getting emo...

zzz..poly life like 2 weeks liao..i can say that i know almost everyone in my class..

And the work is piling up everyday!!!..ehm..like only the project..lol..i have a feeling that i might not make it in one module..that is the electric circuit..the lecturer like mr lee tai shen..dunnoe how to teach one...zz..then he teaching ppl still can play maple in class..and he dun care..i really dun want to fail any module!!!..if fail one very troublesome one..

dunnoe why i keep on having a feeling of emptyness..dunnoe how to describe..like when i lie on my bed and close my eyes..i keep on seeing "nothingness"..like my mind is in a whirl..and sometimes..i even see strange things..like im standing in front of a really big dice...the background is white..then everything just spin and im like stuck in this state of mind..i really dunnoe whats happening..maybe im just too tired?...maybe..

and because of this..i felt "emo ness"...lekky's fav..lol..like everyday no feeling..other than doing what im supposed to do that day...only the process gives me life..the other simple things..like sort of emptyness..zzz..

and only a game keeps me driving..its "*********"..aint telling u..this game is abandon by everyone ages ago but i aint a buster..i aint leaving it..my close friends might know what that game is..but i aint gonna give it up..i've stick to it for 3 years and gonna stay this way till i find im bored of it..seriously..im sick

now its like 11.30pm..im half dead..perhaps another thing that made me feel so emo is my past..i mean from my thoughts from working and the case of my friend in working..shant say who is it..i work..i got into "trouble" then more "trouble"..then i regreted it..just like my friend..

oh well..why i wrote all this shit..i think im pouring out all my emptyness from my heart to relieve myself..u may see me smiling and laughing to you everyday..but deep inside..im really troubled..big time..

perhaps a good night sleep will do the trick..good night guys..