today was call up for work unexpectedly..hear they very few ppl work..ok la cincai since im doing nothing at that moment..then go work lo...was dam hectic..immediately reach there le chiong all the way to 10pm close to 11..sianed..work to closing..after tat as usual..pool and l4d...wasnt in the mood to l4d..just sianed for some moment...

hope i didnt neglect anyone during these 2 weeks of mia..if so pls understand and accept my apologies yea?

now back from market...and dam i hit my little toe nail on the wheel..dam pain siol!

gonna sleep now and wake up at noon study..night i wanna watch rush hour 3!

tml kfc paper 9am..which means i gonna wake up at 7..no more funshion.com yea by...

im slowly getting to know who i am..i hope this is the way it is

wed 230pm marks the end of my poly life..i like!

warning: long post..pls take ur time to read if not dun read..haha

today studied at school..reached at 10..best..absorb alot today...i like..but sibei tired..nothing much happen.

hope for the best i can say...had a rare once in a while talk with my sister last night...i feel i can be a better brother..i feel i can be a better person..soon to be man...sometimes we have problems and feel annoyed and dunno who to turn to..might as well keep it to urself...wrong..just grab someone and talk to...so if u have any troubles bottled up just pour it out to me..it will always help..likewise im having the same problem i have alot troubles bottled up..so annoying...i can feel a bigtide ahead of me that i must pass through..hope my friends will accompany me through this part of my life

i must say this before this last semester of my poly life ends...this 3 years in poly has been like a roller cooster...ups and downs..hardest time of my poly life prolly is last year till now..year 1 and 2 are sort of easy..do ur work got attendance do lab test folo study guide do presentation..can pass already..made alot new friends in that 2 years..enjoyed air-con rooms where u cant enjoy in sec school..only in AV theatre luh hhaha...best part..dun need wear school uniform..yea..sorry talking all these lol...ok...back..then hardest part of my poly life is last year

immediately after year 2 exams..2 weeks break and my final year project starts...12 weeks sia..everyone was totally seperated...some go industrial attachment..or final year project..i can say i tio most suay one..cos most ppl fyp lab is at least 10+ people during that time..mine only 3 ppl..owned..slowly got used to the cold S446 ARG lab..everyday 830 to 6..yea..week 6 and 12 presentation all tio shoot cos never do properly..not to forget the suzhou trip during fyp..i made another batch of friends..they totally rock my life lol..closing to week 12 my relationship with my 2 other labmates and suzhou clique are like the best..after week 12 finally over...sad news come in..2 days later IAP starts

i was like wth..2 days break only and go attachment 6 months..that 3 months was hell..practically stoned there...perhaps we didnt know wat to do..we only help do some reports and analysis of their project.....but the experience was invalueable..i must say i dam lucky to be attach to ST electronics cos its near NYP and ST is a well known company in the electronics world...i saw alot wonderfull dam cool stuff..those producs that have never been introduecd to the market yet...really inspired me to be a better engineer..most of the time just slacking..ok..bad la lol..but heng didnt fail IAP..so i guess im lucky lol.. after attachment finally 2 months break came...dam happy can rest after chionging fyp and iap..those 2 events totally change my body clock and everyting

october..start and last semester of year 3..with the year 3 logo on my head i can feel the graduation day getting closer...year 3 study path mine is aerospace..theory i can tell u is 200% totally make no sense to u when u first see it...but slowly i understand it...cos near to exam ma..so no choice force myself these 2 weeks chiong exam notes..now that exam are here and gonna be so over soon...i wanna delicate some word to the foollowing people below..not in order dont worry just the person i can think of i put:

chow shin: didnt really get to know u until year 3..haha...thanks for pei-ing me pool,l4d study,do project,lab,group work,makan and all other small stuff during this semester..u are a nice person..good guys will get good girls dun worry shin..haha

jun yang: also same..really didnt get to know u until year 3...thanks for taking the leadership during comm skills project, giving ideas and really took initiative when being question even though its not ur question...u help out us alot this semester..thanks

lim fung: wakakak otar face..jk la haha..the most noisy but reliable lady in our clique this semester..去哪里？ lim fung haha..basket sia lol...thanks for pointing our those small mistakes we didnt discover eariler..if not alot trouble sia lol..

teck soon: same work place same block same specialise..best sia haha..we had studied together during those test exam period..joke about stuffs..i can say we are best buddies in school and outside...jiayou for ur fyp soon!

kang wei: slacker but DAM lucky guy...can spend 2 hour before exam absorb everything and score better than a person who spend 2 weeks studying for that paper...dam power la lol..3 years in poly i think all like that lo...dunnow how he do it de..thanks for taking the intiative to do the NE project when all of us totally forgot about it..hahah jiayou

meixian evonne: easy going girl..can talk alot de..thanks for pei-ing me talk during im bored haha

note: i will add on more in the future



ok...saturday night! i have worked so damn hard this week..i shall enjoy myself tonight! have fun people!

Didn't update past few days as I was busy studying..Monday paper was total scam..alot ppl like me folo closely to study guide and only 30% come out..hope got moderation lo..then study for the next 3 days till now..dam drain by just trying to understand all this chim terms they use in the books..but I also had some fun these few days..destress lol..we wentto play l4d after studying to destress..abit effective..but after that go home makan le then nua on my chair till sleep...

Now as usual..super tired after doing those past year paper..think gonna go home straight after this..eyes are closing..

Thinking of my last paper next wed..I got alot activities coming up..Thursday medical checkup and maggie's bday.. Weekends work I like!! 8-10 march chalet to celebrate end of poly..I can't wait!! Right now just need to get over this exams and bye bye nyp!

Wat will my life be like after exams? Universal laws is inflexible i know..hope I learn to open out more in the near future

good luck to all my friends having exams from tml onwards! after this its all over!






hold on...hold on
dun be scared
you'll never changed whats been and gone
may your smile...shine on
dun be scared
your destiny may keep you warm

cause if i am to go
in my heart you'll grow
and thats where you belong

most super tired day today...suppose to meet shin at hougang mrt at 12..then i 10am lie on bed awhile read magazine..then fall asleep..pig sia me..then 1230 wakeup he call me bobian ask him take bus come here...dam paisei siol...then slack awhile soon join in also then study slack...on and off...but i think i slack the most cos dam tired sleep awhile...tml going back again study...

wah sky so dark heavy rain coming..will the lion dance still be on? lol..

ok i think im going to have a early night tonight...eat dinner le then go sleep..still tired lo

last night went out with katrina to get the photos that i wanted...couldnt dl them from hotmail...then after tat went to lek house slack till 12..then went down to bliss wait for the rest to finnish work...yen ping is dame funny la...hahaha can talk allot crap lol..thanks huh...only weijun layyen and jess come play l4d...then layyen de other friends also come play vs...i like..

later 12pm gonna meet shin at mrt...come my house study tml paper ba..omg..exam coming why i still like so slack..ppl ask me i also like no answer..wats wrong with me

just back from market as usual...today i was especially early...620 reach le haha...even the fish uncle haven prepare yet lol..then i buy veggie first then fish..alot thing siol today..dam heavy..i love the walk home lol...so cooling

俺の仮説に、すぐにでも、何か知ってジャンプしてはならないことを私はやっていないイムは、過去には最近いない権利はありません。なぜ

today study only till 4pm as it was friday lol..dam slack..was called up for work...since that time im playing pool and nothing to do at night might as well go help out lo...

wah seh...dam power ranger today..cock up alot siol...run non stopp all the way to 12+..then machine chu stunt all bill all messup..then have to bill all customer and cannot take any order...fuck..so many customer keep asking why cannot..i also bobian...but cannot talk cheap tell them bobian...but also thanks la some customer understand..wish got more of these ppl around..so little staff and u expect us to attend to all the table at once..1:100 ratio lo.so just keep saying machine spoil lo..then dam dulan..once machine ready i send out 1 jug le then all table keep calling...and also table 25 that lady drunk..dam...grab me at ask for another bottle..keeping saying "i not drunk" mabok face walk not straight loosen buttons..lol..i just dun care her..

now super tired...gonna go back school study again later..hope tml will be fun!

and wth..poly fee increase by 50 dollars...but heng ah..last sem lol

random note: should i go register to study in uni? i see so many of my friends talking about it...maybe i should do some research

like wtf just open 1 week casino and this kind of thing happen?! siao liao la
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20100217/tap-033-indonesian-lost-casino-resorts-w-231650b.html


very tiring these 2 days..studying non stop...need to de stress lol...hope i know wat i am studying for lol

nothing much..so gonna stop here

This 2 days was hell for me...it's about my family..I feel my rebelous self is back again..but not as worst like last time..previous day I promise her I will wake up at 8am to go market.. Then I overslept and woke up at 830..then she face black whole day...I keep thinking wat I do wrong..just because I come home late for 2 days and like that.. Not that I wanna blame her but i really dunno wat I can.. Talk to her and want to help out she dun want..I dun want it to be like tat..couldn't sleep well for 2 days and still dunno why..stresss

this morning same thing happen..I dun want to argue anymore so I left for school at 830 to study..managed to cover the harder chapters..gonna study more tml..eyes wanna close ald..


Am I even a good son?

This year cny of mine totally sucks..this cannot that cannot then wat can...really put me back to negative thinking again...guess it's mine problem dun wanna spoil anyone new year mood.. Enjoy ppl

last night went out to drink with soon jeolyn at bliss..yea..drink till 1am...had alot fun talking with joe..thanks man..so much advices i dunno how to summarise...but wat i think most important is " just be myself" haha new year i look sad...nope...just bored...entertain me pls lol...after tat pool and l4d then homed..

i washed my fan just now and now its super cooling!! woo!! weather so hot i on max speed still very hot...now so shiok the wind hahah..

i guess the end is coming...end of semester haha...next week exams 3 maarch last paper...wat to do after tat...

meanwhile...have fun while u can ppl!

ytd reunion dinner was ok...not much fun i guess...bored out...went to plaza with bao liang and carson..talk alot catch up with stuff...then they left at 430..i decided to stay there till 530...yea..had thought about alot of things tat time...bought big breakfast then eat and sleep...

next monday 22 feb exams..gonna do some studying tml...now im so moody..sianed

Today work was total cui tell you..though working at deck fuck was so tired...super fucking pissed off.. Can't be even bothered now...just now drink abit... Talk talk then pool at plaza..reunion dinner tonight..hope I can be able to help out..

Suddenly I so getting back the same feeling back then... Or is it the alcohol causing all these? Even without alcohol influence..I still strongly feel weird..super hate it

exams exams.. Next week off gonna study study

wished i was remembered for something

Selflessness: In a world where many people don’t have the time or the interest in others, selflessness is a quality that seems to be less and less common. People can be selfless in the time they give, the ability to listen, their level of patience and the love that they give. Those who are giving and generous in nature have the power to make others feel loved, appreciated and special. While those who are self-absorbed tend to do the exact opposite.

Tolerance: Those people who are tolerant make us feel comfortable with who we are and special as individuals. All of us are different, and many of us have quirks and idiosyncrasies. After all, these differences make the world go round. Having the ability to accept people for who they are and not expect them to be who we want them to be is important in life, happiness and in the health of our relationships.

Genuineness: Having the ability to be real, authentic and honest is unique in a world where we put so much emphasis on the superficial. Feeling comfortable in one’s skin and being true to one’s self is one of the most beautiful traits one can possess. To have a REAL relationship with someone requires honesty…it requires hearing and giving input or feedback that may not always be popular…it means having the strength to tell it like it is and to not be afraid to face the consequences for doing so…it means loving people for who they really are…deep down…and not for what they appear to be.

Sensitivity: So often we are focused on what is important to ourselves that we can forget about those around us. Those who are sensitive are often thoughtful, appreciative and loving, in a way that makes you feel understood, valued and respected. Often, sensitive people are also self-aware, making them mindful of how they impact others with what they do and say.

Integrity: Call me cynical, but I think this characteristic is especially difficult to find. In a time when people will do things that are underhanded to make an extra buck (Bernie Madoff…can you hear me?), expose their personal lives to the public so they can be famous (balloon boy’s dad and any other reality TV mongers) and do what feels good in the moment without necessarily thinking of the consequences (Tiger Woods), integrity is a characteristic that is especially unique today.

Humility: Whether someone is super-smart, extremely talented or drop-dead gorgeous, there is something extra special about them if they don’t come across as though they know it all the time. Humility in those that possess extraordinary traits make others feel special too

i think i need more genuineness...wat about u?

today spend whole day at school doing AOP project..dam headache..this can work that cant work..that can work this cant work again...nb..kena cut by the metal on the door..work today dam power...3 outdoor 3 deck..but ok la..not that much customer..quite smooth...mr gopal came down! as usual lol..talk talk talk awhile only...

going back to school to do final everything for the project..dun care le..just submit wat u have..dun need to be perfect the cicuit..if want perfect working need 1-2 more weeks lo...

tml work will be fun i hope! after work activities!...sat if u ppl after work want come out drink pls jio me thanks

today Hf common test...40 qns 40% of total module..totaly wtf..die die la..after that went back to continue troubleshoot circuit..but still failed...after tat shin wanted to pool cos he very stressed..then pool when him then home..

tml mornig going to bring father go ssee doctor..dunnoe why his foot sore..

everyone seem to like going to fall sick..please take care of yourselves people! CNY coming!

the end is near

Sleep at 8pm last night till now..dam song but still headache...common test at 5 later...going back school study abit..

Now going to clean up my room abit..cny coming still so messy lol

Never too late to make it right

They say when you have problems outside family plays a part but when family have problem then who plays a part..

I feel so fucking useless now...not that I want to shout at my mum..if I talk normal she can't hear then shout but not in angry tone she dulan me..now she has to take care of my father and sis and she herslef is also in no good state..I really want to end this right now...but it's irresponsible of me to do that..but wat can I do?? Lost..standard..

back from shopping cny clothes...abit sad cos recoil didnt haven the shirt of my size..last piece only L...total bought 4 shirts $70+ fly..pain..

tml got school sad lol...wed common test HF..and i haven studied...AOP report not yet touched..GG.

Didn't manage to wake up go school just now...failed.. Dam.. Disapointed...now I feel so useless.. Wake up makan then night liao... Didn't do anything today...haiz...maybe tonight I go shop for my new year clothes..

dame bored naos...just now slack awhile with soon amanda and jeolyn..saw imran! omg so long no see him le..yea..talk cock alot..pool awhile at plaza then back to bliss..

carson! ytd u jio me go drink then just now i call u never answer..argh...

now at plaza with kon only..played l4d..clear the map too fast lol..nothing do..thanks kon man...didnt want me to be alone for whole night..kena lock out from house...thanks..

fuck..so moodless..suddenly mood so numb...i know i hope this wont last..cny here...

i show my emotions too easily...when im troubled...soon will know..ask me why emo..when im happy..im really laughing from the bottom of my heart...is this a good thing? or is it time to grow up?

back from market...lol...after 2 weeks going market..realised i really dunnoe how to communicate with the ppl there..i told the fish uncle i want this this this fish then another auntie came in and told him she want this this this fish he immediately take for her...then after awhile my turn...i think this is call regular customer..lol...they talk dialect..i know abit but dunno how to talk..maybe should learn more..those ppl there are really helpful..thanks man..

i dunno why now i like going to the market...like long lost feeling...still remember those days i go market with my father...walking home from market breathing in fresh air...watching birds eating on grass...feel the cool breeze..refreshing siol..okaaay random

shit i forgot wat i wanted to say back then i was on my way home...hate it!

hectic week alert! this week is so gonna be busy..




little things that made life great..yet we didnt realise it

today work was also same like ytd..super bored..alot troublesome customer...drink and vomit type..throw mug somemore..ytd got 1 throw bucket also..after work didnt drink as soon no buy liquor..so pool at plaza..now just back...going market later on..dam the list is so long this week..think gonna take a trolley with me later..i look like a ah pek..lol

layyen hope u will find ur soul back...i wanna hear u meowing~ again

if later come back i no tired i might want to go shop for my cny clothes..IF LAH LOL..

JUST get back up when love knocks you down

actually i care

today went to school at 3pm...dam sian...project not working sudenly...want die say die..sian 1/2...report still not yet done...wed common test...monday no school..wat a eventful week next week..cny coming...i dun have the mood looking forward to it like the past few years...valentines and cny on same day..great..

work is boring just now...fucked up new machine...too intelligent until all of us kena fooled by it...time pass very slow...sibei moodless...

im kind of affected by all the people around me...when my friends are happy my mood brightens up...when they are down..my mood also goes down with them...cheer up ppl...u know i love u ppls

tml after work im ffree to drink..but maybe not so much cos going to market after that..same as last week..ima good boi!

why is it there is always a big negative point in every beautiful things i see...

today work was boring..time pass quite slow but as it was payday so it was OK LOL..dam happy cause work 106 hours...earn quite alot..so gonna save up..gonna use it wisely..after work drank abit in front with kun and andy they all..dam seng..we chiong the whole tower lol..after that pool..keep losing as everything i see all giddy de..lol..after that jalex come my house do his ipod stuff..

school at 3pm tml...dam nice..2hour lab then release..lol..then off to work..hope tml work will be (Y)!

cause if i had to go
in my heart you'll grow
and thats where you belong

maybe i just wanna fly
i wanna live i dont wanna die
maybe i just wanna breathe
maybe i just dont believe
maybe you're the same as me
we see things they never see
you and i are gonna live forever

argh...skip morning lecture as i was working on the report last night..but still like not enuf luh...dam and tml is the deadline..shoulder like want to break liao...haven been sleeping well for so long...i think i need to get a new pillow lol...

k gotta prepare for school naos

today total slack in school...1030 break till 1pm..went to amk makan with other class..and pool too!..so fun i like! after tat back to tutorial then home..bought alot things today..veg and alot canned food..lol..and also some vcd for my father to watch in case he too bored...now im so worn out..and have to finish a report by fri...which means i have to start now!

i wannt to go somewhere faraway..where i can sleep all i want!! away from everything for just that moment




Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a beautiful smile
Can stay for a while
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

I'm so proud of my dad..walking on clutches is no easy thing..esp when u are very heavy and have a metal rod inside you..I promise I will be a good boy..I will go market every weekend and mop the floor every 2 days..slow down everything dad..u need a long break from work

I have to manage my money well from now..news year stuff and daily expenses already burn a big hole in my pocket and it's still burning..I need some planning dawg!!!

TOE-MAY-TOE!

got myself a new haircut...i tell auntie i want short but keep the style..then cut until so short!!! now i look like a idoit...sad..

father back home...now he lying on bed..i thnk hes been lying there whole day..lol..i see le also xinku..dun noe how sia...

hey apple! u look fruity hey apple hey hey..LOL SIBEI ANNOYING INDEED funny sia!! lol

only went to lab session this afternoon..dam common test next week..so last minute then know lo..good news...HF project submit le..can heck care le...but common test need study..

visited my father after school today..his casting remove le..wah seh..he tell me they put a 35cm metal rod inside the leg..so long siol..sad thing he wil be using the chopstick like thing to help him walk for the next 6 months..which means we cant go out that often le..and im going to army soon...im worried

been thinking alot..realise i attitude alot ppl who are trying to help me despite i lock myself up and shove them away...im so sorry all..i will try to make full use of the time we spent together

i want to have fun after exams...pls bring me to level up slowly..dun straight go lvl 10 hahah

feb is here! good luck to all who having exams and enjoy a brand new month!

braviest act of all : unconditional love

dame tired...overslept made soon and the rest wait for me..sorri all..had dinner at astons..double up chicken..full siol..caught legion...angels with cool metal wings and maces!..nice..the uncle behind dam noisy..after tat homed...didnt went to slack...no im not emo..jus tired

now i worry the most is my parents..my father is in this condition now and my mum is getting no better...time for me to be fulfil the duties as a son...i think i want to go to market again next week lol...like fun siol

sometimes we need a angel to tell us who we really are...to the world u might be only just 1 person...but to that person..u might be the reason he is fighting to live for...

dun lose faith

work last night was boring..time pass very slow..after work plaza pool..all so seem to be tired..thanks for coming play with me...

back from market..dam..very long never go le..now go alone..forget so much stuffs..but still..i manage to get all the things i need to buy..lol..

ok gonna catch some sleep naos...meeting 5pm at hougang mall later..hope can wake up

today is a short day in school..did the circuit for fire protection..i feel so good..so shiok when all the circuit we combine together can work!..its not easy u know..lol...work today was fun also..though starting very cock up..sory i sianed at closing..i feel so worn out by so many stuff going on..

and also sory all who wanted go plaza just now..i dun want my mum to suffer anymore...tml..i confirm can go cos after tat i go home bath then go straight to market buy gocery de..i so good boy right lol

daddy op finnish ald..now transfer back in ward..going to visit him tml afternoon..hope i have enough time to rush back for work at 6..

ok time to start work again.

Last night work was fun with all my fav ppl! I like! Milo bing at 401 then home to do sar21..and then duno why I fond myself sleeping and woke up at 10...dam tonight continue do

sohai la ttsh..put my father at 1 corner for 2 days with no food and now he is sick and can't do operation..my uncle dam hot last night call ttsh scold them and want transfer to sgh..damnation..if like that he will be more sick...just give him a proper ward to rest in and not in some lapsap corridor corner wtf...

Okie gotta get ready for school..I feel so wasted lol after skipping school for 2 days

went down to hospital with mummy today see father..lol..he keep asking my mother operation pain anot...in the end confirm the op is at 6pm..dunnoe end at wat time..gotta work later..hope its fun..

guess i will stay up tonight to finnish my sar21..

opennet.com.sg check it out!

dam..why like tat..hais

skipping school tml..father going operation but dunno wat time...im so scared even though its not me going for operation...hais..why this year so suay?!

pls help pray for my father though its a small operation..i dun want anything bad to happen

this morning went to sim lim get components for project again..dam tired and sian by the weather..then back to school do lab then go home...

sian i wanted to start doing sar21 tonight but bad news came =( why 1st month of 2010 so many bad news

had a small class test today..nothing much...school now is like a routine..only left projects to submit..and im not scare..why...next week is feb..guess is the end of the 1st month of 2010 huh..

sar21 final report deadline is this week and i haven even touch on it since the last time i touch it...after tat is big exams and i haven revised anything..i need to buck up!!

im so in love with avatar...the images are still fresh in my mind..i wanna watch it again..who wanna?

Today like whole day pon school..had lunch at amk hawker with soon and his class..after all went to LAN except me and soon lol..thanks man...play play play till 2pm then go home since I not in the mood to do anything..

I'm so confused..at the edge of darkness

mum just came in and give small 1 to 1 talk...she cried while talking to me...im feel i have seriously neglected her since i start working at bliss...everyday after work go plaza pool l4d..she told me for every hour she will look at the clock and see i am back anot..this few months i have been home late and she didnt sleep very well...i feel very awfull..she has a illness for more than 10 years and still struggling to take care of me...i want to show her tat im a grown up boy but i think im doing it the wrong way..im very scared by the words my mum told me...not threatening me but i feel theres something big going on and she dun want me to know..im so scared...i have been a bad boy for so long and i didnt realise it...why why why

work last night was fun.. work at 3pm with weijian..time pass slow and fast..l4d and pooll...yea..l4d no mood keep losing..but pool i win alot llol!! then makan breakfast with carson..slack and book avatar 3d at 3pm online lol...

woke up at 2pm..omg carson thanks man lol...call me 35 times still no wake up come up my house knock my window then i wake up...rush to ehub...dam nice though i watch avatar 2nd time..couple seat again lol!!

then back to 401 makan as carson got work...after tat slack awhile with zhiyin then go home le...

im super tired..my eyes are dry my skin is dry my backache my heart problem...wat more can come.i wish time could just stop for a moment...

today work was ok..no trouble at all...after work l4d with kon...and pool awhile..standard...now back home wash clothes cos working at 3 later...hope i dun die later on..

cny is coming..but i dun have any mood looking forward to it...i think its going to boring cny this year...nothing but work..sooo turn off...and somemore its valentines'...blah...

army daze coming.

something the book doesnt teach

ytd appointment was the first to reach...and guess wat...dam i got refer to cardiologist specialist at alexander hospital...dame sad...why 2 time checkup still like tat...the doc keep asking my got shortness of breathe breathing difficulty anot...i feel dun have lei...or is this heart problem that has develop long ago but i didnt realise it..abit scare la..

ytd work very little ppl...dam bored...super busy around 9+...some many customer run here and there..forget it..slack at 401 with amanda and gang..talk talk then go home..

just woke up..decided to skip school la..go there also do nothing..working at 7 later cya ya all later

wed as usual...school ends very fast..nothing much happen in school..late for lecture..yea..after that went home as nothing is on...

tml is checkup again...820 appointment..6am need wake up..7am go...hope pray hard just go straight to that station cos i dun want repeat whole checkup again..so tiring...and hope got time go back school then go to work..chiong here and there so tired..

teamwork~ the weak also can be strong

dunno why i have been eating alot...these few days i eat 2 rounds for lunch...maybe im hungry...and also...i suddenly have a crave for chocolate..bought 3 packet of chocolate and hide them in my room...eating chocolate really brightens up my mood

today skip last 2 lessons and went to sim lim to buy components for our project..then we tour around sim lim square..omg..its been such a long time i went back..ALOT nice stuff to look at...and also very tempting to buy..want this and that...

then after that we went to bugis street walk walk and also the shopping mall...wanted to buy a new wallet since mine is chui...went to topman and walletshop...saw both wallet i like alot..so didnt buy..

but i bought a NEW everlast shoes! hope it will last cos i super love it when i look at it..pain..money fly alot today..

today although was a short shopping trip..it lightens my mood..thanks ppl for bringing me out..hope there will be more of this next time...dun ask me why so random but i also realise it take a lifetime to earn money but takes 1 wrong move to lose all the money u earn in your lifetime...just suddenly thought of it..

yea..like soon said "good friends are not easy to find, so please keep them at ur side" friends like u are hard to find...i hope we all can be back to normal...after some time..

caught avatar ytd..like finally..omg tell u super dam nice..i wanna watch again..feel my breathing feel the heartbeat...tell me wat to do and fly...omg...so inspiring..its a thumbs up movie..10/10!

pool with soon just now and a little bit of talking...thanks man..

when a heart is shattered...it always takes time to put back the pieces

i hope everyone will be fine..times are hard..dun let small little issues worsen relations..we have been thru so much..its not the matter of whos at fault..its always begins with urself..i know i have no rights to say anything..but this is wat i think...

i need to wake up..someone come save me..i need a hero..im stuck in this endless dream...

its all for nothing

vs qualité, la quantité de travail d'aujourd'hui ... Était-ce ... plus de personnel nouveau qui ne sais pas comment faire contre le travail des employés moins anciens qui savent faire ... wat abandonner ..

après slack travail au terrain de jeu attendu pour bientôt à venir .. jure que ce n'était barrage putain je tremblais de froid à l'intérieur .. vent si froid et fort ... après tat dirigés vers ppool plaaza avec JALEX ... OMG hes so très pro .. qualifiés .. puis L4D avec Kon .. constants que nous jeu très rapide lol 1,6 $ seulement

après slack tat au Kopitiam hors terrain de jeu jusqu'à maintenant venu ensuite à la maison .. super froid fatigué .. im faibles perdre trop de chaleur .. Je pense que je vais brûler et bientôt mourir ... J'ai besoin d'un peu de soleil et de chaleur dans ma vie

wat de le faire .. i dono .. personne ne peut me guider .. seulement moi marchant au hasard

wentt to blood donation with carson this morning...dam sad lo...i cant donate cos they got my record in their database say need at least 3 months in order to donate again...then i only see carson donate..lol..his virgin blood donation..like nothing only...then went to subway at hougang mall..saw amanda..then weijian rena join in later...bought a present for stella...sorry cant go ur party..not say cant..i want to work tats all...bought katrina a present too! shh..and yea..finally i caught someone pei me watch avatar 3d...also katrina...tml siol..then also can shun bian celebrate her bday...

ok...i feel so shag weak now..i need something to alert me!

Ok a proper post..last night after work pool till 530 then go home..blogging half way then fall asleep..Carson still haven call me!! I think he back to sleep already..

Super headache now..I don't know wat to do later..

K avatar tml with Katrina! Like finally yea!

today work was totally pissed..starting abit slack...got new comer andrew...was assign to guide him..lol..but i dunno how sia..then went neear to closing got 1 table 81 5 flipino dam dulan...jalex almost want to fight them...i dam scare sia...we closing deck area le..this idoit drunk or wat...say pay 500$ more can sit at deck till 4am plus anot...plus he scold alot ppl fuck..wat kind of fucking attitude is this..fuck off..yea..he think he flipino head come singapore very big...sorry hor...ji tao si singapore...dam fucker...the scenerio tense until cindy came out to talk..alot ppl watching..i scare if really fight wat to do..why so many suker customers recently..

ok blood donation later!

Didn't really sleep last night...was doing hf quiz..and failed..sad later gonna try again..now that feeling is back again..like sick siol..k going to school nows

today whole day feeling unwell...whole bodyache..feel like my whole body tearing itself apart...very unconfortable...HF quiz still not yet done..next week sar21 final submission...good luck to me..

i feel like vomitting aagain

woke up quite early today as i went to sleep at 830 last night lol

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/cb_haiti_earthquake

dame..a brand new start of 2010 and the worst earthquake record ever over 200 years...sad..news said 500000 ppl could be dead..wttf worst than the tsunami last time...god bless

i feel so sick now...flu...toothache lol...headache...wat more can happen to me..

and ya..ytd just receieved exam timetable...22feb first paper..1st and 3d march 2 more paper..then woohoo!! graduate liao...1 more month to prepare lo..super fast..after CNY somemore..CNY need to study le...though 3 modules only...the content is like 6 modules lo...theory itself is a killer already...

ok...shall stop now..going to skool

school was a totall epic bored today...no mood for anyting...didnt watch avatar as most of everyone i ask all busy...wanted to go watch alone but like emo luh...next week see how...

im so tired...realy need a deep long sleep..put me away from outside life...

Last night start work at 8...super boring..stupid customer think he big big come here vent his anger on yulin..business ppl somemore..shameless lowdown ppl..dun ever come back fuckers

I so wanna skip school today as I have no mood for anything..just want a good long sleep

today later release at 3 who wanna join me watch avatar later at 545pm at amk hub?

ytd lesson ended early..for the first time..lol..wanted to go play l4d or pool...but everyone not in the mood so nvm..was feeling unwell also ytd..the sick mood is coming....im so cold...went back home ytd slept at 4pm sleep until 7am wake up...very refresh now...but the sick mood is still there..

ok..today later is my group to interview others hahaha..time to revenge..lol jk...working at 8pm today..got alot time to go home eat bath...okok..time to prepare to iron my shirt now..

Work was ok just now...deck is god dam busy...so many big groups..at least 4 groups...help them out abit...wine trainig course before tat was ok..learnt something new...

This week working Tuesday..sian...but got fun ppl pei so ok..dam wat bliss policy lol

just now release at 10..slack and waited for them to release...pool with Carson and kon...left4dead after that..thanks guys pei me pass thru this hard times..I really need to go out more

a few more months and I graduated..I hope to invite my friends to my graduation and also a BIG gathering or say dinner together..I hope

wed movie anyone?? Avatar preferbaly

something worth dying for

First cut is the deepest

Working this 2 days although tired but fun...Friday after work l4d..and jalex come play lol..fun siol..and finally sleep from 8 am all the way to 5pm..cannot make it to work..start work at 7...work today was ok..time pass quite fast...do alot lighting deco for deck and bar..dam tired but fun...dam steady..before 2am settle everythng le..after all come drink at my house down stairs..dam giddy siol..but I tell u..I'm wanna drink cos I'm happy....and i thought we cant finish the whole bottle of chivas but in the end finish lol..then i also abit seng seng...drinking with friends have never been so fun..

edit: now headache siol!

and yea..jailbroken my ipod..power sia..can download ALOT free games and cool themes

And hell yeA..I found a super dam nice song that describe wat I feel now..super dam love it..

Ok later going for the wine training later at 4...hope I can wake up later siol!!

so pissed off during work..all u care is break break break..so busy already i need run here run there dam piss...really want shout fuck off in ur face..nabei dumbfuck never do own stuff still want come do my stuff...omg...im cursed so many times..dun care...work is work..outside life is outside life..after work i cool down abit le..

spend whole night doing presentation...and abit of jailbreaking my ipod...so mafan!..i do do do until so engross then now forgot to continue do presentation..nice..now super headache.....i think i pon human factor later...so tired..

i think i have sore throat now..lol..out of no where kena..and i never anyhow eat lei..how siol..

weekend gonna be fun..i hope..l4d with kun..slacking with friends after work..

Ytd school was super tired even though ended at 3..after that rush Finnish the fire protrcion project..was super sleepy...wanted to watch avatar at night but no one is free or has watched it already...sian so go home

woke up automatically this few days without alarm clock..miracle lol

fml I hate it when i'm mood changes from hot and cold...

we all have to go through everything in life , at least once

there is a potential in everyone...just waiting to be found/discovered..what i learnt today - believe in yourself..never regret wat u do...theres a reason in everything in life

someone told me today - i need a direction or a compass in life

today interview sort of kena shoot but really hit me so hard...i think i come to a point i woke up..so many things happened recently i have no mood to do anyting..teacher can see it...i thought i was going to totally flung the whole interview cos i waas really talking cock..and everyone was well prepared..teacher said something really set me thinking...i dun see why everyone say im good...i dun see the good in me..most of the time i see good in everyone..i think i should change my tinkings

i think im a person who need solid facts, fomulas in life...like i love to get things straight to the point..follow rules..get wat i mean? what do u ppl think of me...tag pls ppl..be true pls

released early from school today..schoolmates jio go l4d then movie...then 1 minute later jeolyn jio wanna come out slack anot..but i aggreeed to scoolmates first..sorry man..thanks for all this small little things that made it feel im there

finally..watch a movie in 2010!..wanted to catch avatar but everyone watch it ald..watched bodyguards and assasin..omg so nice..made me wanna know wat happen after sun yat sen left...china has come a long way indeed...blood paved revolution...

ok gonna sleep..peanuts and heinken not bad eh..

Payday last night was awesome...earn quite alot this month...and ya...another amount added on to my last 2months savings..abit happy

I'm abit happy things starting to go back to normal..I will try to be normal at normal times..ppl said I need to be normal in order for others to treat me normally..sorry to all who have to put up with my attitude past few days..I will be normal

ok interview later... All da best for me

do u really read

first day back in school..totally sian cos alot things need to be done by this week! and tml have a mock interview at 10am..and my group is the first to be interviewed..one by one!..and i have not prepared anything...how am i suppose to die tml...god bless..

im so super headache now...didnt sleep for so long...cant see properly...very hungry...hurted emotionally...hope one of these problem will fade away this week...

ok...gona collect my pay later if i have the time...iron shirt and read up abit naos

Dam it...had a dam epic scary nightmare just now...I'm so scared cos I still remember who are in the nightmare...so real till I jump up off my bed...now I'm awake...and sleep for like 2hours only...

Ok Nuff said...back to sleep

Dnner at bliss just now..lol alot ppl sia...all expecting to get pay but in the end didn't...after tat Milo bing at 401..send Joshua home..pool 1 round with xianglong then now home..

借酒xiao愁，愁更愁.
I promise I won't drink to forget those unhappy stuff..it will still be the same after I wake up
now..let time heal

Slept until now then wake up...standard..later 8pm meeting xianglong for dinner..last day of holidays is only a few hours..I wish time could slow down now lol

watching spiderman abit...although they keep repeating the movie for like countless times...everytime I watch it..I feel like I need a hero in my life...or I could be a hero..that way my life will b totally different from wat my life is now

didnt sleep...got ah soon pei me stay up the night as he didnt have the key to go home...now he is sleeping sound at my room...bored...reading my old post for 2009...thinking alot about the past...yes..those are part of me..remeber those good days ppl...forget those bad days..im sorry if i made anyone a bad start of 2010...

thinking of schooling next week i think i will die terribly...tueday interview and nothing is done yet...friday sar21 and fire protection report...yea..most of us are still in the party mode...we are so dead lol...

last week xmas party steamboat and this week countdown was very fun...thanks everyone who made it possible...jalex esp...he did most of the deco all this..we got help of course...i will always enjoy having a captain like him...

sleeping time!~

I guess I have to let it all out...working just now was fucking dulan...shi Han should have just stab me with the knife in kitchen back then..ok at first work was abit sian...eugene call me go wipe wine... Wipe wipe till 10pm come out chiong none stop..worst still send alot ppl home...and I can't evn see properly in outdoor and it's always me walkig arond..not like I dun want to fix my specs...just no time..totally no appitie no mood for anything..put salt on my wounds..ok nvm lo

these 2 days working w/o specs although abit troublesome..but i also like...cos i dun need see how ppl look at me...just be myself..dun care..i think i will stick to this for the moment...

sometimes face problem matters alot...I been thinking alot..it's just when I want attention, no one care about me..I appreciate all those who really see thru my problem recently..that is because the problem is obvious and serious..during those normal times...I think I better be a loner

wat i want to say..ppl should jio me out more often

bad start of a new year...dun blame me for being so vulgar..now I dun care...since I can't talk well in real life..I still have here to say wat exactly I feel

Past 2 days working was fun...working with my favourite ppl at same place I like! Countdown was totally fun plus chaotic lol..some random but very kind customer gave me a burbon coke to drink..steady him...thanks man..I hope 2010 will be a better year for all my friends...

Specs spoiled dam it...today working having hard time keeping a lookout for customer calling me and clear table..but I have managed lol..just now even play l4d somemore lol..see how later can go fix anot

I'm so excited plus nervous about the coming months..in about 2 to 3 months I'm gonna get my diploma like after 3 years of poly..meaning the coming exam is my final and most important one...fear is one thing..when can I overcome it..after my exams..I hope the day I get my diploma..I hope I can invite my friends to celebrate with me..that will be so cool lol..I can't wait man..

I have saved 600$ in 2 months..great now gonna wait next pay then top up my acc

sorry to all I caused trouble these few days..I have made alot great friends worry for me..thanks for standing by me...thanks for all the talking u all gave despite I was unwilling to listen...it's time to stand up.. I will not lett all my best friends down.. Next time we drink I will not let it happen again..I said it u heard it..I want everything to be back like the way it was...u have my words people

ive learnt...

these few days alot things happen..tired..i need a pause button..its my fault..i cant control myself..im sorry

just realised this is my last xmas and new year celebration with my friends...next year i will be in army...how sad

edit: long post...take some break in between when u read

finally...2009 is coming to an end..this year is a year full of happenings..h1n1..dam scare to go out..death of mj...too sudden..though im not a great fan of him..but i think he is still king of pop...hes a legacy now..firstly school...reached year3..tio FYP and IAP...3 months...made alot new friends in FYP...FYP at first thnking is a total waste of time..but also got some use...during presentation..tio shoot until very jialat...but it makes u thinking..and thanks mr gui mr lim mr phua wanxi xueqi for accompanying me thru the fyp...yea...suzhou trip..definitely love that trip...suzhou clique..gonna miss ya..IAP..learnt tat life is harder than expected in the working world...gotta enjoy wat i have now...3 months in IAP..though short...i saw alot things that the book doesnt teach...2months break..got back to work...august was just a norm month..nothing special...sept was a eventful month...october...back to school...study path...forgot almost wat i learnt in year 2..abit lost and scared...but slowly getting back on my feet to study...last sem..cant waste it

work...alot changes to bliss this year...old staffs one by one leave..new staff come and go...jit and gopal..the bestest sup can crap and talk with...abit off the clique when i came back from suzhou and my IAP...slowly gettin back...had made some good friends there...wont forget them...they are the most active ppl in my life..steady ppl...life never be the same without them...maybe its something call friends are for life...though im always left out at times..i still feel some bit of love from my friends..i dun ask for more..i just want it to come from the inside..tats all....thanks my lovely friends

wat i have achieve this year...quite alot stuff..beside school and attachment..i also learnt abit of pool..lol..also learnt to drink lol..once in awhile ok..but dun everyday drink can le...i dyed my hair for the first time...i learnt abit of poker card games but still lousy..i learnt to stay up the night..lol...got myself a present to myself with my own pay..donated blood for the first time...travel to suzhou w/o family..experience the feeling of worry/fear..experience the pain of losing someone...had a gathering with everyone i like...i think theres more..but i forgot..watever it is..its in my blood now

below are some delications to those who had a small impact /impact to me in 2009 (not in order!)

mr peter lim - the best fyp supervisor u can find...which supervisor is so good tat he stay back after 6pm and run around blk s to find a battery holder and ic for you..and he even helps me to pack the 2 sets of circuit board for me because im flying off to suzhou the next day..im so touched by him...he also gave some good advices to my personal problems by telling me his story..thank you mr lim

mr gui - the stern fyp manager of mine...everytime shoot ppl during presentation until no words to say..but i think he pointed out alot points that i should learn...yea...in life there are 5 F's u are afraid of..future friends family finance (last one forget)..he said tat to me when it was the last day of fyp and i told him im afraid of IAP...at least it did some help to console me..thanks mr gui

wanxi - 1 of the DT during my fyp..very helpfull and funny and crappy...like the sun in the cold lab...very random at times...she is very cute...and super random like shouting in lab and playing restaurant city..lol

xueqi - the other DT in my fyp..looks fierce..but actually not..lol..also say lao niang..hahah..she is very nice...always give us warning...like director walking around tell us alt-tab...then got function also kapo some food for us to eat...she knows when to be nice and when to be serious...tats her good point..

sean - fyp lab mate...at first didnt really like him cos my lab only got sing nee me and him..then i was like wtf...3 months with them..lol..but then as time goes..i find out that he is actually quite a nice guy..'see and help' i would say...he can put down watever he is doing and try to help u even though he is not very sure how to help...then the best part is he also goes to suzhou with me..along with sing nee...i was dam happy cos it is fate tat we have met...at suzhou...though we really didnt do anything for our fyp project..i realised from him tat real friends dun need to say a word and they will know wat u are thinking...he helped me alot with my troubles in suzhou...together with safwan...making me feel like i have another brother...for this..i thank you sean

sing nee - the boom box in my fyp...very noisy..ok..but also very helpful..lol..she also went to suzhou with me...like the topic starter in the clique..w/o her is like abit quiet..best buddy during fyp cos im abit emo during fyp and had no one to talk to..thanks singnee

jiawei - long story to say...during year1..i was abit of a loner in class..cos deshun their clique together with jiawei..then i with raihan they all..then slowly to year 2 some problems in their clique and i see him abit sad so go join him...then i find him actually a observane guy..but too much already..and like to point out everyone mistake..but too much also..maybe tats his bad point..but during the last semster comm skill presentation...practically its my fault cos i didnt do my part in the report and he did everything himself..and we screw up the whole presentation cos everyone not working together well..teacher ask us why like tat he take on the responsiblility on himself..i feel abit remorse...so from tat day...i will try to keep my commitments well...tats why i learn..thanks jiawei

celestine - best buddy at work...always clear rubbish bin together...working at outdoor tat time..only need 3 staff can cover already...always alot story to say...and give advices..he now in ns...take care brother

soon - also best buddy at work...talk cock joke see girl..lululu~ haha..steady brother..heart to heart talk once in awhile..XGJH hahah...great pool buddy...dun smoke so much in 2010 ya..take care brother

jit - best supervisor u can get...staff welfare no.1 always cover us when got guailan customer..handicap toliet haha..face looks fierce ...but he dam friendly and can talk crap de...always good to have him around..sad thing he quited bliss on his own..its their lost to lose sucha power dam capable supervisor...happy new year mr jit!

gopal - after jit left..gopal became the supervisor..weallhategopal.com yea..dunnoe who sial..lol jk..at first dun like him cos he too tall and talks funny...but perhaps we slowly open up to him tats why he is so close to us after tat...he drinks beer to grow tat tall..lol..had alot fun with him..killing zombies after work..haha so funny him...heal me!! lol..why i die!! LOL! okay..then he also quited bliss..and worked somewhere else..i feel happy for him cos the place he working at has a much better pay than bliss for a full timer...but sad that no one can crap with during work..anyways..happy new year mr gopal!

jeolyn - the ctrl x ctrl v smile girl...dam cute she..alot of looks...english also dam good..always suan ppl wrong prounciation..cakeee ah...not cake.. she has alot funny hand signs..yea..all her idea...and also alot slang...haha..idea siol...always had alot fun working with her...never fail to put a smile on everyone face...thanks for everything u have done jeolyn...yes...u know it..thanks..and dun smoke too much ah..it spoils ur image

rena - ahahah..the skinnest girl in bliss..she alot funny idea also...likes to disturb ppl during work..she is a very thoughtful girl..always put others before herself...not a good liar..can easily see when she telling a lie..lol..rena..try be more adventurous this year k? happy new year may ur dreams come true in 2010 girl!

layyen - nice girl at bliss also..have a man voice when sore throat LOL! she thinks maturely...tats what i admire of her...work has been very fun with her around..playing games when very slack...talk jokes and PlAY WAX YA LOL! dam funny she...one of the few seniors of bliss when i first came in..i salute to all of u...happy new year! and also dun smoke so much ah hahaha

kon - the chef of bliss...i respect him cos he is a steady guy..wont count a penny by penny..had alot fun with him and the rest after work..pooling l4d..hes the best teammate with me..we can clear the map with 6 infected player with only 2 of us as survivors...steady right haha...happy new year! hope more fun will come in time

katrina - help me alot thru my hardest time during FYP and IAP...i can say she is a very rare gem to be found...though age diffence is big..but we still manage to put aside all these small little things and have fun...xiayutian continue-r...i respect u as a friend who im very lucky to find...cheers! happy new year and good luck to ur work in 2010!

naren - steadyy brother..good to have him around cos hes big and strong! just wanna say im lucky to have u as a buddy at work..lets hope friends forever buddy! cheeers!

amanda - gaave alot advices during my downest part of my life...really gave me a wakeup call with the help of others..she is a very nice girl...happy new year! dun smoke so much ah


and not to forget those who signed on the card when i left for suzhou!..it really touch my heart till this day cos no one has ever done someting special for me ever till tat day...tears just flow down when im in the plane when i open up the card...its the first time im recognised by everyone...i love u ppl..thanks for everything

lastly..thanks for all the outing organise this year..hope we can have more next year!


my new years resolution? 2010 is going to be a turning point year for me...graduation from nyp...hope ppl can celebrate for me..gonna miss those times in poly..3 years in a blink...ns...time to be a man...hopefully after ns...i will be more matured to see the world in front of me...besides tat..i also wish to have more new friends and also have a even better friendship with all my friends...more outings i hope to come in 2010...but pls before the time i go in ns lol...wat i have done wrong in 2009 is i was stuck in a vicious cycle over and over again..i need to get out and play

let us put bygones/hatred/guilt behind us k? 2010 gonna be a better year

dun cry because its over...smile because it happen..cheer up..


thanks all my friends and have a happy new year..may ur 2010 be a year full of hope and opportunity

hope u all will still be reading my blog in the future..thanks ya

thanks for being a part of me everyone!

enjoy ur countdown party tonight! those working later...hope we will have fun during and after work later!!! im so going to miss u all

steamboat was a success..thanks all who arrived on time...and thanks to those who pei me go market early in the morning! u know who u are...its a season of giving..i think its time..as long as everyone is happy..i will die with no regrets cos my existence is remembered by everyone...

pool at plaza as usual...dam cui...later working at 6...i need some sleep..

im so confused...wtf im doing...please help me

last night food runner with rena..total slack lol...after tat late crowd came in...dam cui..dun wana say..after tat pooled..then rena amanda marilyn weijian xianglong come my house wait till morning pei me go market buy ingredients...thanks ppl!! i love u..so steady pei me...after tat makan breakfast at my house..then 1 by 1 all down...lol..helped my mum pack the cutted fish meat all these...later they will come again help me out cook the egg and cut veggie! i super like!

now im home alone...time to blast some music...

tonight! i hope it goes well...hopefully

listen to me

ytd double pay work was de best lol...help jalex do the new year lighting from 8 to 1..power lol..sibei slack...after that camwhore abit again..lol..makan at 401..drink abit till 4..then pool awhile at plaza..then send jeolyn home then home...

tml morning going to hougang green market buy those stuff for steamboat..i need some guys and girls help..who can?

你總是心太軟心太軟
把所有問題都自己扛
相愛總是簡單相處太難
不是你的就別再勉強

Forever Love Forever Love
我只想用我這一輩子去愛你
從今以後
你會是所有
幸福的理由

today party after work was a super success..drinking session so fun...dam hungry cos ate dinner at 4pm..and tahan till closing...dun care just eat...super fun sia!! i like! do pumping eat chilli..just go only lol..chilli buay tahan supeer hot..tears just came lol..and xiang long...im not drunk k!!

naren!!! peektures on fb pls!!!

thanks to all bliss ppl for this party...you know who you are! ur simply da best!

when i see you
i run out of words to say
girrrrl....

today woke up at 8am...then was like wtf...9am appointment 8am wakeup..chiong down there 930 late...scare they scold me...reach there...omg..alot ppl..saw raihan deshun kangwei...checkup very boring..do this and tat...the last one is test ur iq de..omg..see the com so sian...2 hours..all like common sense qns...anyhow click le..headache buay tahan...then just now go ntuc buy alot drinks...sunday see who wannt ton at my house can drink also....


yea...tml is the night i like!!!

root of all evil

today dinner at just acia was a success...
after that go back plaza pool awhile then go home le..tml need 6am wake up meet 8am at redhill mrt..hope i can reach on time cos morning crowd

im so headache/sad/excited/nervous right now..i cant imagine wat would my army life be..im gonna miss all my lovely friends..i love all of u..it will be like another life...i dun wanna lose my relationship with my friends...i want to spend every precious moment with my friends...i want someone...anyone..give me a big hug...i know its no point fearing it to come cos tat day will still come...just tat im too stubborn to make changes..please god or my dear friends wish me all the best when the time has come..

i actually wanted to do something like this below since the time before i left for suzhou..but now i think its time so i will do it


rena
the legendary bliss banana, a very nice girl but she doesnt knows it. thoughtful good listener fun loving
its always good to have her around likes to disturb ppl big eater and still so skinny 幽灵~~

layyen
the xiaoyanzi.....best combo with rena and jeolyn...l4d kaki...feet can bend 90degree de..just do/go/say only

jeolyn
the cute and cheerful gal...can laugh and joke about anything...best combo with rena...very pretty and good gal..alot of trademark she use...

soon
same blk class workplace buddy..steady brother..paisei keep ps u...happy go lucky

kon
steady brother..got him no need scare anything lol...best l4d kaki..kitchen guy

weijian
good guitar player..alot things can talk with

naren
the bodyguard...steady buddy also..like okaaay LOL

kat
nice girl..though not active in clique but hearts will always be connected...

yea i will add in more in time to come..if i have time...cos so dam busy now..and dam..im hungry again..

just realise i didnt sleep well for the past 1 week..friday and sat after work play till morning sunday go carson house ton monday 3pm work after work alot ppl ton at my house..today..now ton till morning later go checkup....tml maybe drinking with zm..ton alone at home to do some important stuff..thursday friday sat..confirm play till day light..omg..im so cui

xgjh..get me outta here!

Today work time pass very fast...did opening with xianglong..washed fans...do Christmas decor till 6pm plus..thanks jalex for the food..was very tired..but seeing the final master piece I was dam happyand satisfied..working as a team with my friends is so enjoyable..and SORRY JEOLYN please forgive me

After work naren come to my house to do his stuff..then rena and the rest came also lol...play monopoly uno..5am plus all of them went off..only naren left with here talking with me

later going out for dinner at dunnoe where to celebrate jinyu bday..before that I maybe wanna go buy shoe and stuff...maybe lol..

I dun want you to think of me
I just want u to know I'm there for u
Girl you have sucha angel voice
Sing to me again

today woke up at 4...working at 6..so went to 401 makan alone..work was ok..food runner...after tat went to plaza l4d with kon jeolyn eugene carson baoling and modhama(sorry if spell wrong lol)...dam fun play versus..steeady ah lol...now back home..later morning going out to pay respect to ah gong...thinking of it its like time passed so fast..hai wat can i say..

everytime i always look back and keep i look out for you..maybe thats part of me for u already

later working at 3 with xianglong! yes i like lol..hope i dont die later

death

today work was terrible...everytime i tio ic why alot things happen. table 56 make noise...84 scold me..like wtf..tootally dimoralise...didnt go to plaza after work as most of them went to drink...went to carson house play game..weijian brought his guitar along too..wow he is good with his guitar..nice..

i still have a immature heart...like ppl maybe younger than me..but they are really good in something and really working on it..this saddens me cos when i look at myself...what do i have...wat makes me me...i dunno alot things...i dun speak well i dun look good i have no talent...seriously wat do i have in me...and are my friends trying to fu yan me...sometimes im totally forgotten by everyone...not that im demanding for it to happen..its just to conclude that you forgot my existence...others get what they didnt expect...i didnt get what i wished for.....im so confused...and now christmas is coming and my christmas wish is stil far within my reach...he is so confuse and vexed!

family- when i see my friends home although their house abit messy..but they have a loving family...like always go shooping together...dinner together outside kopitiam..genting trip..and when i compare mine..its abit sad cos i dun even have any family outing...im so envious of my friends family..

talking about work...suddenly feel im such a fool...everytime need ppl work and ask me can work anot i alway agree without thinking...and most of the time the day when i agree to work always alot bad customer...i agree to work cos i always love to see my friends working with me and also seeing customers having a smile when i serve them..but the sucky part is there is totally no welfare and totally budget...thinking of it is like why im still working in this place...

if anyone dun understand anything posted above dun bother asking me..feeling so doown

ok back to sleep..working at 6 later...hope can wakeup

if only someone can understand how im feeling now

Ytd went to jeolyn house help her out with her makeover..wah dam luan lol alot things hhaa after that went to hougang maall shop for the 2 J 's present and bliss party de...season of of giving..I like!

Ytd work was super tired..not much crowd but maybe is too long no work...almost die when climb the fence to pit the glass pot on the ceiling at deck... Scary siol..l4d with kon..haha steady 2ppl only...the rest join in later..

Why I feel so helpless

yes!! finally its over! so dam happy..the qns come out also quite easy..lucky those i studied de all come out..heng ah..later 2pm going out to buy presents for the event..

now i need some rest..dam tired to do anthing

あなたが誰なのさ

seng seng seng is wat i can say..2 qns 40 marks cannot play play...essay qns..bobian le..really tired gonna catch some sleep naos..tml 6am need wake up..nights ppl.


this innocence is brillant it makes you wanna cry
this innocence is brillant please dont go away
cos i need you now
and ill hold on to it
dont you let it pass you by

today dam tired...studied all the way till 4pm...kfc paper was ok..but the qns twist until i dunno how to do..hai...dun say le..leave no regrets...

seriously..these few day i studying in library obseved alot students with their attitude to common test...ok..common test only wat...somemore xmas coming...relax la...most of the junior think that way...but when i see my friends studying together....the whole thing changes lo...i dunno how to describe but i know final sem ppl like us really see common test differently from juniors..

lol..last night had a dam best dream...i dreamt i got married to my tuition teacher ok random...dam funny lo....so real...but its only a dream..dun think so much..

tml last paper!! im so dam happy!! and also alot things coming in...buy alot stuffs...works...pool! so excited!


tonight soon they all gonna ton at serangoon mac study yapp...should i go or rest well for tml paper?

girl i love ur beautiful soul

爱你就等于爱自己

today alot of "enlightenment" studying ah yap module..despite those noisy year1 students in library making alot of noise...thanks to my dearest ipod touch..lol...yea..studyed finnish the formulas..left theory to understand...but tml is kfc..so gonna study kfc tml morning then ah yap theory at night..nothing much..ciaos..

i have always been serious girl.

Finished studying some of ah yap module with soon...actually not hard..all is just formula..just need to understand and when to apply the formula..I'm so motivated to study!! But also need to get some sleep..ok bye earthlings

yes I'm a thinker

today study ALOT of kfc de chap...almost everything..dam shag eyes..brain dead..hope i wont forget wat i learn today cos tml going to study ah yap de module..pray pray

yea..dam tired nao...gonna sleep early


I'm just a little old-fashioned
It takes more than a physical attraction
My initial reaction is
Honey give me a love
Not a fascimile of

Don't love me for fun, girl
Let me be the one, girl
Love Me For a Reason
Let the reason be love

i must change for the better

today manage to wake up early and go to school to study...argh...study till headache...the paper was easier than expected...yea...but like heavy weightage lei...ask simple qns 5marks...left early as i dun want to listen noise..

tml going back to school again to study navigation and maybe some of ah yap...hope i wont die...

face problem..thats why..IDGAF

end of year is coming...2010 is just a few days away...wat have i done..or achieve this year...time to write down what i have not done and put it to next year's resolution

and ya...27 dec i wanna have a steamboat..hope this time can organise...make urself free pls! its a sunday!

heres something to those* who dont have something call FACEBOOK to watch...confirm will say lol haha/lame lor! LOL!

gl

today outing was dam fun! this is someting money cant buy..as long as everyone is happy today that moment...even if the sky drops down...argh..u know wat i want to say...u guys are awesome! so long never like tat liao..hope will have another outing like this in future

back to myself i totally sianed after bowling session cos everytime i think of tml common test really scares me...its like going to the exam hall with only lets say 40% knowledge of the module...im really scared...all i need today was someone to look me in the eye and tell me everything will be fine...

It just keeps running in my mind..and I have no control of it

argh..god bless u me everyone for tml

sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
JUST get back up when it knocks you down

boom boom shake shake

today studyed in school..yea..finally browse thru and have a small idea of the qns..but haven practice cos no past year common test paper..sad...leave scool around 6pm..then home maken then come out study again with soon at rivervale mac til 10+..head down to bliss..soon left first..waited for amanda to fan gong..went to plaza pool..yea...so fun today..pool till 530+ then homed...

later meeting at hougang interchange..who late treat bubble tea ya?..i think i will late lol..

do i look like an idoit?
in times of crsis and i still got mood to play, shopping
people say i have no sense of urgency
but when i get serious, i will be dam serious
i think im too serious all the time
time to give myself a break seriously

things i dun want u to know
cos ur just so pure

today work at deck...i totally dun like..so shitty..told them to walk around clear plate...stay at ur station..must do setting...so many timeS!..buay lun ah!..best lo..all guys at deck...no one entertain me...all my fav ppl working outside...sian..

alot unhappythings happen...totally turn off...i dun want say..shall forget it...wait the impact come then see how...

jus back from plaza...l4d2 with kun and carson.!!! steady ah!!..we play so fast..complete 2 map and never die...just chiong only..lol..

later 11pm meeting at school with friends to study books..hope i can absorb alot later..gonna catch some sleep now


No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything without a single word

Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I never know what you see
But there's somethin' in the way you look at me

no im not emo..just the lyrics so nice

today didnt went to school eearly to study...was so dam tired decided to sleep all the way...normal day in school..yea..alot common test tips..didnt stay in school to study...

and omg lol..just now on my way home when crossing the road..i see green traffic light as green pedastrain light...i cross the road without knowing and almost got hit by car...how stupid can i get!

weekends here..sort of looking forward cos gonna work study play...yea...study whole day on sat..working on friday...bowling! on sunday!

ok..gonna touch abit on 3350 bye!

revision for common test is still the same...alot dun seem to understand..and i haven even touch on the monday's paper yet...god bless..these fews days studying alot in school...cannot tahan so much noise...home is the best choice if i want to be alone..tml lesson start at 1pm..go school early study then go or lesson..

im hungry AGAIN!

yea..the world suddenly looks so beautiful...i have been walking too fast to notice my surrounding..maybe i should slow down and enjoy the scenery

quoted from FB: put walls around me not to isolate myself, but to see who care enough to break them down

fucking hell...i hate it when ppl say scared exam test and their quiz marks got higher than mine...super duper pissed today..cant stand it...fuck it...give me a break

yea leave me alone...i suck

yea...fell asleep at 11am...cannot tahan...wokeup at 230pm..realise im late for the study....rush down to school..lucky i was the 3rd to reach...didnt study anything...only did my cover letter for comm skills...dam im so scared...when i see my friends studying...i dun even understand a single thing they are saying...for the first time i feel so scared of papers...someone please PUSH MOI! pls!

then after studying...we decide to go to bliss eat cheese fondue...and yes! so salty...very thirsty..drink hoegaarden and some funny drinks..now back home...

guys guys gals gals..blah blah blah

work on the friday was shitty man...best group of outdoor staff...dun wanna say..totally cui..but take pay le..so everything i dun care lol...after work..l4d2 with alot ppl!...best versus mode...so fun lol...then play campaign...bei steady ah!!! llol..die alot times..cos bei steady ah lol!! jkjk..



i like this pic so much...so cute!

and hello rena..i no tou lan ok..just wanna join in the fun

today work was ok..work in deck with layyen..starting sibei sian..came up with alot funny games...drawing game...ni wo ta game..lol...amanda lose the forfeit...me got a free bak chow mee thanks!! haha...and i dun like new staff..just dun like...head to plaza pool..l4d2...now back home

later 2pm gonna meet chow shin and others at amk hub to study..hope i dun sleep now...and i want to buy new shoes and do the go card!!

finally happy bday jalex! dun fall sick k!

deeper and deeper

today work was tiring..run here and there..lack of staff...finally closed..makan at 401 then homed..hope later i can wake up at 9am..or 10..i dun want to pon class anymore!

sian...common test coming...report on friday...CV on monday..rush rush rush..



nice right! lol

you took a piece of my heart
i never thought this could fall apart
you said you fall in love
and this was more than i had been afriad of
another life
another happy ending cuts like a knife
another place another time
another hand to touch
another sun to shine

you got me deeper and deeper
and im constantly blinded
im running around but theres no place to hide
i start to talk in my sleep
our souls are divided
why cant they forgive me these demons inside

deeper and deeper and im constantly blinded
my heart starts to shiver for it was not enough
i start to talk in my sleep
cos our souls are divided
how can it be that you're ready for love

today woke up at 9am..totally late for school..lecture and lecture...sian...and ya...i today go donate blood...actually want grab my friends pei me go together..at least not so scare..but then in the end only i go...lol...wah seh..look at ppl donating blood very painful...when u sit on the chair there waiting for the nurse to poke u...more scared lol...then my turn came...the nurse inject the first needle that make me veins nuumb...wah pain sia tat one...poke into elbow there...then 2nd needle i see wah seh..bigger one..but inject in no feeling lei...ok good..then blood flow into the bag le lo...mine took 20min to fill up the hold thing...the nurse say i drink not enuff water...blood too thick..cannot flow fast..lol..

yea..im so proud...first timer blood donar go alone...im not scare of needles anymore! lol

week 7 coming to an end...next weeek must chiong study le...guess i will have to either work on 1 day or stop working for the next 2 weeks...so going to miss my friends...

i want this i want that! which to get first! shoes shirt jeans jacket speaker?

i need a life

if only

didnt update this few days cos nothing much happen...and abit busy also...ya..just now had steamboat at deshun house..quite a success..cos the usual ppl all came...eat till 10+ then clean up everything 11+ go off le...hope can have another steamboat soon!

yea..blood donation drive is on and i want to go..who want pei me go??!!

payday coming! money start rolling in! yes! i saved 250$ this month! keep it up BY!

yea rena..when wanna go check out dentist stall?? enuff money ma?

omg...right now i should be sleeping cos later 8am needa wake up..but i still alert and awake...wat to do?

all i want for christmas...yea..i know its still long lol