so im back after 8 months

nothing has changed much, except the fact that i need to face financial pressure and stress almost everyday, plus stress from school. but this is the path i have chose and i have to face it. whatever comes in the future, i will just need to deal with it, be it good or bad.

after reading all the posts from this blog, i realized so many things i could have done better in the past. bad relationships and choices. we cannot go back in time to change history and can only live with our sins and mistakes, and hopefully will change for the better by forgiving ourselves in time. i cant say for sure i have forgave and changed myself, but i know that i  will be more tactful in handling relationships and making the most appropriate decision in my life

right now, i just want to spend more time with my parents and also find a life partner to complete my life. studies wise, i hope to graduate by next year august, and find a decent job that i like and able to feed my family. its gonna take 2 years or more, but i hope i can achieve it by then. although i will lose out alot to my peers, eg some of them are already married with childrens now, working and earning big bucks, i think as long i have the willpower to press on and bite the bullet, with support of love one and gf/wife, i think i will still make it.