so updates guys today is the last day of 2016. time really flies when you dont keep track of it. i know its very cliche to do this kind of updates everytime on the last day of the year, but still this is just for me to keep my own achievements and memories in this space and anyone who will have an interest in reading them. sooo yea

to me 2016 has rather been a challenging year for me. mainly because i am out of job and studying full time. i know it is a dumb move to quit a decent paying job and go for studies, but as i mentioned before, i feel rsaf isnt really the right job for me and i cant see myself where i will be in the next 10 years. i know right now i still cant see what i want in the next 5 years, as in graduating and working a proper job. still i believe it is a right move to leave the rsaf and pursue my studies and in the process find what i truly want to do in the future. hence, as of now i sort of can see myself working either in government sector or private sector when i graduate, probably media relations, journalist or marcom excutive for a particular organization which i have interest in.  i am going to graduate in 2017 aug, if everything goes well. 2 more trimesters to be exact. next semester is going to be a tough one, just like this semester, i just hope i have the strength to pull through and graduate. next semester is probably the biggest highlight of the entire course because im taking campaign manangement and i heard it is very challenging and demanding but fun and exciting. i hope i can be more proactive and open to new people and missions and be a better person overall.

throughout 2016, i have been struggling with finances, mainly because i dont have a job. but i cant complain or blame anyone but myself as this is the road i chose. im barely surviving with what i have left and have been scrimping alot..i mean alot..maybe this is because why my weight has dropped alot this year, i dont know. i found myself eating lesser than i use to eat. so i hope im able to gain some back in 2017. also i think the money issue will be solved once i graduate and get a proper job in 2017. so money issue is done.

i failed my ippt in 2016.. lol. and still have yet to attend any rt sessions. so i must really attend those rt session before my birthday. i dont want to get charged lol.. i cant find any motivation to exercise anymore. can anyone help me? nah.. no one would i guess..gonna start my body pumping next year

i didnt really have any love encounter in 2016 again. sad to say but love cannot be forced. sometimes i really wonder what does it takes to make 2 people come together. we humans are so superficial and always judge people when we see them. what does it takes to make 2 people accept each others flaws and live with each other. the laws of attraction is really intriguing and sometimes i feel i have no control over it. people may say im a pussy for not making the first move or what so ever, i just feel i dont have what it takes and im always out of her league. they say i shouldnt think so lowly of myself, but the truth is i am that weak and useless. i just hope i have the courage and guts to go for what i love and want.

ok i guess that enough of this post. i hope everyone have a great new years eve celebration later on, and also have a happy and healthy 2017. thats it