woke up at 7pm..everyone went out for dinner..home alone...sad la..9pm+ then ta bao for me...now going back to sleep again..sianzzz

week 7 is here...i dun like!!

u just have to believe in yourself boy
u got so many looks gal

work was totally bore just now..fav ppl all working at deck...sibei cui..lack of staff...yea..finally l4d2..so dam fun man!! me and kun just chiong only..the map so fun...but the monster also got new one..dangerous..weapons so dam cool...yea..play till 5+...slack at void deck to 7..now doing more research on the shit again...

another weekend burnt...wat havee i done..nothing

win liao...nao 7am and haven sleep..digging the net for fire protection system but found only words..not wat i want..k gonna sleep now...

i wanna count the stars
i wanna watch sunrise
when will that day come

why lei

work at deck today...nothing much happen..yea..working with yulin was fun...requested to go off at 12 cos was feeling tired..24$ gone..slack at pond with amanda till the rest release from work..slack at 401 again..then homed...

i think i see things too simple...thats why i dun get the meaning of everything around me...even simple stuff i also dunno how to interprate...tats sad...its like when something happen and someone ask u..u dunnoe how to say...but then when another person mentions this issue to the same person..then u realise " oh tats wat im trying to say"

give me a reason why i like tat...do i have a 人格分列症?

wat i want

working last night was boring at first...then busy at the end...yea so many staff..10pm releasse alot ppl...nothing much happen...after work drink hoegaarden with kit and naren...talk alot of crap storry till 4am+..send kit home then cab home with naren..

sian going to rain...how how...no mood to work...i hate raining days...

ok...gonna do some reaading again..

this speaker is so dam chio ok! design so unqiue..eyeing on it very long le...harvey norman got display...thinking of getting it for my ipod...

ya...free time at home..did some editing to my blog..yea..finally upload display pic...lol...that pic i taking by myself during fyp de...dam bored then play webcam lol...

stay back in library to do some research on ANOTHER project ,case study on fire safety system in a aircraft...alot sia...need to ownself find system design..how it works..and most important is to understand it...cos we cannot anyhow booms the report as our lecturer works in the aerospace industry before..cannot bluff..in fact most of our lecturers work in aerospace industry before..interesting

sian la..week 8/9 common test..and my study mood is not there..how how how

its going to be a long weekend..hope its going to be fun...yea..working with my fav ppl , l4d2 hopefully , i like!

downloading windows 7 since afternoon..dam it not enough disk space...need del alot stuff..hope windows 7 is better than xp

just pack my room..looks much better now...yea..especially my tutorial lecture and lab sheets...all diff module diff paper all mix together..now its so nice and neat..i like!

realised now its week 6..and common test is like week 8/9? and i haven been listening in lectures...i want to pay attention..but class is really noisy...left right up down all down ppl talking..how to concentrate...i dun even like small whispering...im selfish yes...cos i only want to hear 1 ppl talk..thats why u always see me listening to my ipod sing song lol

ok..gonna spend my time wisely..sleeping time ppl

something in your eyes i know i can't resist
something in the air i don't know why
you were hardly there when i was on my own
theres something about you that makes me cry

can I believe
that your heart still beats for me
let me receive
a sign that you're my destiny.
i wanna know

give me a reason
for me to believe in
cant you see it in my eyes
that i need a reason
for im still breathing
is it time to say goodbye
cos deep in my heart i know
theres a reason
why i am not leaving
why im not alone
so give me a reason
for me to believe in
give me a reason

today nothing much happen..normal day..tml gonna stay in school do case study again..sian..

i always see the good in everyone..yea..maybe i see things in a smaller view tats why..but why 99% of the time i always like tat...i feel no hard feelings when ppl shoot me...problems come i just do the normal procedures...i feel like a cold person with no feelings man...and when 1 day something really bad happen i will fall down very hard on my knees...probably i cry so hard tat day cos my heart tell me to let everything out...心酸阿

ah..hungry again..and i had a super full dinner just now...wats wrong with me!

BIG SORRY to all ytd..didnt know i caused so much trouble...didnt want this to happen...i wont get into that state again...i have made so many ppl dulan me..hope u all accept me apology

ytd work wasnt even like saturday...hai..dam boring...like normal weekday at outdoor...sibei sian..actuallyy sheledule to go off at 12..but got some confusion and misunderstanding and lack of staff...i do till closing..

thanks carson for sending me home last night..ok i sound gay but im not..got drunk and cried and he send me home..sorry to all who cant get home early cos of me..must control next time..

i want l4d2! who want?!

do ur best and god will do the rest

ytd school was ok..last lesson the lab dam pek cek...so hard to do..then me and jun yang dun want do le..go play with the spanner all this lol...he alot idea sia..laugh dam hard...

work was also ok..not much of a crowd..yea...wanted to go off at 12 as kit say kat is coming down and i thought of wanna chat with her since long time no meet..but then kit and me wanna go off..so aiya..i want let kit go since she put 12..but then she dun want me alone..so work to close lo..after work milo ice then homed

and ya! i am so addicted to restaurant city lol..kinda late to play this game..but still its so cute!!!!

cos its too late

today totoally tired...sleep in bus sleep in lecture..only lesson i was alert at ah yap the plane module..lol..so dam cool...our lab is to do aeroplane..fun right..do le can play somemore..but like kid like tat lol...

我要一点爱， 一点就好。

these few days ppl give me comments about me tat made me thought alot..我的心真软，他人说的话我当真。我真傻。我到底是谁？

你越想得到、你越得不到，陈文扬，不要一直想了啦！

我好累啊。如果可以一直high就好。

bbq just now was alright..lucky rain stop...yea...so fun got ah kon around..chef of the day..thnx man! after sing song go home le..tired..happy bday jess again!

time to move on ,陈文扬

caught 2012 just now ..omg i swear its dam nice..so realistic...but coming to think wat if the end of the world is coming..will all this happen..im really scare to think of it after i watch the movie..made me think that i should live up to the moment..dun care wat is the future...treasure ur love ones and friends...do wat u should do now..

ya..so finally this hectic week is over...comm skill presentation over...sar21 submit le...so free! release at 3pm...went to amk hub buy tickets with shin...played the arcade the gundam simulator..wah seh!! dam shiok! dam real..dam expensive lol.....pool with him..wah..not bad sia..can train together...then off to movie..

ok..im so tired now...and ya!! almost forgot..tml need buy buss concession..another 50$ fly off le..sad..and also jess bday bbq yea man!

nobody knowsss

i could sing these all day!

oasis rocks!

ok...wrotten some part of my script..tml meet at school 8am for rehearsal...hope everything goes well for us...and ya..we gonna wear formal whole day..so cool! hope got enough time go home change makan bath then work...

after tml..a piece of rock is of my mind!!

i dunno!

manage to done 50% of slides..still got alot more..now i feel MUCH better than just now...stil got comm skill sai haven done...pressure presure...okay

contentment denial confusion solution
rejection acceptance standing up moving on

where am i dunnoe doesnt mean i dun care

i have lost motivation to do anything...everytime i sit down forcing myself to read the notes and understand it..i stop doing it after 10mins..fuck..and this shit is dued by wed...and fuck..tuesday comm skill presentation and i have not done my own script yet...dun even know my part will be approve by my group anot...so lost right now...maybe is because i have stop touching the book since this march...so long never touch the book everything also forgot how to do...lost the motivation to study..and its only week 5...how am i going to survive the rest of the sem...maybe im just tat fucking lazy...

seriously i got some commitment issues here...damnation

i wish i knew nothing about anything

Today worked at deck all my fav ppl I like! Bao liang layyen jeolyn yen ping...so fun..after work drank talk cock till now then go home..hai..when it comes to some stuff I always avoid and when I come back avoid again..when I will stop this...yea diff ppl see diff things words are misleading..I'm dunno wat I thinking..I need some light in my life..

K gonna continue project again...hopefully tonight bring moi family to bliss makan...hopefully

food runner ytd at work...dam it the gratin so much sauce flow out burn my arm...high sia lol..and stupid rain soak my feet for the whole night...after work makan at 401 then send jeolyn home...thanks for the mug mr hock! lol

just wake up and realise i didnt switch off my laptop lol...last night i reach home bath le then do my work until i fall asleep...lol..no wonder i feel so cold now cos the fan is blowing me thruout the night....but lucky i waake up at 130 cos 2pm need send my friend my research part..heng ah!

ok...gonna spend my afternoon do the sar21 sai...wed deadline i dun want fail...

ytd work shag...got buffet at deck and im keying deck..dam busy...dun want say..some ppl altitude..after work plaza ppoool then home...

gonna spend time wisely..sat morning do cs de stuff and sar21..dam it why like tat..comes to group work always can feel some tension between us....i hate it..

ok...gtg bath makan work..cya all later

only manage to complete 25% of sar21...was dam no mood to do it..laptop next to my only..after a while went back surfing the net...and i made a discovery..loll...itunes got radio de..but is all ang mo country de..but also not bad la..surfing those blogshop..wah alot things so tempting..resist!

guess i will have to continue doing it this weekend...hai..i eat my words back again and again..i dont honour my words...im a big fat liar

tml fri sat work..dam...only left sat afternoon and sunday to do it...i really need a timetable...

i dunno wat to say here..recently all my surrounding the friends all so down..really turn off no life...just say out ur problem...keep it ur heart also very xin ku ma...ga...im feel tat i can help no one..tat why it also sadden me abit..

argh...perhaps this is growing up lol...kat is so true lol..

time to sleep..if only the night is longer...

push me

i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!
i must do 50% of SAR21 by tonight!

someone pls give me some motivation to push me!! im so lazy to move!

headache headache..today first lecture slept thruout the 2hours..dam tired..ah soon also...now back home..later going jogging with nic...like finally lol..

ok damit..teacher extend deadline to next wed...so i must not waste this grace period...aat least tonight DIE DIE MUST draw something out on the stupid majong paper!!


ok i tink i abit overboard...

ok..i think im having USTM lol...everything so easy forget

ok...TIME TO START !!! GOGO!!

so super tired now...after school rush back home makan bath then to work...heng never late...work in deck...ok la..slack slack..talk talk...then closing time as usual cock up alot...somemore have to teach new staff wash toliet...dam busy

think i should pon school tml do sar21?
cos really very tired man
this whole week deprive of sleep
im tired already
what should i do

yea..next wed movie thursday bbq cum jess bday..hope it will be fun..but hope i will complete my stuff by this week first

i feel so lonely...so lonely...i need some company tonight

spend some time reading friends blog...reminds me of those funny moments...yea...i love my clique...they rock!

and dam it...august i buy my ipod touch 388...then last month drop to 308...and guess wat..today nyp got it show selling ipod touch 288!! so heartache la...100$ lei!!...argh!! just let it go...

and happy bday jiawei and safwan! they like bro but diff mum sia...same year same date diff race...happy bday once again!

sometimes..i just want to take a long break from everything..to a place where everything is so pure...no worries no trouble..can take me there?

ok..i shall do some work on comm skill project now!

Work last night was o..help at deck with function...also okay la..requested to go off at 11 as it was getting boring..eated at 401 then homed

Just now I felt so dam stupid la...I wanna take lift to level 5...then I want press door close but then door keep opening...then I thought outside got ppl playing the lift button..I go out see..no ppl lei..I press close button again...still open..then I see carefully the button I pressing is open...LOL..inside the lift some more got 2 ppl.. I hear them laughing at me lo..dam paisei la..but thnking of it still funny la...lol

This week alot things to rush..hope I can finish my stuff...hopefully

Never wanna see you cry cry cry
And I never wanna tell a lie lie lie

Woke up dam early today...later gonna collect ah gong ash from mandai...hope I have enough time to catch some sleep and rush back for work later...my back is killing me!!

Like the cloud you
Drift me away
Faraway
Yea~
And like the sun you
Brighten my day
You brighten my day
Yea~

RIP,ILY

Back from the cremation at mandai...had 1last round of prayers before the coffin is send to mandai...we had to walk 1 last round around the coffin before it is seal...tears just came down and I can't help it..it is the last time we will see him...after the cremation..did alot of stuff..then now back home..super tired!

Today is sat and I'm not working!! How sad..I want to meet up with my friends but really tired and lazy to move!

So now it's over...after this whole thing..I realize I had a better understanding of life..shall not talk more about it...

Rest in peace ah gong...

another tired day...woke up at 12pm instead of 9am...gave tutorial a miss...went for lesson at 2pm...after tat go to funeral...today is dam busy...got do prayers...my nephew dam naughty la...keep jumping up and down...play the joss stick almost burn my niece...wanted to scold him but thought that hes still a small boy..dun understand..nvm lo...

i realise tat when everytime something big happen in a family...always bond us together...just now had a small talk with my 2 elder nephew...although we only like talk to each other everytime i go to amk...we ald talk like long lost brothers...alot random topics...amk de guys very late then got gf de...but i believe tat my love will come in time? random~

today is the last day and later going for cremation...gotta wake up at 7am..better sleep now...

i love all my friends...i will be a stronger boy!

i love u ah gong...i still can hear ur voice in my head...

stuck with each other

nothing much happen today...all very normal...went down to funeral after school...thanks jun yang and lim fung for coming down...really appreciate it...finally did a overview on the sar21 document...was dam tired...went off at 1130...tml lesson 11am..can sleep longer yea...

and dam it..i forgot to do case study on singtel..and i need to show something to my group tml...argh!! gonna rush on it later..

dunnoe why now everytime this time..i always get hungry...like tat i will get fat lo...eat le then go sleep..zz

hope everyone is doing fine in their daily life! cheer up ppl!!

live forever

today school was a bore...lab lab lab..dam piss off with the teacher..keep saying us year 3 engineering student still dunnoe how to use lab equipment...pls la...all the machine all year 2 never learn de lei...somemore all very new functions never see before...1 lab expect us to know how to use everything??

went to the funeral after school...saw my ah gong lying in the coffin...so peacefully...i could stand there for 10mins looking at him...its just so peaceful...i hope he will find a better place in the other world...

yea..after awhile i was getting dam sleepy as there was nothing to do there but to fold the paper...shall bring my sar21 notes there to read there tml...

finally thanks ppl for ur concern...i never felt so down in my life till tat day...i think we should really show how much we love each other before its too late...nothing can be done if someone is gonna leave for good...i should really find my purpose to live...yea..i know..blah blah and my rants

this song..delicate to my ah gong...u will live in our hearts forever

maybe
i dont really wanna know
how your garden grows
cos i just wanna fly
lately
did you ever feel the pain
in the morning rain
as it soaks u to the bone

maybe i just wanna fly
i wanna live i dont wanna die
maybe i just wanna breathe
maybe i just dont believe
maybe you're the same as me
we see things they'll never see
you and i gonna live forever

Ytd was full of emotions...after school I decided to visit my ah gong since it was early...then around 5 left for work...on my way home a blind man ask me if whether I can help him...I wanted to help..but told him I'm in a rush to work...really feel bad leaving him walking on his own..but there's nothing I can do...I'm so sorry

Back to work payday..was super dam happy as I had 700+ this month... Was smiling all the time during work..working with ruth so fun..can talk crap...she wanted to go off early since she do opening...I don't mind doing all the way..then around 930 I recieve bad news from my mum...my ah gong just passed away..I cannot believe it...he was still fine the afternoon when I visit him..why now like tat..my mum tell me to go home..so I requested to go off at 10...

He has work hard his whole life..he now needs a good long rest..rest in peace ah gong

finally done my comm skill...a load of my mind...anyway..today i woke up at 530...nothing to do...cooked noodles to eat...feel like going out makan and to bliss for hoegaarden..but was lazy to move..

read a post by my friend and she said "born to die, force to live" maybe tats wat life is all about...its simple...argh i need to get out!

this week i think is going to be a busyy week...human factor module need to submit a 50 page silde DRAFT by next week!! gona spend this week study sar21 document...80+ pages long sia..

and also i will try my best this week to go visit my ah gong if i have time...my mum say today she go visit him he is skinnier than the last time we went...really so heartache to think of that

tues thurs fri work...all 7pm...hope i have time to go according to my plans...

and steamboat seession...sad thing...maybe next time...i try to figure out something big...old bliss clique..+ new bliss clique ( edwin's gang)

movie movie i wanna watch MJ this is it and jeniffer body..tml or wed night anyone? at amk hub..and next week 2012 also out...so looking forward to it

ok..gonna sleep now..sleepy again.

fish n chip

didnt update these few days as quite busy with work...thursday work was alrite...nothing much...friday was super slack...dam rain plus making me work in deck key worsen my dam flu...

updates on schools..project are like more than my fingers and i dun even bother to keep track of wats coming in...i need someone to scold me or remind me to do someting about it!..CS HF AOP...and 1 or 2 more module i think

today work was better than friday..but still dam rain ruin everything...going out with them is so fun..we talk about how to talk in a monster tone..."thank you for your attention"...in monster tone naren say " fuck you for your attention"..lol la..."bye bye" become "chee bye" lol..still got alot i dun want so vulgar le.naren and kit did a good job to do some entertainment..best...i didnt wear my mask as i expected...painted my face and wear the witch hat...yea..and that BP wear it..eee..time pass quite slow..had alot games...drinking game best....took alot photos...who gonna fb them?? i want i want..

was disapointed just now as i thought they will open indoor for us to eat drink talk like last time xmas..since they said it was a party and celebration..instead it was like eat n go session...everyone eat le then go le..really so no mood and demoralise...and to add on...i think i have to cancel this coming sat steamboat...the doc say my ah gong case....can only make it for 2 weeks or this month...i knew the truth have to come...the truth always is like tat...wat can i do...im really lost for actions..i need someone to confort me so badly right now...