week..

chirstmas is very neear already! but i stil dun have the mood to look forward to it sia..dunno whey

lastly..good luck to soon for his enlistment..hahah..dun worry be happy...its will be fun :D

this week is a lepak week..book out on tuesday night and friday night..activities were loosen down abit..although we like run almost everyday lol..run till my knee pain sia..urban ops on thursday was fucking awesome mans! route march 6km i forgot to wear double socks..resulting blisters on my toes and heels..dam pain but i made it thru

next week gonna be a start of hell in bmt..once again..its just any other soldier have to pass thru..8km route march to campsite..this time must remember to wear double sock!! i predict that this week will rain alot..which means im gonna do everything in mud..oh well..everyone going thru this together..lets make the best out of it..i will hug her so close to me when i sleep so no one can take my precious away from me LOL

i have yet to watch megamind wtf..maybe later gonna watch alone at amk ba..see got time anot..

i wanna drink after all my high key events are over..its always me myself and i..i have to watch over my health...


thinking whether should i siao on anot

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