mum just came in and give small 1 to 1 talk...she cried while talking to me...im feel i have seriously neglected her since i start working at bliss...everyday after work go plaza pool l4d..she told me for every hour she will look at the clock and see i am back anot..this few months i have been home late and she didnt sleep very well...i feel very awfull..she has a illness for more than 10 years and still struggling to take care of me...i want to show her tat im a grown up boy but i think im doing it the wrong way..im very scared by the words my mum told me...not threatening me but i feel theres something big going on and she dun want me to know..im so scared...i have been a bad boy for so long and i didnt realise it...why why why