uhhuhuhuh

dinner and games at settlers cafe last night with bliss gang...damn fun man...play game need to shout de...too noisy over there....had cajun chicken...not bad ah....after that pool at plaza then drinking seesion at rooftop...lol...play alot funny game....in the end all drunk...i also drunk sia...first time drink until vomit...now just wake up...stil abit hangover.....later gotta work dunno can anot...anyway i want to go home early today cos 2moro attachment start le...ok...got to fill in alot forms for the attach ment now..cya those who working later!!!

give it a thought

yes ah!! FYP over le...haha...that day thursday woke up late...lol...9am then reach lab....then i go in mr phua inside le....i scare sia...cos i haven do wat he want me to do...then lucky got the graduation thing make him busy whole day..in the end...demo push to friday...that day i finnish doing report and Aes...

ytd was last day of FYP....mr phua on MC..lol...then we do a video to show him wat we have done...then email to him...i think mine will kena reject...lol...too simple le....had photo session with wanxi...want take photo with xueqi de...but she early go home....too bad lo....i will miss the DTs!!!

back at home ytd...i keep asking myself wat i have learn in this 3 months FYP...is it worth it anot....how am i going to continue the next 3 month IAP? is this wat i wanted? i thought on alot of random things...i seen alot things these 3 months...wat is a friend when a friend is in need...how fortunate we are...why we are so greedy...why life is so hard...why i fear so many things...why i have no guts...i may not have the answers to all of the qns that comes to my mind...but 1 thing i definitely know is we need to have friends around...all these summarise to the suzhou trip last month...i made alot of news friends...i saw who is the real friend who can knows wat u want to say without saying anything just by looking in your eyes...friends who jio me out for lunch during the last 2 weeks of FYP...friends who also jio me out in weekends for gathering...friends who talk cock in beginning but mark their words at the end of the day....all i want to say is i am glad to met all these suzhou clique...if not i think i might die of FYP in singapore..lol....thnx all of u!!

ok...badminton session just now with soon they all....dam tired...lol...badminton here and suzhou dam diff....in suzhou can play all day wont sweat...lol...lunch at koopitiam and back now...later going out again with bliss gang!! i cant wait..lol..so many people going...but i scare i no money...left 12$ here...should be can ba....

monday start work le....hoope everything is fine for me and everyone else....hope those starting FYP also good luck...lol...esp good luck to those who in ARG next monday...hahah

2 more days

2more days and this FYP is OVER!!! but IAP comes in..lol....hai...ST electronics only got 4 ppl in..me lim fung and 2 other guys...dunnoe how i should feel...very luan now...im excited for IAP cos i know i will be very very fun than FYP...can get pay somemore...yaya...my pay 500SGD..confirm le..lol..but hor i hear other ppl one even higher lei...teck lee...600 sia..good lo...i got 1 friend 700 lei..dunnoe wat they doing.....

after the IAP briefing...i feel very irritated...like both excited and nervous and sian mood all come in...want to punch the wall man....i also wanted to do something that i longed for...but it was too late..back to lab saw mr gui...i told him how i feel...no choice..at that moment i wanted to let everything out...then he console me talk to me alot of things that made some sense to me...i hear le abit cool down..thnx mr gui! i think i know wat to do le...hope so ba...

2moro will be a dam busy day....demostration + report +AES all submit 1 day...wah lao eh..plus all in morning session...but also good la...do finish le can slack or even go home le..lol...but problem is i haven do wat mr phua want...later he ask me i dunnoe how answer...really..not even touch yet...cos i doing report...hai...die le dunnoe how many times le..

friday i officially want to take rest at home...after work straight go home eat sleep...no work no go out...only 1 day of rest before IAP start

right now...i want to have someone to talk to...but sadly...im all alone...with my ds...lol....

no guts

dun bother me...i dunnoe wat i am doing and might go crazy anytime...why things have to happen so fast?! and only like 1 week....seriously i need so soul searching....im so pissed with my attitude...i hate myself sometimes man...ytd turn down deshun invitation to chill out on friday at clarke quay...i really want to go...but 1 thing i got no much money...second thing saturday i also going pub...abit bo liao...then i also want some rest..these 3 month haven been sleeping properly...cos of FYP!!..and worst is after this week next week IAP!!!...also same timing as FYP...for 3 month!!! until sept...only until october then can have proper rest...i dunnoe how i going to survive le...

back to soul searching..

why why why

didnt blog for 2 days cos was abit busy with some stuff.....friday work after school...dam tired although i in indoor...i feel so useless after i come back after 1 month....like so drifted away...requested to go off at 12...thnx ah rena...i feel like im not part of the gang anymore...1month so much things happen..hai...



ytd evening when to bugis eat steamboat with suzhou clique....meet at 630 in the end all reach at 730...zzz..lucky got wei xiong start eating with me first...if not i dunnoe how sia..thnx ah...then safwan shu jian weiqi came and we all drove to cathay watch night at museam 2...dam funny sia....they add in alot funny character...darth vader and the sesame street dustbin guy also inside...lol....show ended 1am....then drove to lavender eat something...talk talk awhile then 2am like then go off le....heng got sean and shu jian drive...if not all have to cab home...wah seh..sean he drive dam fast la....we in nico highway he drive 140...i in shu jian car cant see him le...wah lao...all tempt me to learn driving..septemtber i want learn drive!!!

sometimes i dunnoe why i want to help someone when someone is awful to me..maybe because is i saw some good in them or im too soft...i tried to be hard on someone when they say harsh words to me...i know its fun to joke around but please dont do it so often...i very easy down de...

I just want to be alone tonight
I just want to take a lil breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
and everytime it cuts me deeper.
Cause something changed you've been acting so strange
and its taking its toll on me
its safe to say that im ready to let you leave

Without you I live it up a lil more everyday.
Without you i'm seeing myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When i watched you walk away
Well i never thought i'd say im fine without you.

down

paiseh so many days didnt blog...was dam busy with FYP stuff...stupid la...we go back monday mr lim say next wed present...we happy abit..then next day say thursday present...all stun la..then last 2 days doing alot last minute work...i want help sean de...but dunnoe where to start...cant let him die like that la....then ytd really bobian le all come my house do...but also nothing much la....today present...lucky no mr gui ah...change to mr phua..cos mr gui i think he not in...mr phua sub him lo...then presentation...same thing la..alot feedback...made me thought alot things..why this why that...hai...why why...

i feel i let alot ppl down recently...alot things suddenly come in when we came back...i dunnoe how to reacte....everything set le then suddenly i cannot....i feel like a loser...last sat say want go out cannot...this friday...say want go out i also cannot....hai...i like i disapoint alot ppl le....all i need is someone i can talk my heart out and alot of sleep now...

oh ya!! one more thing!! im ATTACHED to........ST ELECTRONICS....lol...wah...me heng sia...there very near NYP...can walk there de....today just send in my resume...should be ok ba....1 june start work le...but dunnoe when go interview lo...and also!!! work attach to there pls tell me!! i dun want work alone...

ok...2moro friday le....i abit lost sense of time lo...thought 2moro thurday...friday...i work at 730pm....lets see wat has changed at bliss..lol....sat swimming with celestine bro...and ECP trip with suzhou pppl...sunday mother day dinner and celestine last day at bliss...hai...i will miss u de..dun worry..

ok..back to sleep now...i really need some sleep now....

21/05

today back in lab...the feeling so shiok...miss the aircon here...dam shuang..like suzhou de wind...lol...i 8am reach le...840 door then open...go in put bag..go buy water...then saw sean and soon how...they want walk walk around school...i ok...jio alott ppl sia...like gathering so fun la...that trip totally made us so bonded..lol...then lunch together at south...dam alot ppl sia..cos school reopen le..thats why lo...then slack walk walk...back to lab do some stuff helping sean with his usb...and mr lim finally came in..then ask about what we do in suzhou..alot stuff la..then come to project...all stun...lol...he also know...die liao le la...he only in lab until this thursday..cos he going reservice...means we need to finnish project by this thursday...next week present le...hai...mine can pass le..now need help sean out...

i dunno im doing the right thing but i know i didnt do the wrong thing in the first place...today i realise who really are friends to me....

ECP this sat!! lol...another outing with suzhou ppeepps....friday swimming session with celestine...sunday belated mother day dinner...lol..so busy this weekend

back and hot!

im back!! 935 touch down at terminal 3 changi airport...everyone was abit she bu de when we were about to go seperate ways from the gates there....i wanna thank safwan and the rest of the gang for bringing so much joy and fun to me in this suzhou trip...it was them who made the whole trip so much fun..though there may be some small issues when we go out together...we still overcome it...i hope there will be more outings together next time...today's outing i cant go..sorry all man...had celebreations for my friend later at night....so sorry...next time jio me i sure come..wont ps!!

ok...finish unpacking all my stuff...and sweated alot!! omg...1month only then i got so used to the weather there le...die liao...how i am going to fully use my billabong jacket in this kind of weather??...

ok i want to eat alot food liao...miss so much SG food...next time must 1 day eat all..lol...

meanwhile i going prepare some stuff later for the celebrations...haha..hope it will be fun later...dun get too drunk can le...lolol...

who bery good in using facebook ah?? i need advisor to help me out...alot dunnoes ok...helps

i dun want say anything about wat happen at airport ytd...dun noe dun care dun give a dam...i already lun everything le..now problem here le i also cant help u....u cant meess with freewill...let it flow by itself ba..

SQ833 10pm

today everyone dam busy packing up luggage lab stuff...not really busy la..just act busy...lol...then 3pm release le...we go fly kite again...dam fun sia..this time got alot ppl come...very fun..thnx ppl...actually after that want go makan with them de but then ytd already say today go out eat with china buddy they all..so cannot...hai...so luan...


just now play fireworks..the ones fly high high one then boom like national day one...dam loud and fun....took alot videos on it...will show it to u all when i return 2moro...

drinking session later at sean room again...LOL...i think i become a drunkard already...cannot play too much la..2moro need wake up early again..

2moro i will be arriving at 10pm++...dunno want go down bliss anot...see how la...very very tired now

i feeling very different from the feeling when i fly off that day...dunnoe if it should be like that....i hope im right about it..

excited + lost

today....total slack at lab...wanted to help out sean in his project but still cannot work...the usb..sibei hard la...i really dunnoe wat to do le...he need help and i cant do anything...i feel so bad...

just now drank some liquor at sean room...talk cock awhile then now back le...cannot drink too much cos 2moro need to do alot packing...

im broke...lol..my RMB left 30++ then dunnoe can tahan till i fly off from china anot...but SGD still got alot...haven use yet...zzz...i just realise 1 thing...before i fly off that day my uncle gave me 500SGD then i bring there didnt use it...then just now my friend brought up the topic on his father gave him 500SGD then it remind me that i should at least buy some stuff for him...shit la...i overspend too much on unneccessary stuff..i think i spend the most on overseas call..lol...400++RMB at least..

i will be back on friday night...around 10pm++...SQ833...i think after that i want go bliss find my friends then go out talk talk....1 month alot happenings..

ok..right now...i am very very very tired cos i didnt sleep well last 2 days...woke up at 330am...i dunnoe why..alarm spoil le...lool...now i think i should go to bed....

2moro is the last day for all of us to finish up our project...pls do at least something...at least go back got something show supervisor....jiayou all!!!

its coming

现在是凌晨三点钟
喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜
暂时把心放空
你晾的床单忘了收
没烫的衬衫有点皱
明天开始我将如何面对
没有你的以后


那些美好的画面反复在播送
但心破碎了之后
要怎么去拼凑
Baby Baby
Love can be so beautiful
只怪那一刻
话说得太重
所有的情节都失控
Baby Baby
Love should be so beautiful
你给的太多
现在我才懂
只有烟和酒陪伴的
凌晨三点钟
现在是凌晨三

pls end this

today OTOT...last night drank alot hard liqour...play alot games...true or dare...dam funny...i tio dare go take all level 3 de mop then put outside mr leung room...lol...dam funny la...every dare...all aim mr leung room...randy tio dare take all the rubbish put outside mr leung room...hahahahaha....i think 2moro will got meeting de...lol...everyone laugh like hell at safwan...he say we play game see who first one drunk then take video...then in the end he first one drunk....funny la...his drunk the pattern...keep talking alot funny things...then the finale sean pour alot liqour for everyone...wah seh..that one...dam high sia...everyone all drunk le...after all the laughing...plus liquor..i also buay tahan le...stand up like mabok mabok..walk 1 step fall down...another step fall down again...pain sia...lol..my room next door only...then randy and wei en help me back...thanks ah...if not today i wake up all bruises sia...lol..

lol..i think i still got abit hangover eeeven i typing all this..

today maybe got drink again..lol...but i think i drink abit only..cos 2moro still got lab...need wakeup early...

friday is coming...hahaha

!@#!#$#%$@%@$^$@@$@$@

all u do is only niam niam ppl kp ppl do this do that that make ppl feel irritated....u are the first person i really want to scold the f word to...i thought everything will cool down now...but now.....wait till u see back in SG who will lose out...im true to myself and done nothing against freewill of others...say watever u want to me if u see this or not..i dun care...i kept quiet at most moments cos i think its the best way to avoid trouble...i also seen alot things happening...i am the one who is watching the show...u might think i am nothing cos i am a useless piece of watever...i dont care...leave it to the rest to settle it...now i know why everyone believes in god...end of the day...we will see

happy mothers day!!

as promised...here are the pics for friday and sat....friday we went to 雷峰塔...the tower has a 白蛇 legend...u know...the white snake was kept under the tower....according to the legend la...then we went to this temple.. wat 岳王朝..this temple was build in memory of this guy...i dunnoe his name la...my teeacher say he is a legend because he is loyal to the stupid emperor...yes...a dumb emperor...and then he is the only general that fought alot of battles and never loses one...then after that...we went to his tomb there...damn big sia the tomb...i want to take photo...but this kind of thing...i scare scare....so better dont....and also...1 interesting thing...u know u see i took 1 photo of a small bridge...they say if u walk pass this bridge and fall down means 你是坏人...lol....the bridge very steep...but i didnt fall down...means 我是好人..lol...then we went to a tea factory...aiya...they selling and promoting the tea...and i abit tempted to buy some home also...so bought some 龙井 tea....no bad la...very nice the smell...can clear the intestine also...

ytd went to shanghai...nothing much....i dun want say...

today mothers day...happy mother day to all mothers, ah mas, future mother...i know its hurts to give birth to me...lol...i will be a good boy now..

ok...free time now...2moro also OTOT...i think i wanna rest...cos today i take temperatutre 38degreee sia...then take second time 36.4 degree...siao siao one the temometer...

to layyen..paiseh la...i no mood that day to reply tags...haha

more than words

today whole day OTOT at shanghai...tooo much things happened...i dun want to point any fingers or blame anyone...im disapointed...i think im better off alone than in a pair or group....now i realise how money is so powerful in the world...its either u use it properly or abuse it...one day i want to have lots and lots of money so i can go anywhere i want alone...go out shopping see wat i like JUST BUY...dun need hear other ppl criticise this and that...if want advise can..but pls dun shoot until like i feel totally demoralise and no mood to go shopping le...

2moro its mothers day!!! sadly i cannot celebrate it with my mother and ah ma they all....i bought a necklace with a pearl that has some words on it for my mum....hope she likes it...also i bought a necklace for myself...for some lucky charm de...lol...

next week back to SG le....2moro half day lab...monday OTOT again...means tues and wed can rush project le...thursday packing le...hai...im lost le...go back dunnoe how le..hai hai hai..

unwell

today whole day at hanzhou...went to alot places...but whole day feel like vomitting...dunnoe last night ate waat made me feel to sick...took alot pics today...but i think i will post it up on sunday cos 2moro we going out to shanghai...might as well post it up with todays pics....i dam lazy laa...eyes want close le...feel like vomitting again...ok...back to surfing net then sleep le

hanzhou

today half day at lab..did nothing....cos until 12pm only...then we makan at school canteen then the tournament started le...wah...i team badminton with sean..almost win sia....i think cos i too nervous le....i hear the judge shout out the score then it somehow affect my skills le...then in the end we lose by 3 points...and we play only 1 set...so quite fast end..but the basketball match...1hour ++ sia...they play until dam hiong ah...play 盖 ppl de...dam xiong...ppl want shoot le..then boom...tio 盖...dam funny but abit violent..

2moro going out to hanzhou....715am must meet downstairs...2hours ride sia...need wake up early..means sleep now...hai..i also tired le...

next friday!!!

带我走

“A woman without her man is lost.”
“A woman, without her, man is lost.”


both sentence are so dam true...lol...

2moro is the tournament with china ppl...hope i have some fun playing with them...im not those kind who die die must win....we are here to learn something...not forcing yourself to excel in everything...

im forcing myself to do work but i simply cant...i really want to let it out but...my conscience telling me not to...how i wish i am in SG now...things you do might be nothing to you....but to me in my eyes i see it as a mistake...i dun want to point fingers at anyone...so right now..i want to let it go..time is the best weapon...

lost

Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
But I don't know how

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall


today...complete sianness in lab...added some functions to my program....but abit useless cos i know it didnt improve the program....watch some movies...then finally lab over...play badminton...then dinner outside....then now then back...sian la..this whole thing repeats itself 2moro again...i cant wait for weekends man...SIAN LA!!!

voiceless

today in lab...did only some improvements to my program...like user can input which time he wants the time to stop...but nothing great..then party at 630...actually is singing competition la...then after that 9pm like that...go makan....back at hostel...learn to play abit daidee..lol...they all la..psycho me go play...bobian lo..play abit...then now everything settle le....12am...zz..so late le...i want sleep!!!..but just bathe finish cannot sleepp...so maybe i play awhile then sleep le...

(when this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That Im not the only person with these things in mind
(inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that Ive got left to feel
(nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain Ive felt so long
(erase all the pain till its gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like Im close to something real
I wanna find something Ive wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And Ive got nothing to say
I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(so what am I)
What do I have but negativity
cause I cant justify the way, everyone is looking at me
(nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own


right now im feeling exactly like this...i need some space...dun care me

kite flying

today in lab did nothing again...got pratice for singing competition for 2moro...actually quite fun la...everyone sing together de feeling very...undescribable....then went out to guan qian jie walk walk..dinner at pizza hut....back to school play kite with celestine..dam fun lo...although the sky abit dark...but stil can see cos got moonlight and the stadium light....the wind not very strong...need to run to make the kite fly up...but when reach very high le...the wind is dam strong...i pulll out all the string le...the kite fly dam high...very song....but i forgot the string never tie to the handle...too late to catch the string...then in the end the kite stuck on the roof...sian la...10RMB like that got le...lol...nvm la...i had my fun also...

i heard the swine flu is getting worse...and NYP also taking precaution say wat need thermometer for everyone....i scare lei...later go back SG alot problem at custom...pray pray la...

ok...i tired la...want go sleepp...cya all!!!

payday!

last night something bad almost happen...i wanted to help out but dunnoe some idoit tell me not my problem go back sleep....i feel like telling him " u not ECC de why u here lei?!" stupid la he...he MIT de tell ECC ppl not ECC problem...stupid..

why is it im always tio hl...i wanted to help out but ppl give face...give faces to me i give faeces to u

that celestina la...made everyone worry...she went out with may to guan qian jie around 7pm to cut hair...then do until 11pm++ haven come back...we thought something happen...everyone kan jiong also...i also thought my fault cos i agree to her ytd we go play kite in the field..but ytd raining cannot play...then i forgot inform her we go out with kevin they all...then i thought she xiao qi or wat la....do this kind of stunt...if anything bad happen i will regret de...but lucky this case is not like that...everything was just a misunderstanding...what matters is ur back safe and sound....everyone is happy now...

now everything ok le...dun angry about anything... 1 gal alone outside in the street after 11pm in a country u dunnoe will scare de..plus take taxi alone sure will also more scare de...u manage to rush back ok le...dun care wat that ghee hean say...but wat he did is also becos everyone is worried...if ghee hean do stunt mr leung sure know de...lets just hope for the best now

omg..today i woke up early lo...630am wake up go wash clothes le..so good right..first time wake up so early lei...later got time can eat breakfast le...

石路

today OTOT...bad weather man..drizzling and raining whole day...cant plaay the kite i bought ytd....play pingpong with kang yuan kailee and kevin...dam fun man...all so pro....then went out to 石路 shopping...bought a levis shoe for 69RMB...dam look like real one man...but didnt get the colour i want...only got white...also not bad la...

then walk around in the shopping malls there...dam exp man....all for rich ppl de...didnt bought anything there..if i buy there...cannot survive until 15/5 le...

dam the china mobile lo...eat everyone money...previous day i call back home i check the value in my card is 40+ RMB then ytd check again....-32RMB....wth la...but according to the person who bought for us the card...he say our card is something like got plan de...but is pay the money then use de...not like SG use then pay...then wat after the month will minus off the basic plan money then like that le...aiya...very comlicated the thing..i also dun understand...so i think i might not be able to call back to SG le...

its my fault...pls come back safely...i dun want anything to happen to u

金鸡湖

happy labour day all..sad la...today double pay cannot work....those at work de jiayou!! i miss u all!!

today in lab..totally did nothing..cos actually should be OTOT cos of labour day...but they want put us today work then next tuesday then off..dunnoe why..completely no mood...

just back from 金鸡湖...today they celebrating the wat 五一 wat 节....something to do with labour day de la...then got this thing like those water spray up then got laser on the water...like performance like that....dam nice....but the wind is dam big...then when the water all spray till high high...alll the water kena us...took some pics on the performance...but all mostly is video...so next time i back show u all ba...got fireworks de lei...lol...

lol...just now bought a kite...and play awhile down stair cos the wind is always strong...wah seh...i can fly it till like level 3 like that but then the wind suddenly change then my kite gg le...lol...2moro maybe go field play ba...OTOT 2moro!!