O.P

omg..today jiat piao from someone in office...now i know wat is office politics..lol...office is a hunting ground for silent killers...i almost curse the f word just now...but i calm myself down cos just need to tahan 3 more weeks and imma outta that shitttty place...and shin!! dun sad le la...like tat not u lei...

i have a crave to l4d...but sadly laptop is dead and my desktop is too lousy to support the game

do u believe in something call fate? are u thinking of him/her, thinking that he/she is thinking of u? i guess im childish enough to beelive in this

you are my fire

ytd was so piss with my cousin....reach home from school at 3pm...got so much time to do her work...then 11pm come ask me for help for alot qns...nvm...she is still a kid...i wont get so worked up just because of this....we were once like that...so cincai la....but then when i see the qns...i also really dunnoe how to do sia...all fractions de...i all forgot le...seriously...lol...then i also bobian dunnoe how to help her...so long ago de this very hard to recall...

and ya...ytd was suhana 20th bday...got a small celebration in school....as ususal...got make a bit of mess la...anyway..happy 20th bday susu!!

week 9 is coming to an end....nicolas...one of my iap friend..this is his last day of attachment...good lo...he flying back to america next week...good luck to u...

ytd just found out that my holiday ends at 18october...nice sia...holiday start from 21 aug to 18 october...close to 2 months...can do alot alot things...maybe i should go back to work and train up myself for nafpa...and also fix my laptop cos i have alot alot precious things inside!

not much happenings recently...day day is slack slack...coming holidays...overseas trip anyone?

i want to get my itouch before my bday...thats a present from myself to myself..lol...i dun care...

recently i read alot ppl blog...mostly all down with sick...i cant do anything...so just let me say get well soon k?? tats all i can do...cause i never catch up with u guys for so long and i feel abit bad...time will heal everything...

怎樣的雨
怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大
天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

the rain has never stop...never...it will keep raining til the day my heart stop beating

in the end

Although loneliness has always been a friend of mine
I'm leavin' my life in your hands
People say I'm crazy and that I am blind
Risking it all in a glance
And how you got me blind is still a mystery
I can't get you out of my head
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me

yea yea yea....

nthing great

today i was reading my previous post for this year...and i realised i miss out alot alot things.its only when i lost it then i realise how much i want to tell them i love u. so many things happen this year. good or bad...all of us with have beenn thru...as friends...thats where we found something call family..rights..friends maybe not our blood family..but who were the ones that go thru all these with us..its our friends...one for all all for one...im so dumb not to realise this simple thing till now..i regret not treating them as wat i should do in the first place...i really want to see them again...

i need a quiz to review myself wat i have done this year..something like wat would god ask you when u reach before him..anyone can do one and test me?? i need some enlightening...

i dream

catch harry potter last minute ytd at amk hub...lol...so chiong last minute say all come watch...lucky mother didnt cook yet..if not i sure tio scolded de...harry potter half blood prince...abit fast la the show...quiditch match also like so fast...then the dumdumbdore also die la..ah hai de professer snape...he really got bad guy face..lol...and i didnt know before half blood prince is order of pheonix..lol...i always thought is goblet of fire...

next month got some new movie ah..i want watch hangover...nc16...nvm la..lol..overage le ma...i always love watching those comedy movie make fun of other movie...like disaster movie...epic movie?? zohan...watch so many times..never fail to make me laugh out...

im having the same dreams for the past 2 days...is it good or bad...maybe im just too tired...tats all...


You make me feel funny
When you come aroun
dYeah thats what I found out honey
What am I doing without you
You make me feel happy
When I leave you behind
It plays on my mind now honey
What am I doing without you
Took for granted everything we had
As if Id find someone
Whos just like you
We got a little world of our own
Ill tell you things that no one else knows
I let you in where no-one else goes
What am I doing without you
And all of the things Ive been looking for
Have always been here outside of my door
And all of the time Im looking for something new
What am I doing without you

home

this is home
truly
where i know i must be
where my dreams wait for me
where the river always flow

this is home
surely
as my senses tell me
this is where
i wont be alone

for this is where
i know im home

sorry all ytd for leaving early...i am tired but not as tired as u guys...i am such an ass for leaving early...everyone was feeling so down ytd and i cant do anything..i cant do anything right..

gaaaa....back to dreamland...now very tired...

i dun want to be anything

ytd after work...jun yang jio ask want go out...then i suddenly suggest come bliss drink...lol..all steady...then come drink martell till closing...the contents last night was lol...dun want say...

Times are hard when things have got no meaning
I've found a key upon the floor
Maybe you and I will not believe in
The things we'll find behind the door

So whats the matter with you
Sing me something new
Dont you know the cold and wind and rain dont know
They only seem to come and go away.

kiss on the lips

i guess its time to move on...if u happen to read this....i want to say im sorry for causing some commotion during fyp times...hes a good guy...u can have my best wishes

"a kiss on the lips is a oath to our love"...so true...

life is a tough journey..everyone has to go thru it..sometimes i get lost..so lost i cant find myself back...someone once told me "dunnoe where to start is the best way to do things"..my this period of "dunnoe-ing" has to stop...i need to get hold of myself and get on with life...

this is life...i have to accept it...no point getting sad over it...i will only lose out..do a good deed by letting myself go...

i promise i wont let myself down again

we'll see things they never see

back from amk just now gathering plus dinner at sumo house...got me nic lek jess and poh lian...usual lo...talk talk eat eat..go go home..sat ah nic...go book btt test date...

i dunwan to be so obessess in everything...why humans have to have greed...sometimes....i got so obessess that i feel tat i must get it no matter wat....this is good..as in got ambition...target...but target wrong la....in the end...i left the job undone....next day return...see again...obessess again...hate it man....

ok...maybe going to catch encore telecast of eclipse later...15 more min..lets see i can tahan till tat time anot...

ps: should i get a new notebook or just get ipod touch...cos my old notebook crash...got warranty till next year end...can claim ah...then claim le give my sis as bday present...then get myself a better one...OR just claim warranty..then get ipod touch..cos i been eyeing it very very very very loong le and very tempted to buy online...

red alert

omg...just now lim fung sis call her say she fever 37.9...teacher ask her go back home see doctor...she say she suspect she kena h1n1 le..cos her class already got 1 kena le...zzz...then just now lim fung take off...accompany her go see doctor..wah seh..if she really kena then lim fung will kena then i will kena...dunnoe should happy or scare...pray pray just only fever and notinng else la

this morning didnt see the eclipse...raining how to see...plus so super cold this morning..even now also cold..guess i will have to wait till next eclipse le...next year also got 1 if i not wrong...

i really need to make some decision in life now...i dun want to be walking aimlessly when i see everyone having their own dreams and targets in life,,i feel so useless when i see tat...i keep saying time is the best weapon...but in real fact i never make any changes to my life...i just cant bothered...im so selfish...cry myself a river also wont do anything...i wanna free myself from this shiat asap!! right now i just want this f-ing IAP to be over cos im so super pissss working over heree....schooling is so much better compare to outside working life...i want to work hard for the last semester of my poly life next term...cos it will be the last time our class is so close together...i wanna to treasure all those times in nyp...and i also want all those cold war between my friends to end cos this has to end...it will go no where...u cant hate someone for life...unless tat person insult ur parents or wat ...even sometimes i hate...ok..dislike someone...i also just get over...we still have to see each other next day...cant run away from it...the world is better with more friends...yes..but too much friends for me..i cant handle when all want to go out on same day...oh well...tats whole chunk above was some random thoughts cos right now i have nothing to do ....and i need my blanket!!!!

ok and also ya.... to all my friends out there...whether we go out oftenly or meet up once a year or lost touch for years...i wanna say thank u for being a part of me....i\wanting to say this long time le..but dunnoe how to put it to words..lol..my bad angmoh...

hopefully tonight boys night out or boys and gals night out will be fun..finaly 1 event for like 3 weeks..lol

look me in the eyes

today is a super boring day....morning almost cant start engine...then late le...then slack whole day in office...testcase everything all done le...waiting for new release now....

2moro is full eclipse....wah seh,....i wannt to experience this...hope i reach office early then can see...i want see live telecast on channel u..sad la..office no tv....

also 2moro...4e5 gathering...not say calss gathering la..is same group of our gang nia...and maybe some gals...they will be going out from afternoon for lunch and dinner at night...i only can go dinner lo...hope gals also can come for dinner...if not it will be boys night out...haha..looking forward to this only 2moro....the rest are all shitty shiat...

stuck up

just catch ice age 3 with lim fung and jun yang...dam funny la...today wasnt feeling very good...toothache...hope it is not wisdom tooth...plus giddy whole day...took panadol at 5pm...hoping i will feel better..but still the same now...hope i dun report sick 2moro...i want to be strong!

why everything has come struck on me at the same time....is it me tat thought too much...maybe im too sensitive...i say over sensitive....

no one care

and another week has just passed by...4 more weeks till end of IAP...

have been thinking alot stuff lately...how many ppl i have disapointed this year...how many chances i have let it slip by me this year...how stupid of me to rant now here when i didnt grab the chance when it is in front of me...i guess i am the one who i disapointed and let down the most...i dun request forgiveness from anyone...cos in the end...i still think that watever i do...i feel i will disapoint alot ppl...i have wasted alot time this year...serious...time has pass so fast this year...blink 1 eye..FYP...another eye..suzhou...back....IAP...now...finishing soon...like that 6month+ have already pass me by....alot things had happen...yes...if u read carefully during this 6 months you will know...i hope i can treasure more time with my friends..mainly cos next year graduate then NS soon...friends are hard to find...true friends are for life...sadly i dun have any currently...i have some very good friends a little here and there...its very hard to maintain friendship from wat i learn from here...i dun want to disapoint anyone but in the end i still broke my promise...hope after IAP...i wish i can have lots and lots of outing with all my friends...although i know i cant simply put all of my friends together in a single outing...i should plan now if i dun want to waste time anymore....


this week was terrible for me....lucky weekend is here...got 1 day sibei sian unlucky....later for work...office blackout...com software keep crashing...rain when go out...at home laptop spoil....sibei cock up tat day..

i wish i wake up 2moro and everything was just a dream...back to day 1 of 2009

where is my heart...its lost long ago til then found out its lost

swear to myself

omg..i hate myself so much....i want to swear to myself i will not touch the pc for 1 week...pls do something to make me stay away from my pc....its just another conspiracy i dun want to fall into...grrr

i guess my video canot be finnish le..cos laptop really dead now..and everything inside...and i got no spare copy...should i get a new laptop?? wait till i have the money ba...now no urge for it...i want itouch next month..aim hao le...

and yaya....22/07 they say got solar elcipse...true??? like that its on wednesday....morning the elcipse will happen de...so cool la...i want to experience this!!!

weekend no much activities this few weeks...very sian...dunno where i should go...


Do you know
Tomorrow I'll be gone
I need to run away
From who I am

And you know
It's a pretty world outside
But take a look within
My heart is worn out

ga...ytd play a quiz in facebook and came to this qns about love...wat do u think is most important in a love relationship...the second i saw the word " commitment" i dunno why i thought of love is not about commitment...shit la...maybe i feel tat commitment is just to be stay true to your gf and tats it..doesnt mean tat i love u today and dont love u 2moro...i cant believe i thought of tat...i guess tat why to love someone is something u canoot play with...its the freewill of life...but then...to be loved is a completely different thing le la...

ga...i need to get a life and stop ranting here..

its not over

firstly...to all my friends...times are hard....i dunno how to give advices....all i wanna say is watever u do pls dun think negatively can le...i know i always say this but i think its the only thing i can do now...i dunno wat is going on now...watever the problem is....just know tat all ur friends are here for u...take good care man

today went down to pasir laba camp...like finally..lol...wah seh..sibei strict there..dun want to comment...then i was introduced to the project...like dam fun sia!!!...i was supposed to be in the control room monitoring the simulation..the room something like radio dj de room...and and..i have 6 super big lcd screen for me to monitor the system...3 on top is the terrian...3 below show the system info all these...and this makes me feel like im the GM sia...cos down there when they got simultaion training...i am suppose to add in obstacle for them to carry out the simulation...like adding a tank or enemy platoon...then they down there have to reacte and shoot...so freaking fun la...

then like tat nia...friday i think still need go back cos they got testing...hope i get to sit in the controll room again...

ok ba i think tats it....jiayou +U everyone out there!

怎样的我能让你更想念

zzz...laptop died on me ytd...cannot even startup..guees i will have to go to acere service center again...hai ya....and and and..i do 下雨天苏州版 le...still alot edditing haven do yet...and everything in laptop...gg le lo...

week 7 just started and im so super sian le...today office blackout 3 times...not bad eh...can slack whole morning...afternoon...sleep...very very sleepy...i think my chair got the sleepy spirit le...sit on it can sleep de....

i feel like tying my teeth this sunday..see how..go check out those dentist and see wat they say

and...just did this quiz..lol..i have a brain of 70 years old...failed la http://flash.qq.com/viewwork2/0/2883/viewuserwork.shtml

ok...i think tats its for my life today...take care everyone out there...sorry if i neglected anybody without knowing it....times are so shitty now

body over mind

friday is here and weekends is coming!! wat i am going to do this weekend...hmm..maybe sleeping and eating ba..lol..ppig...

and 1 thing to be excited is week 6 is over!!! next week week 7 and 5 more weeks till end of IAP sai!!!..cant wait it to be over man....

today is wanxi bday..happy bday ah...lol...didnt know monday she tell me friday come back eat cake...i huh awhile...why no reason eat cake..lol..then ytd facebook awhile then realise today her bday..then last night do a little present for her...if not go there empty hand..dam paisei sia...

im so hyper now!!...just finish doing xiayutian ...lol...3months le now then do...aiya...just to share with u all ma...come back so long never show u guys any pics...

ok i will try to upload it 2moro.

parenthood

omg...so random lo...just now i in bus on the way home saw a pregnant woman..tummy quite big liao...then i was tinking alot things lo...it is such a wonderful thing of life...there is a life inside...so fansanating...in a few months time the baby will come to our world...well i hope the baby will grow up to be a healthy young person...

and also...i saw a young father..quite handsome de la...holding hands with his 2 little children around 5 years old...crossing de road...so cute la...i think that is something call fatherhood...being able to see your children grow up is really wonderfull...althoough things sometimes didnt go the way they wanted....all i realise is i jusst want to thank my parents for bringing me up till this day...and yes i know it hurts to give birth to me mami...lol...i will be a good boy...

omg..i just realise 2moro is wanxi bday...no wonder monday she jio me friday go back school eat cake..zz..dunnoe wat to buy for her maybe tonight i do a card for her la..

never say goodbye

today we got demo...lol...actuallly is just go there calefare only la...they want take photo of the products ma..then no enuff ppl...so call us go be calefare..lol...but fun la....the people really know how to make us laugh/smile...talk nonsense then auto smile come out le...not bad la...then can slack awhile....as for today still no diff...but i studying some interface files le..cannot slack till like tat le...

resist! lets wait and i wait see is that wat i want!!

last night went to my cousin wedding...omg...like i never go ppl wedding before..lol...got 1 time la..i think last time i went for other ppl wedding is like when im 6 years old...so long ago le...then only me and my father go...wah...very classy la the hotel...lol...then ppl keep asking my father when his turn to have this kind of event...sian la...i tell my father friend still long la...sponser me la...lol

friday after work went to cut my hair..then after tat meeet up with celestine go amanda bday at downtown east...lol..so many ppl la...all cramp in 1 room...play alot games + bbq...all the way till morning..i very tireed tat day...only manage to close my eye for sometime...anyway...happy bday again amanda! and thnx those who made the event a success..though i didnt nothing la..lol...

i need some moltivation man...should i go shopping with my mami now?

my daddy promise me he will buy the LV wallet during my bday...dunnoe he will keep his promise anot...i tink he say shuang only la...nvm..i slowly save up for it..so many things i want..lol

11 july is coming soon wat should i do...

live forever

fugging back pain till want to vomit
someone pls break my shoulder or pull out my right arm also can
i really cant stand it le
1 type keyboard so noisy
1 keep shaking legi hate this man
aug 21 fast come pls
st sucks big time
now week 5 le and we practically got nothing to do
day day..i do is yahoo hotmail wikipedia
wasting my life here
i want to get some proper sleep now also cannot
@!#$ !@$# %#$##$
i hate everyone equally man