hi guys..im back again.. so updatess..yea..driving course has ended last month 20th..overall i think im a better driver after that course because when i drive the big 5 ton and i drive my own vehicle...like no kick like that lol...okie..but i have to say we must drive safely and not endanger the lifes of other road users and pedestrains.. so..my life is still plain plain..but somehow..i slowly begin to see what i want..its like i can see a light after being stuck in a cave for so long...but i fear that i might be thrown back to darkness again..i dont want that..point is i dont really trust anyone sometimes i wonder is it really that hard to be truthful to someone? although we are just normal friends, close friends. i can feel some of my friends are not being truthful to me. not truthful as in hiding things behind my back. im not going to pursue it but i just dont understand why they want to do this. what have i done to deserve this? i hate to tell lies and i really do not like the feeling of being lied/badmouthed. i feel theres no point hiding things like that..although i know you might say its for my own good...but still it wont help right? i really feeling lonely this few months although i go out enjoy life with my friends and all..i feeling empty..feeling all sad and alone when im in my room..i know lifes problem probably wont have an answer to it..unlike maths qns...ill guess i will have to suffer for quite some time again.. okie..i think thats all..this place is a place to pour all my thoughts..since theres no one for me..okie good night my friends