dame tired...overslept made soon and the rest wait for me..sorri all..had dinner at astons..double up chicken..full siol..caught legion...angels with cool metal wings and maces!..nice..the uncle behind dam noisy..after tat homed...didnt went to slack...no im not emo..jus tired

now i worry the most is my parents..my father is in this condition now and my mum is getting no better...time for me to be fulfil the duties as a son...i think i want to go to market again next week lol...like fun siol

sometimes we need a angel to tell us who we really are...to the world u might be only just 1 person...but to that person..u might be the reason he is fighting to live for...

dun lose faith

work last night was boring..time pass very slow..after work plaza pool..all so seem to be tired..thanks for coming play with me...

back from market..dam..very long never go le..now go alone..forget so much stuffs..but still..i manage to get all the things i need to buy..lol..

ok gonna catch some sleep naos...meeting 5pm at hougang mall later..hope can wake up

today is a short day in school..did the circuit for fire protection..i feel so good..so shiok when all the circuit we combine together can work!..its not easy u know..lol...work today was fun also..though starting very cock up..sory i sianed at closing..i feel so worn out by so many stuff going on..

and also sory all who wanted go plaza just now..i dun want my mum to suffer anymore...tml..i confirm can go cos after tat i go home bath then go straight to market buy gocery de..i so good boy right lol

daddy op finnish ald..now transfer back in ward..going to visit him tml afternoon..hope i have enough time to rush back for work at 6..

ok time to start work again.

Last night work was fun with all my fav ppl! I like! Milo bing at 401 then home to do sar21..and then duno why I fond myself sleeping and woke up at 10...dam tonight continue do

sohai la ttsh..put my father at 1 corner for 2 days with no food and now he is sick and can't do operation..my uncle dam hot last night call ttsh scold them and want transfer to sgh..damnation..if like that he will be more sick...just give him a proper ward to rest in and not in some lapsap corridor corner wtf...

Okie gotta get ready for school..I feel so wasted lol after skipping school for 2 days

went down to hospital with mummy today see father..lol..he keep asking my mother operation pain anot...in the end confirm the op is at 6pm..dunnoe end at wat time..gotta work later..hope its fun..

guess i will stay up tonight to finnish my sar21..

opennet.com.sg check it out!

dam..why like tat..hais

skipping school tml..father going operation but dunno wat time...im so scared even though its not me going for operation...hais..why this year so suay?!

pls help pray for my father though its a small operation..i dun want anything bad to happen

this morning went to sim lim get components for project again..dam tired and sian by the weather..then back to school do lab then go home...

sian i wanted to start doing sar21 tonight but bad news came =( why 1st month of 2010 so many bad news

had a small class test today..nothing much...school now is like a routine..only left projects to submit..and im not scare..why...next week is feb..guess is the end of the 1st month of 2010 huh..

sar21 final report deadline is this week and i haven even touch on it since the last time i touch it...after tat is big exams and i haven revised anything..i need to buck up!!

im so in love with avatar...the images are still fresh in my mind..i wanna watch it again..who wanna?

Today like whole day pon school..had lunch at amk hawker with soon and his class..after all went to LAN except me and soon lol..thanks man...play play play till 2pm then go home since I not in the mood to do anything..

I'm so confused..at the edge of darkness

mum just came in and give small 1 to 1 talk...she cried while talking to me...im feel i have seriously neglected her since i start working at bliss...everyday after work go plaza pool l4d..she told me for every hour she will look at the clock and see i am back anot..this few months i have been home late and she didnt sleep very well...i feel very awfull..she has a illness for more than 10 years and still struggling to take care of me...i want to show her tat im a grown up boy but i think im doing it the wrong way..im very scared by the words my mum told me...not threatening me but i feel theres something big going on and she dun want me to know..im so scared...i have been a bad boy for so long and i didnt realise it...why why why

work last night was fun.. work at 3pm with weijian..time pass slow and fast..l4d and pooll...yea..l4d no mood keep losing..but pool i win alot llol!! then makan breakfast with carson..slack and book avatar 3d at 3pm online lol...

woke up at 2pm..omg carson thanks man lol...call me 35 times still no wake up come up my house knock my window then i wake up...rush to ehub...dam nice though i watch avatar 2nd time..couple seat again lol!!

then back to 401 makan as carson got work...after tat slack awhile with zhiyin then go home le...

im super tired..my eyes are dry my skin is dry my backache my heart problem...wat more can come.i wish time could just stop for a moment...

today work was ok..no trouble at all...after work l4d with kon...and pool awhile..standard...now back home wash clothes cos working at 3 later...hope i dun die later on..

cny is coming..but i dun have any mood looking forward to it...i think its going to boring cny this year...nothing but work..sooo turn off...and somemore its valentines'...blah...

army daze coming.

something the book doesnt teach

ytd appointment was the first to reach...and guess wat...dam i got refer to cardiologist specialist at alexander hospital...dame sad...why 2 time checkup still like tat...the doc keep asking my got shortness of breathe breathing difficulty anot...i feel dun have lei...or is this heart problem that has develop long ago but i didnt realise it..abit scare la..

ytd work very little ppl...dam bored...super busy around 9+...some many customer run here and there..forget it..slack at 401 with amanda and gang..talk talk then go home..

just woke up..decided to skip school la..go there also do nothing..working at 7 later cya ya all later

wed as usual...school ends very fast..nothing much happen in school..late for lecture..yea..after that went home as nothing is on...

tml is checkup again...820 appointment..6am need wake up..7am go...hope pray hard just go straight to that station cos i dun want repeat whole checkup again..so tiring...and hope got time go back school then go to work..chiong here and there so tired..

teamwork~ the weak also can be strong

dunno why i have been eating alot...these few days i eat 2 rounds for lunch...maybe im hungry...and also...i suddenly have a crave for chocolate..bought 3 packet of chocolate and hide them in my room...eating chocolate really brightens up my mood

today skip last 2 lessons and went to sim lim to buy components for our project..then we tour around sim lim square..omg..its been such a long time i went back..ALOT nice stuff to look at...and also very tempting to buy..want this and that...

then after that we went to bugis street walk walk and also the shopping mall...wanted to buy a new wallet since mine is chui...went to topman and walletshop...saw both wallet i like alot..so didnt buy..

but i bought a NEW everlast shoes! hope it will last cos i super love it when i look at it..pain..money fly alot today..

today although was a short shopping trip..it lightens my mood..thanks ppl for bringing me out..hope there will be more of this next time...dun ask me why so random but i also realise it take a lifetime to earn money but takes 1 wrong move to lose all the money u earn in your lifetime...just suddenly thought of it..

yea..like soon said "good friends are not easy to find, so please keep them at ur side" friends like u are hard to find...i hope we all can be back to normal...after some time..

caught avatar ytd..like finally..omg tell u super dam nice..i wanna watch again..feel my breathing feel the heartbeat...tell me wat to do and fly...omg...so inspiring..its a thumbs up movie..10/10!

pool with soon just now and a little bit of talking...thanks man..

when a heart is shattered...it always takes time to put back the pieces

i hope everyone will be fine..times are hard..dun let small little issues worsen relations..we have been thru so much..its not the matter of whos at fault..its always begins with urself..i know i have no rights to say anything..but this is wat i think...

i need to wake up..someone come save me..i need a hero..im stuck in this endless dream...

its all for nothing

vs qualité, la quantité de travail d'aujourd'hui ... Était-ce ... plus de personnel nouveau qui ne sais pas comment faire contre le travail des employés moins anciens qui savent faire ... wat abandonner ..

après slack travail au terrain de jeu attendu pour bientôt à venir .. jure que ce n'était barrage putain je tremblais de froid à l'intérieur .. vent si froid et fort ... après tat dirigés vers ppool plaaza avec JALEX ... OMG hes so très pro .. qualifiés .. puis L4D avec Kon .. constants que nous jeu très rapide lol 1,6 $ seulement

après slack tat au Kopitiam hors terrain de jeu jusqu'à maintenant venu ensuite à la maison .. super froid fatigué .. im faibles perdre trop de chaleur .. Je pense que je vais brûler et bientôt mourir ... J'ai besoin d'un peu de soleil et de chaleur dans ma vie

wat de le faire .. i dono .. personne ne peut me guider .. seulement moi marchant au hasard

wentt to blood donation with carson this morning...dam sad lo...i cant donate cos they got my record in their database say need at least 3 months in order to donate again...then i only see carson donate..lol..his virgin blood donation..like nothing only...then went to subway at hougang mall..saw amanda..then weijian rena join in later...bought a present for stella...sorry cant go ur party..not say cant..i want to work tats all...bought katrina a present too! shh..and yea..finally i caught someone pei me watch avatar 3d...also katrina...tml siol..then also can shun bian celebrate her bday...

ok...i feel so shag weak now..i need something to alert me!

Ok a proper post..last night after work pool till 530 then go home..blogging half way then fall asleep..Carson still haven call me!! I think he back to sleep already..

Super headache now..I don't know wat to do later..

K avatar tml with Katrina! Like finally yea!

today work was totally pissed..starting abit slack...got new comer andrew...was assign to guide him..lol..but i dunno how sia..then went neear to closing got 1 table 81 5 flipino dam dulan...jalex almost want to fight them...i dam scare sia...we closing deck area le..this idoit drunk or wat...say pay 500$ more can sit at deck till 4am plus anot...plus he scold alot ppl fuck..wat kind of fucking attitude is this..fuck off..yea..he think he flipino head come singapore very big...sorry hor...ji tao si singapore...dam fucker...the scenerio tense until cindy came out to talk..alot ppl watching..i scare if really fight wat to do..why so many suker customers recently..

ok blood donation later!

Didn't really sleep last night...was doing hf quiz..and failed..sad later gonna try again..now that feeling is back again..like sick siol..k going to school nows

today whole day feeling unwell...whole bodyache..feel like my whole body tearing itself apart...very unconfortable...HF quiz still not yet done..next week sar21 final submission...good luck to me..

i feel like vomitting aagain

woke up quite early today as i went to sleep at 830 last night lol

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/cb_haiti_earthquake

dame..a brand new start of 2010 and the worst earthquake record ever over 200 years...sad..news said 500000 ppl could be dead..wttf worst than the tsunami last time...god bless

i feel so sick now...flu...toothache lol...headache...wat more can happen to me..

and ya..ytd just receieved exam timetable...22feb first paper..1st and 3d march 2 more paper..then woohoo!! graduate liao...1 more month to prepare lo..super fast..after CNY somemore..CNY need to study le...though 3 modules only...the content is like 6 modules lo...theory itself is a killer already...

ok...shall stop now..going to skool

school was a totall epic bored today...no mood for anyting...didnt watch avatar as most of everyone i ask all busy...wanted to go watch alone but like emo luh...next week see how...

im so tired...realy need a deep long sleep..put me away from outside life...

Last night start work at 8...super boring..stupid customer think he big big come here vent his anger on yulin..business ppl somemore..shameless lowdown ppl..dun ever come back fuckers

I so wanna skip school today as I have no mood for anything..just want a good long sleep

today later release at 3 who wanna join me watch avatar later at 545pm at amk hub?

ytd lesson ended early..for the first time..lol..wanted to go play l4d or pool...but everyone not in the mood so nvm..was feeling unwell also ytd..the sick mood is coming....im so cold...went back home ytd slept at 4pm sleep until 7am wake up...very refresh now...but the sick mood is still there..

ok..today later is my group to interview others hahaha..time to revenge..lol jk...working at 8pm today..got alot time to go home eat bath...okok..time to prepare to iron my shirt now..

Work was ok just now...deck is god dam busy...so many big groups..at least 4 groups...help them out abit...wine trainig course before tat was ok..learnt something new...

This week working Tuesday..sian...but got fun ppl pei so ok..dam wat bliss policy lol

just now release at 10..slack and waited for them to release...pool with Carson and kon...left4dead after that..thanks guys pei me pass thru this hard times..I really need to go out more

a few more months and I graduated..I hope to invite my friends to my graduation and also a BIG gathering or say dinner together..I hope

wed movie anyone?? Avatar preferbaly

something worth dying for

First cut is the deepest

Working this 2 days although tired but fun...Friday after work l4d..and jalex come play lol..fun siol..and finally sleep from 8 am all the way to 5pm..cannot make it to work..start work at 7...work today was ok..time pass quite fast...do alot lighting deco for deck and bar..dam tired but fun...dam steady..before 2am settle everythng le..after all come drink at my house down stairs..dam giddy siol..but I tell u..I'm wanna drink cos I'm happy....and i thought we cant finish the whole bottle of chivas but in the end finish lol..then i also abit seng seng...drinking with friends have never been so fun..

edit: now headache siol!

and yea..jailbroken my ipod..power sia..can download ALOT free games and cool themes

And hell yeA..I found a super dam nice song that describe wat I feel now..super dam love it..

Ok later going for the wine training later at 4...hope I can wake up later siol!!

so pissed off during work..all u care is break break break..so busy already i need run here run there dam piss...really want shout fuck off in ur face..nabei dumbfuck never do own stuff still want come do my stuff...omg...im cursed so many times..dun care...work is work..outside life is outside life..after work i cool down abit le..

spend whole night doing presentation...and abit of jailbreaking my ipod...so mafan!..i do do do until so engross then now forgot to continue do presentation..nice..now super headache.....i think i pon human factor later...so tired..

i think i have sore throat now..lol..out of no where kena..and i never anyhow eat lei..how siol..

weekend gonna be fun..i hope..l4d with kun..slacking with friends after work..

Ytd school was super tired even though ended at 3..after that rush Finnish the fire protrcion project..was super sleepy...wanted to watch avatar at night but no one is free or has watched it already...sian so go home

woke up automatically this few days without alarm clock..miracle lol

fml I hate it when i'm mood changes from hot and cold...

we all have to go through everything in life , at least once

there is a potential in everyone...just waiting to be found/discovered..what i learnt today - believe in yourself..never regret wat u do...theres a reason in everything in life

someone told me today - i need a direction or a compass in life

today interview sort of kena shoot but really hit me so hard...i think i come to a point i woke up..so many things happened recently i have no mood to do anyting..teacher can see it...i thought i was going to totally flung the whole interview cos i waas really talking cock..and everyone was well prepared..teacher said something really set me thinking...i dun see why everyone say im good...i dun see the good in me..most of the time i see good in everyone..i think i should change my tinkings

i think im a person who need solid facts, fomulas in life...like i love to get things straight to the point..follow rules..get wat i mean? what do u ppl think of me...tag pls ppl..be true pls

released early from school today..schoolmates jio go l4d then movie...then 1 minute later jeolyn jio wanna come out slack anot..but i aggreeed to scoolmates first..sorry man..thanks for all this small little things that made it feel im there

finally..watch a movie in 2010!..wanted to catch avatar but everyone watch it ald..watched bodyguards and assasin..omg so nice..made me wanna know wat happen after sun yat sen left...china has come a long way indeed...blood paved revolution...

ok gonna sleep..peanuts and heinken not bad eh..

Payday last night was awesome...earn quite alot this month...and ya...another amount added on to my last 2months savings..abit happy

I'm abit happy things starting to go back to normal..I will try to be normal at normal times..ppl said I need to be normal in order for others to treat me normally..sorry to all who have to put up with my attitude past few days..I will be normal

ok interview later... All da best for me

do u really read

first day back in school..totally sian cos alot things need to be done by this week! and tml have a mock interview at 10am..and my group is the first to be interviewed..one by one!..and i have not prepared anything...how am i suppose to die tml...god bless..

im so super headache now...didnt sleep for so long...cant see properly...very hungry...hurted emotionally...hope one of these problem will fade away this week...

ok...gona collect my pay later if i have the time...iron shirt and read up abit naos

Dam it...had a dam epic scary nightmare just now...I'm so scared cos I still remember who are in the nightmare...so real till I jump up off my bed...now I'm awake...and sleep for like 2hours only...

Ok Nuff said...back to sleep

Dnner at bliss just now..lol alot ppl sia...all expecting to get pay but in the end didn't...after tat Milo bing at 401..send Joshua home..pool 1 round with xianglong then now home..

借酒xiao愁，愁更愁.
I promise I won't drink to forget those unhappy stuff..it will still be the same after I wake up
now..let time heal

Slept until now then wake up...standard..later 8pm meeting xianglong for dinner..last day of holidays is only a few hours..I wish time could slow down now lol

watching spiderman abit...although they keep repeating the movie for like countless times...everytime I watch it..I feel like I need a hero in my life...or I could be a hero..that way my life will b totally different from wat my life is now

didnt sleep...got ah soon pei me stay up the night as he didnt have the key to go home...now he is sleeping sound at my room...bored...reading my old post for 2009...thinking alot about the past...yes..those are part of me..remeber those good days ppl...forget those bad days..im sorry if i made anyone a bad start of 2010...

thinking of schooling next week i think i will die terribly...tueday interview and nothing is done yet...friday sar21 and fire protection report...yea..most of us are still in the party mode...we are so dead lol...

last week xmas party steamboat and this week countdown was very fun...thanks everyone who made it possible...jalex esp...he did most of the deco all this..we got help of course...i will always enjoy having a captain like him...

sleeping time!~

I guess I have to let it all out...working just now was fucking dulan...shi Han should have just stab me with the knife in kitchen back then..ok at first work was abit sian...eugene call me go wipe wine... Wipe wipe till 10pm come out chiong none stop..worst still send alot ppl home...and I can't evn see properly in outdoor and it's always me walkig arond..not like I dun want to fix my specs...just no time..totally no appitie no mood for anything..put salt on my wounds..ok nvm lo

these 2 days working w/o specs although abit troublesome..but i also like...cos i dun need see how ppl look at me...just be myself..dun care..i think i will stick to this for the moment...

sometimes face problem matters alot...I been thinking alot..it's just when I want attention, no one care about me..I appreciate all those who really see thru my problem recently..that is because the problem is obvious and serious..during those normal times...I think I better be a loner

wat i want to say..ppl should jio me out more often

bad start of a new year...dun blame me for being so vulgar..now I dun care...since I can't talk well in real life..I still have here to say wat exactly I feel

Past 2 days working was fun...working with my favourite ppl at same place I like! Countdown was totally fun plus chaotic lol..some random but very kind customer gave me a burbon coke to drink..steady him...thanks man..I hope 2010 will be a better year for all my friends...

Specs spoiled dam it...today working having hard time keeping a lookout for customer calling me and clear table..but I have managed lol..just now even play l4d somemore lol..see how later can go fix anot

I'm so excited plus nervous about the coming months..in about 2 to 3 months I'm gonna get my diploma like after 3 years of poly..meaning the coming exam is my final and most important one...fear is one thing..when can I overcome it..after my exams..I hope the day I get my diploma..I hope I can invite my friends to celebrate with me..that will be so cool lol..I can't wait man..

I have saved 600$ in 2 months..great now gonna wait next pay then top up my acc

sorry to all I caused trouble these few days..I have made alot great friends worry for me..thanks for standing by me...thanks for all the talking u all gave despite I was unwilling to listen...it's time to stand up.. I will not lett all my best friends down.. Next time we drink I will not let it happen again..I said it u heard it..I want everything to be back like the way it was...u have my words people