today woke up at 530pm..power ranger..no mood for anything..dinner then work..request at 11..put me 1030 go home..ate ocean rice and choc ms..nice nice..ocean rice should have more cheese...

fweeling super lethagic no strength at all..k going sslleepp now..gonna wake up early tml to get moi new hoot..any kind soul can just spam call me wake up though the chances of me waking up is like 0%..

and my graduation is next thur and i have not have any guest with me to invite..nb

headache time to sleep now

i really should start spoiling myself

went out early in the morning with xianglong early in the morning for his checkup..then head to amk for x ray...met up when shin and the rest to lepak...watch ip man 2..was super super tired lo..didnt sleep last night even it was a super busy night last night...fell asleep half way thru..wakeup movie end le..wasted zz..then went back to bliss ate the canard...abit spicy..but very nice!..and thanks weijun for the super big single scoop i/c lol!

im not ttrying to be emo here..doing things alone..maybe thats the best way for me now..but 1 thing for sure is when u see me all alone im not emo-ing..i just want to be alone

kk super sleepy after didnt sleep for 1 day..gonna lights off

Once again I dunno why I'm back in that state like last week...I'm tired of alot of things..ppl scold me and it wasn't my fault on the forst place..didn't even have a chance to speak and just shot me dead..be a man thanks jeolyn lol..work is work..guess I'm too stupid at work..life still has to go on..just let it be..time will fade everything away...

K so going to lonely hougang green market later...I feel market is a place where I can just spend more time with myself...

And working later on at 6..if I can wake up..I might want to go get my Armageddon speakers later on boomzz!!

edt: happy mothers day to all mother..i know it hurts to give birth to me lol..and happy bday to my daddy!

last night work was nabei...pool after that...everyone around me was feeling down..i feel so useless not able to speak anything..whatever it is..dun let it keep bothering you too long..find something to get ur attention away...

went to school just now to take graduation attire..$47...dam like 幽灵 if i can glide lol..omg..the actual day i going to wear formal inside this robe..is super hot de lo...

suddenly realise its my father birthday today...went to amk hub for a walk to see what i can buy for him...thought of buying vcd but vcd see too much his stomache become more rounder..lol..then in the end bought some tonic wine for him..at least can help him 仆仆气 after the accident a few month back then...happy bday daddy! i realise family has been more important when someone in the family is injured..just like that...

im so broke naos..graduation attire, mother day cake, father present, my speaker..ok..3 of the above is must one..the last one is to reward myself for my hardwork..so..let it be!

i realise i haven even sleep since ytd..and going to work at 6 laters..pls pls pls let me be food runner

friend in need

sorry for my ignorance and emoness for the past few days..wanted to let myself think through..time and space with oneself is somehow important..i reflected on myself and i feel so bad i somwhat brought down the mood of ppl around me..somehow ppl around me reflected myself indirectly this few days...im so foolish to say that that day..i feel very glad that despite all this shit going on..i still have great friends standing by me....a BIG SORRY to all..edit: dun reflect too much or u will become emo elmo

firstly a word of concern to tthis 2 girls layyen and jeolyn...hope u understand my "no-link" watever u call it

there are still alot people that care for you...when u have problems that really irritates u..best is to ask family for help...if they cant help and need a listening ear or someone to vent on just find me..I can't be a god and tell you a exact answer on what you should do but im willing just sit there and listen to all ur rants and hates...its bad for health to keep every single problem in ur heart...so just..have a good rest and know if u need a venting session im here...please think through...no one is perfect.. Just dun take it too hard for youself.. it doesnt have to be this way..the sun rises everyday...everyday is a new beginning..a fresh start..give urself time..u are always the priority of urself..u all are always the spark of cheerfullness in our group...

to all the KPOs out there..lol..i think i have come to a point where i somehow " saw a bigger picture" of everything...my english is not so good to express my thoughts out..so if u can understand what im trying to say then good lo..lol..i thought life is just so simple..there are many factors that affect ur life...most important factor is ur ppl u always hang out with..sometimes they are like ur mirror..they reflect on urself...they reflect on ur actions and u change urself..a somewhat-not-line-of-sight-yet-non-physical-yet-mutual-special-bond-friendship is created...i maybe wrong but i think thats for my case..watever it is happening in ur life..dun spend so much time doing a single thing..routine sucks...bad for mental health...life is about balance of everything..u cant live without water but too much water will drown u..too much or too little of anything is no good..if u are feeling tired..go take a nap..but too much nap will make u forget do ur work... omg ima sho wols

this is a cruel world...but rememeber u will always have ur loving friends around you...we are all in this together...simple as that...and dun spend so much time thinking/assuming/reflecting cos it will makes u emo like the past me..

in times of great sorrow, one will rise and say enough is enough..someone told me that

went to ah ma house to pei her but in the end sleep lol...then went home...stupid mother father taxi driver..see my dad and mum both disabled still act blur and put busy..seriously wtf wheres is their conscience mans..really want to stand in the road stop them..after 30 mins of wait then finally one kind driver stop and pick us up..thank you you man

wanted to ate mixed grill cos I very gian but yulin encourage me not to..he say le until I scare I change to hoe dory..ate alot of stuff..to satisfy my watsoever

payday was awesome...record siol I shall scrim and save this month..for a better future

back from plaza as usual.. Played l4d alone since no one hears wat I'm trying to say..boring play alone

for the first time I realize I'm nothing to anyone..for 3 years in my poly life I everytime jio my friends out all not free..leaving me alone..this has been hard on me..from today onwards I shall pamper myself for wat I have lost in all this meaningless years of my sickening life...not pointing fingers at anyone..it's just that I'm always at fault not heard...well done..

Fucking full of rants hates post yea..i feel so heartache to type all these out.. On my way back home my heart is like being stepped on..perhaps leave me alone as usual and I will be fine in no time

I'm sorry I let down all those ppl who have been constantly trying to help me..really sorry

todae work was chaotic..expected lo..sibei dulan and tired..dun want say le..only make me boil..for the first time i so heat up cos of 1 thing..i need more green tea dawg!

l4d as usual..jenifer drove us there! so much jokes lo weijun and jenifer..can argue all day long...hahah..whose tummy bigger! lol..then watched them makan and homeed now..

later going to ahma house..its been awhile since i go there..like after cny..mami say she misses me lol.." ah ah yang..zi si git piang ah?" lol sad all only want to watch me go in army..

k..maybe later if im back early i want go eat mixed grill or seasfood platter at bliss..anyone want to share with me? dun say i selfish eat all alone lol..

im so uber happy with moi pay this month! save save save! mother is da best!

edit: im so wols lol..just realised today its mayday! WHOOHOO!

last night work was boring..and again...i was told not to help them..true but i cant stop moving..if not i will be bored..dam..so hard to work now..

rip melissa toh..i dunno u completely but i hope u will find a better place out there

i guess today work will be cui..as it is holiday eve..plus friday somemore...gonna work like shiat and this place wont even acknowledge ur hardwork..shall l4d tonights to vent moi anger..

so maybe...

Last night work was tiring but fun..cos soon and naren finally came back to work..just a look at them made me in the mood to work lol..yea started work at 3..new chairs at deck..me and zw help arrange the new chairs..dam class and nice..super satisfied..thunderstorm in afternoon so sians..nothing to do lol..requested to go off at 11 but in the end didn't have..hai so tired manx

I wanna watch iroonman 2 next week!! Whose in?

I'm so bored someone entertain me pl0x? Lol

Dam ulcer in my mouth so pain..just woke up working at 3 later..so dun feel like working...shall request go home early tonight.. Dun want to run my ass like shit for them again...

Kk mop floor later before work..so hard to be a good son lol

spent a little time with myself just now..feeling so awful again..3 years of poly life what i have achieved..ok its a diploma that i had already had in mind before i started poly...but thru the whole process did i really learnt,enjoy the journey..i told myself..somewhat yes and no..learnt definitely yes..i proud to say i gain quite alot of knowledge on electronic stuffs..but the main problem is i dunno how to apply all i learn on daily life...which is quite sad..just like programming..its a language u learn..just on how u use it, how u want it to be ur way..i really enjoy someparts of my poly life..but seriously saying...i think im lost in polylife..i think i have changed alot since secondary...and totally different at the end of poly life..sadly there is no one who can see how i changed from secondary to end of poly...i need some lifestory talks man

whatever happens to me in the future..i will just tell myself..life stills goes on..nothing is forever..sad also 1 day...happy also 1 day..why not happy all day long..simple as that

britpop oasis rules...make me drift away from all thee problem in ma life

Last night work was slack...till super sleepy bordom super stupid ATM card eat my card when I try to withdraw money...just back from bank with jeolyn and slack at bliss ate hoe dory super nice and full...night is here and I wasted another day like that.. Shall train on guitar tonight

today cook pasta seession was fun..but i dam failed lol..nvm i shall improve...was sleepy thruout...lied down aawhile to rest...thanks wei jun for cooking the pasta mans...although it is not as good as bliss de la lol...had a fun day indeed..

work was crap just nows...eyes wanna close..feet no strength at all..guess it is my retribution for not jioing jeolyn weijian go cook pasta session...im sorry..alot ppl send home at 10 and 11..in the end left me close deck alone..stack chair...chase customer out...change candle...keep trolley...lock chair..close shutter...lock maindoor...lock fridge...dam...im really that breathelees after i finish everything...super awfull..eyes skin hair dam dry no life...i shall recharge naos

not to forget coming friday is the release of ironman 2! wwho wanna watch tell me now if not i go watch alone..knights ppl

today work was shit...totally piss by the sheledule next week..i wana take 1, 2 days off to rest..and i promised myself that ever since i graduated..yes i graduated..but does it mean can abuse me? im also human pls..running my ass here and there chiong here and there..pushing myself to the limits and doing my best during work and asking a little bit also cannot...i dun want this situation to go haywire mans..ima so softhearted

as usual l4d after work..got new map! so dam nice manx...like the new weapon..and the last part is uber cool..got l4d1 de ppl help..lol..so power..then market...just back..later going cooking pasta seesion at jason house..plus im working at 6 laters! omg..powerpack..

today work starting is dam chiong..then slowly slack...dun wanna say much..dunno why i care so much for others..see xianglong food runner so chiong i see le volunteer help him cover him for his break...in the end made myself more tired...nah..im too kind..chey! release at 1am...then slack at the back talk talk lo..actually wanted to l4d but majority not interested so go home lo...lol..sometimes i see the kitchen staff work i always laugh to myself...dam funny they work...kon always say nb..i find it funny...uncle daryl always say diu la!..i also find it funny...tiru work at the deep frying section i find it even more funny lol..and not to forget the auntie "ummm...umm...UMM!!" lol daryl always make fun of her..so bad...rawr...im so childish to find all these little stufff funny...yes i am..

see how tml afternoon if i can wakeup i will cook pasta...and ya..im super lazy now..tired of asking here and there who free to come pasta session..sorry for my greediness to eat the pasta alone

suddenly i have the urge to learn how to play wonderwall on guitar! wei jian lend me your guitar ! wakaka...i know i cant master it on 1 night..but still worth trying rights?

chipsmore + green tea = i like!

i feel like im the root of all evil

today work was power ranger...7pm only 4 ppl..so little ppl..weijian alone open deck i want go help but i food runner..sorry sial...then they open the shelter i look up suay suay 1 branch hit directly in my eye..dam pain man...dun want to say much about work...zzz kon kip saying my 232 story..yada yala..im 232 boy now..wth lol...laugh so loud somemore...

cindy husband brought her puppy over to bliss..so dam cute!...keep licking only lol..4months old..stomach so big lol..overfed..then ate chicken wing mingfeng bought..thanks! still hungry..ate cha kueh..song song

tml afternoon going to ttsh with dad to checkup...hope i can wake up laters..working at 6 laters..hope can on time back for dinner

why i seem to be so forgetfull lately..lost my appointment card left hp bill at carson house..am i normal?

dunno what haappen to everyone recently...i dun want to ask doesnt mean i dun give a dam...just dun use something else to forget it..it will still be here...i admit we are stuck in this vicious cycle all the time..trying to getaway..once u getaway one day u will still have to face it...just 顺其自然..u cant denied nature..life is a routine sadly...just different on how u take it..just some words to say..hope i can do some help

today had a super long tiring day..but it was kinda fun luh...dam it..why always ppl want to bluff me...met up with xianglong at 401 kopitiam..saw kon...then i thought he going somewhere else...xianglong say he go meet his gf and kon say he go drink...and i believe them both and assume kon going meet his gf drinking...then cindy came to fetch us he also board the taxi..i was...ok lo..

the wine expo is super big!...tasted alot of diff kind of beer...xianglong dam funny lo..ask for erdinger dark at bliss supplier..tio punishment drink jagermister..walk around makan all sort of diff things...too bad we didnt went to hall 2 which had alot ice cream and choc as we were lazy to walk from hall 6..lol..had alot of fun with them..makan at kopitiam..thanks cindy for the food!...then waited for taxi..lol..by the time we reach bliss already 8pm...then start work lo...dam headache siol...and keep sweating like dog..finally ended work..everyone also very very tired...jess is dam funny can..lol..keep saying i seh seh..then she also almost drop the erdin glass..had a super fun day ppls..thank you you...

i guess i should learn to let loose of myself sometimes..like i always very stress..high alert all times...sometimes i dun understand why i dun get along well with regular customer..not say got problem with them...just like no topic to talk about..or dunno how to entertain ppl..randomm

kk my head and knee is like breaking..dam irritatting

it starts now

today had a super long day alone..bus to alexander hospital..5min checkup only wtf..i abit confuse now..the blue paper that is suppose to be fill up by the doctor and send back to cmpb got 1 part say i no need come back for furthur appointment..i dam happy..thought got pes liao..but the appointment card write june 2nd got another goddam appointment..so wat is it they want man..gonna call them soon to clarfy...

super tired and hungry after the long bus ride..cook pasta for myself makan..not so success lo..the cream sauce like funny...put alot alot le still dry dry de..lucky they no come today lol..yea..postpone to next week..

tml morning going to some wine expo with jenifer christine cindy xl jess and me...that xl anyhow call my name only..tio sabo again..nvm la..just go see..maybe can learn more stuff..plus got free food and wine of course

kk later going out to mail my the bluee paper and settle some bill...so sleepy luh

checkup this uber cool website http://www.instantsfun.es/ so fun can create own ringtone

kk afternoon went back to nyp meet up soon for dinner...i so good right..i miss the food there...too bad first day school dam crowded..ate at outside kopitiam...fyp..times where i thought alot..haha..nvm now its all in the past..jiayous soon!

then went to ntuc shop for rc sauce..eh..dunno i buy correct anot..dun care la..white colour means cream lol..also bought 2 bottles of red wine..buy 1 get 1 free..value for money right...maybe see how tml open 1 bottle...

just now on funshion watch how to train your dragon again..notch bad..shall explore more..

tml 3pm checkup AGAIN..nb..hope this is the last one...gimme a definite pes pls! should be fast tml cos just see doctor only...then hope can rush home to prepare food..who ish free de can come up help help..

kk i feel like shitting like now..after eating ytd curry lol...kbai

ok...im back...20+ hours of sleep....first thing i thought of was the kitchen..dam hungry when i wake up...didnt had dinner last night as i didnt manage to wake up lol..still hungry again

ytd blood donation with yulin and carson..stella came along also..but she cant donate cos iron lvl too low..lol...almost fainted sial when after donate...suddenly hand and legs feelvery weak...vision see 2 images..and head very heavy..then doc check me and let me rest for sometime..maybe because i didnt sleep last night because i was watching some l4d funny clips.i shall post some here








and this is the pwnage that i cannot tahan lol



lol my whole night till morning..then blood donation..

today work punch in at 6 as i expected they will short of staff and heavy rain and got function...been feeling so weak thruout the night..work was peaceful until 1 outdoor table make noise..dam..i hate this kind of ppl..always like tat..retribution shall befall them..other than that not much problem todays except im feeling giddy throughout the whole night and i cant believe actually manage to suvive the night lol

yea...comfirm naos..cooking pasta on tuesday as i have to work thursday...who ish free de can come earlier help me outs..dun be shy come on friends

k..just back from market...gonna bathe and get a long deep rest...curry dinner tonight!

dont wanna think about it

today ish nb kanpua crowded...i feel so bad..did alot stuff that disapoint alot ppl...jalex call me camp outdoor..but then i see bar de drinks like alot alot till full liao...then i see liao also will take de ma..run in and out...left xianglong outside alone...sorrry xianglong ps u..=(..dun dulan me pls...sometimes..i find it hard to be bad guy...i was told to learn to be one..wtf..

did arrangement for function tml...1am do till 2am+...dam tired...sorry jeolyn...ima really thristy and really need to drink and weijian also hungry...tml...i steady with you!

xianglong...random but i find it true..大好男人..really great knowing you...

kk...bloody donation tml...carson and yulin and stella..know how to come right? if not call moi now!

小心 elbow 你啊! LOL

today work ruined by heavy downpour at 530...cleaning chairs and tables all the way till 730+..deck ish dam busy that time..customer come in and out and chairs table still wet...after that abit slack le...working with xianglong so fun lol..wanted to drink but beer not chilled and we want to drink de dun have sell...so l4d at plaza lol..steady ah..then now back home..

kk..updates sunday cannot cook as im working...either monday or thursday nights who wants??

and final call for blood donars! saat morning who wanna come?

what do u do if your favourite chocolate is sold out

Today work was kinda boring..crowd came in near to closing..dam..have to open table till 48.4..tmnnd..plus that stupid table 79 is make us dam suay lo..dun want say le damnation

ok due to the overwhelming responese by everyone...i decide to organize a cooking/eating session next week..please ppl tell me when u are free so we can meet at my house to cook/eat..spread the words around and confirm with me by this sat..who is very kind de can also pei me go market get ingredients..that will be awesome lol

and i really feel im lucky to meet the bliss clique cos they have an impact in moi life..u know who u are..thank u for constantly reminding me what to do..what i did wrong...jokes u told..and many many more..i think i should lock myself in my rooom someday to reflect on myself..i feel i haven reflect on myself for like so many years..thats why all these time im lost within myself again and again..thank you

ytd work was ultimate bored..really no mood to work...dunno why..request to punch out at 10...thanks ah long! ate spag rc brat at back with jeolyn and layyen....then waited for the rest to punch out..off to plaza pool..l4d...at least im happy for awhile there...
sent jeolyn home and accompany kon buy food then home...

so wtf is wrong with me

kk enuff rants huh..later dunnoe some ppl say me...

omg lol i just found this super funny pic online

LOL dangerous

ytd off day..cook spag with tomatoe...like alot sia i eat all finish lol..maybe next time i should add in some toppings lol..

then at night went to bliss with jason drink...dam shiok drink tower...everytime work is i pump..now got ppl pump for me lol thanks ah..lol then went to plaza with jeolyn weijian eugene kon in eugene's car...dam fun lo last night...laugh like no tml only..ok la at least they are happy...

dam im still sleepy after so many hour of sleep...upstairs renovation drill here and there plus hot weather really piss me off..

k working at 7 tonights cya all

today start work at 6..dam dam dam busy...running in and out like shit only...finally 7pm ppl came in and i dun need so chiong le..nothing much happenn..dam bored all the way till closing...wash popcorn machine till shiny..makan and homed..

just received letter for my graduation..i can invite 2 ppl to witness me get diploma from the director..ask my mum..her reply like vague lei..dunno wat meaning..dam wat should i do if she dun want come

coming sat blood donation drive!! who wanna comes! confirm got me carson and yulin...comeon ppl...time to do some good deeds to atone ur sins in the past LOL

kk..tml off like finally...gonna try cook spageheti in the afternoon...dunno why got a sudden interest in cooking lol..very gian to cook sial...who is brave enough to test my cooking? lol

and rip mr president
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/rtrs/20100410/twl-oukwd-uk-poland-president-crash-bd5ae06.html

today work with the guys at deck..dam fun..so long no nan ren dang jia lol...xianglong went off early as he got meet gf next day..buay steady lol..jk..dam busy in front..tio scald by the gratin sauce..the sauce on my finger for like 10 sec lo...dam hot and pain...then time pass slowly..crowd came and go..so another day has passed...now at lan shop with carson weijun and lianghao..thanks bros

off to market laters..and working at 6 laters...sians..i somehow dun like working at bliss nows..its the people that made working fun..u know the feel? lol yea

k ima hungry now maybe breakfast then marrket...

come on push me to the limits and i will blow up

today had a bad day working..new menu out..alot stuff dunno..send wrong food to wrong customer..tio shoot by customer...tio shoot by kun...really feel like crying when he shouted at me why i study so many books simple maths also dunnoe...just grab do anything i see to make myself forget all these..i really dunno why like tat..requested to go off at 1...drink with them at back then pool

my words are never heard
i tried to talk but no one will listen
i tried to care but no one gives me 1 chance when i seriously care

not being emo..just voicing out my thoughts since im not heard in real life

i just wanna get over this asap

k working at 6 laters cya all

outing was great ytd! thanks ppl! i think i spend the most on eating only lol..then went to play pool with jason till 12+ while the rest went to kbox...i dun really sing lol..then l4d with the rest till 4 then home..sibie tired..hope to have more of this outing next time!

cheese + pineapple+ tomatoe=(Y)!

k weekend here again..gonna work work work...sians hope it dun rain later

school also opening for alot ppl..more sian very hard to meet up le

and yea good news just received my graduation date...20 may thursday 10am...next month luh...super happy la can wear the graduates robe..like professor lol..then can invite 2 ppl to watch me go stage take diploma from the director of SEG siol...wanted to call my parents go but they both very hard to walk lei..how how how..

the grass on the other side is greener...but after sometime u will find it no different to the other side

today checkup at alexander..took mrt to orchard to change bus 14 go there...damnation..i got lost in orchard road lo..came out of the wrong exit..spend 30mins walking around to look for the busstop last time i took...ask at least 3 ppl for directions..dam paisei i ask china ppl somemore..in the end walk aroud the ion shopping mall then saw the bus stop..dam sweaty after that...think i should go out more often

checkup..was song song ah lol..the doctor poke the ultrasound probe at me so pain..then second checkup need a parent or guardian to give conssent..cos running the threadmill scare heartattack lol..call mummy to come down..lucky my uncle free haha

im so in love with u! happily ever after lol

kk super tired after running outside all day..let me catch my breathe

last night afte work drink drank drunk..lol..finally settle the heineken in my fridge..homed at 4+ woke up at 11am lol...bodyclock spoiled

got a new hoot tooday! singtel shopp alldun have the samsung galaxy i wanted...took the same phone as weijian lol...dam nice la..super love the crystal touchpad..

work just now was ok..tired and checkup tml 9am..sianzs..have to like chiong down just for this..and another appointment at 2pm..ima so demoralised

getaway i like!

stop crying your heart out

last night work was ok...alot customer at start..kitchen slow outside deck table 83 75 57 56 all ask pasta haven come..dam paiseh..chiong in and out send food..after that ok le...payday get only 500+ abit little..must sheng this month..and yea thanks mr hock! pay raise!

punch out at 11...share money with jeolyn and ruth buy chiavs drink...abit seh..kk i know im drunk lol...then went to plaza l4d versus...like fun only lol..so steady...play till 3 then homed...

last call wednesday who free pei me all day go hospital...sianz manz

tml i can change phone! yea i like!

k tonight working and tml work..i sorta dun work weekdays...hope it will be fine later on so cya ppl

night cycling next week anyone?

met up with jeolyn for dinner before work...said something about me which i sort of didnt realise..maybe i have really changed..thanks for pointing out this anyways...u must cheer up ok? the aura u give very scary siol..last night work was boring..keep raining..no tentage..got umbrella runner lol...like fun only..keep finding stuff to do...popcorn machine is back! like lamb huh..lol..when i was washing the poopcorn machine reminds me of mr jit and mr gopal...those days were nice...

back from market as usual..this week quite difficult to come home cos of the heavy rain..wanted to walk home la...but i think i will get sick..so took bus..dam heavy la carry up and down the bus...

payday today! like finnally! must 省省省，妈妈最棒！ lol

ok gonna sleep now..working at 6 again laters..cya ppl laters

im always serious

today is kanpua boring neh...start work at 6..ok la.starting busy but then behind sian and slack..really no mood to work cos i seem to cant concentrate and keep my eyes open..force myself to work till closing...swee swee 2am close shop..16 hours 72$ earn today i like!

back from pool and l4d session just now..power ranger..play till the shop close...fun lo..next time jio more ppl come versus! like 1 team too strong the other too weak no fun luh hahaha

k gonna sleep now and wakeup later..working at 6am later so cya all laters

caught clash of titans with hanbin ytd..very nice but watch too long very headache...abit disapointed cos i thought the movie is about a war between the gods..but overall it was awesome...medusa dam imbal lo..look her in the eye and u will become stone

last night work was shiiit...dam busy for a thursday..machiam like weekend...finally work ended and super hnugry..makan at 401 then home...slept for 11hour straight...

and last night at 401 kopitiam i saw a green asteroid/meteor/ufo watever la..like zoom down very fast then no more..i swear i saw it..dunno wat it is lo

and next wed i have 2 checkup at alexander hospital 9am and 2pm...any kind souls free to accompany me? im sick of going there alone

kk going to work at 6 laters...hope today crowd not as bad as ytd

had shabushi buffet for lunch today...okok la..variety abit little...can eat shuang shuang can liao..then pool then work

today work was uber boring because of the rain..sibei sian..time pass slowlly...as it was carson last day..we all went to plaza play pool and l4d hahah...so long never have big gathering like that liao..very happy..l4d very long neveer touch..abit lousy now...i had alot fun just now..thanks ppls

gonna catch movie laters...lunch at nyp koufu..lol..boliao go back school eat...cheap lei..somemore walk to amk hub can liao

dam..im feeling abit breathless after playing l4d..maybe too nervous le?..till now still abit siol...

kk thats it ppl..cheer up chillax dun think so much have a good day ahead!

last night very tired...after dinner sleep till morning now...feel so recharged lol...help to wipe the kitchen cupboard just now..dam oily lo..today no activities...any activities before i go work at 7?

tml going catch clash of titans with hanbin...book ticket liaos haha..kiasu..alot ppl also book..hope can wake up on time..

and yea about ytd checkup...they give me 2 more appointment at AH! one on 7 april and the other at 20 april...so uber pissed ytd...im so sick of all this...made me rush down at 245 and 3pm give me 2 more appointment...nb..k..who wanna pei me go AH on any of these 2 dates...i very sian nows

holidays are going to be over soon..dam sad..i want organise activities not much response..now all of us just going to fade away by time..hope i can come up with something after payday

get a hold of urself

nb cmpb totally piss me off...fuck!!!! im so hot now i will bite off anything in front of me...dun turn on my fire !@#$!#

give me some time to cool down...im easy to heat up and cool down...nice right..

ytd went to have lunch at pastamania with mummy..my treat k!! lol..then went to cut my hair...meet up with caron edwin to catch the movie " how to train ur dragon"...abit short the story..but it summarise one thing to me...humans are greedy...always want to conquer this that..in the end always tio owned by something they didnt expected within their imagination...ppls..dun be greedy...the dragon is so kewt!! lol..then pool with them....jeolyn and eugene joined in later on..power pack...after that i went prawning with jeolyn and eugene while carson went to work and edwin go home...3hour prawning i only caught like 3 prawns?..but fun sial..first time ma lol..after that went back to bliss celebrate mr hock bday..drink drank not drunk ok..sa fan sa as usual...laugh out like never before..then makan and home..

k laters going for checkup sibei sian

thanks ppl for so much fun ytd! u know who u are!

dun let it keep u down for so long u still gotta face it next day

work today was boringz...after work slack at bliss...talk on a topic about ghost stories..omg xianglong he dam alot story sia...and he joke dam power until ah soon buay tahan...lol...then they went home and soon amanda me go pool till 5...thanks manz..back from market..today got praise by 3 random ppls when i on way back from market..i like manz! super motivated!

kk think gonna cuts moi heir tis noonz..going to watch sun wukong laters...im so addicted after 1 episode LOL!

Ytd got guailan customer after work want come find dài ji...power..jeniffer come out give them a lecture..nice one...I like! First time everyone so dulan 1 group of ppl...but think of that really wtf lo..after work we can talk a out anything ma..they is too senstive le

then after work drink..power..I think got 10 jug sia..thanks cindy!! Lol just pump only..play sha fan sha..xianglong keep losing and drinking sia...he abit drunk...I neber lose abit sian..chey!! Then makan abit at 401 then took xianglong home.. Weijian and Carson came up my house and talked awhile..thanks ya brothers..

Slept for 4 hours and woke up...hangover sial..stomach dam alot gas..think gonna cut my hair laters..

K cya at work later..sat night means sun morning market!

Didn't sleep last night watching YouTube all night long...Jason jio me breakfast at 401...after that basketball again with weijian him and Wei jun...sweat alot sial...then go home bath and met up with jeolyn and weijian..suppose to have Kbox but cancel..so we go pool..then after that soon join in...accompany jeolyn to 401 makan dinner with xianglong then went home again to prepare...went to bugis steamboat instead..dam sleep and dam full sia..now finally back home..power pack day I like!

K gonna have a real good long rest and off to work tml..cya my friends! You made my day today! Tq for the fun!

awesome song awesome lightings awesome crowd come on sing along!

today work was fun with xianglong..never fail to make my smile..naren is finally back..like after so long uh..after work drink some beer from bliss then send jinyu and changwen home lol...both of them so scare after i tell some ghost story..then have to send them back as they scare...then home with xianglong...

tml going k at 2pm..hope i can wake up cos im still awake watching youtube...

britpop rocks..never fail to lessen my burdens

Completed all course requirements for the award of
DIPLOMA IN ELECTRONICS, COMPUTER & COMMUNICATIONS
ENGINEERING

You will receive a letter of conferment, your academic transcript and CCA transcript soon.

woohoo results are out this morning 8am...woke up at 4am as cant sleep...waited till 8am for results...ok la...notch bad..no Ds..B+ and C+ lol...gpa drop 0.1 lo...but nvm..graduate lo!


today suppose to have basketball..but then suddenly heavy rain then cancel go carson house slack..played prototype..i like! lunch at xianglong house then off to hougang mall to get my new headset....then home..slept for awhile then work

work today was a rare sight cos all my fav ppl are placeed at deck with me lol..cos got important guest..then senior staff put together...ok la..20 pax..after that released at 11 and wait for them then makan then homed..

omg basketball later on got alot ppl...me weijian carson xianglong weijun soon kon jalex..gonna be fun lol..hope i can wake up on time laters

wat i have done wrong to deserve this?

i wil be a better man

last night wrk was boring..requested to go home at 11 as i having headache and sleepy...then went straight home sleep at 12 and woke up at 6 just now...18hour sleep new record lol..then now i going back sleep again wtf lol..

tml morning basketball again!! this time got xianglong come..4 ppl can play 2v2 wakakak..hope i can wake up on time tml...

and yea..tml 8am results are out!...abit scare though..but think will swee swee la..last sem hope they close 2 eyes la lol...good luck to all my year 3 friends!

any new songs can send me ppl?? u know ur old songs are my new songs..lol..i often go pool here the song notch bad...consider old or new doesnt matter i want!!!

plans for tml: basketball then maybe cut hair/ buy new headset then work...weekdays are boring..

dun take wat i say to heart ppl...i think thats the reason why im here

had a powerpack weekend ytd..meetup with hanhui..last time tuition center best buddy..he bored jio me out i anything lol..pool together...catch up alot stuffs..yea..he in army now..going 1 year soon...soon join in later...went down to bliss drink abit as he wanted to drink..first time sia he lol...and also he amazed us with his freaking imbal magic tricks..really wtf..then send him home as he not looking good..plaza billard with carson and the rest..so hard to play lo...aim hao hao le then also piu..sianed..after that home and market...yea..thanks carson for volunteering to go market with me..yea..amanda is right..thats what are friends for...im really touched with she told me this phrase and i saw wei jian and carson taking turn to help me take the 5kg rice despite its not their job to go to market...thanks my brothers..

yea..back from market with carson then off to basketball with weijian..omg lol..its dame hot outside but we still can play like so fun like that lol..played abc..hahah i keep losing do push up as punishment..power ranger..play for like 2 hours? then back to carson home...played prototype..dame awesome! i so wanna get this game lol..awesome gameplay... then actually want to bath there but he sleeep like pig and snoring like machine gun so let him sleep..then now back home...and i have sunburn!! so itchy and red like some rashes watever...wahaha..at least i will turn darker after this lol...

omg i cant believe i actually manage to stay up all the way till now..and even play basketball without sleep for 24 hours...i should get some rest after work later on...work work...sunday hope its a good day...ciaoss

woke up at 3pm as promised...went to the housewarming..wow...new hdb flats are now so small..ok..my mum friends 3 room flat dun say la..but looks like very cram..kitchen and living room together de..and living room is like my bedroom...sian lo...all the aunties talking about old days while me sitting alone watching tv..bored...then back home just now..bak koo teh noodle is nice! haha

ok...later going out pool with soon then see how...market later on in da morning dawg...and im working on a sunday! which is family day..sad..

i can change phone next month! oh yea...wat nice phone should i get manx?

today work was abit of hell...celestine came down to bliss with christopher and katrina..wah so long no see them so fit le..catch up with them alot stuff..wanted to jio them pool but they got something on tml..so nvm....dame flu very irritating..cannot work properly...keep dripping the flu...finally after work and drank and seh abit...and i wasnt suppose to drink lol..but oh well lol...got high...naren haha sorry i split or pour the beer on u..next time u high can do that to me too lol...and after that pool...lol..naos back home

later on going to my mum friend house warming at sengkang dunnoe where..ok i think gonna sleep abit naos and wake up at 3 later



u dont look back in anger cos i heard ur say

Dam I think I'm going to be sick..bad flu when I woke up just now..now headache..how to survivor laters..and still wanna ton tonight..daam..hope I will get better sooner..

K gotta get ready for work

today caught confucis as all of us were late for the 110 timeslot...starting part abit nice..then behind part like shiat...going out today with xianglong jeolyn and kon is awesome la...so long never have a small group outing like that...3 of them really made me laugh all day..and dun see my butt can anot xianglong...wtf u gay ah..lol...after movie back to 401 makan then jeolyn off to work and i went home to prepare...

work today was borriiinnggg...time pass so slow lo...as usual the laughing buddha yen ping never failed to give a big LOL over a small thing..lol..so contagious her laugh...after work makan and drink the jagermister omg so weird the taste feel like vomit naos...

k my plans tml..wake up if got time i wanna pool awhile then after work drink/pool/battefield...see how everyone wanna go tml...

im so happy today! wakakaka dun let small things get in ur way BY

wakakak today work was uber fun! lol..thanks all those who made me smile all the way..really brighten up my dead mood after 2 days rotting at home...lol..all make fun of me only nb..ok gotta stop this nb thing...sorry all who i nb-ed today lol..

movie later on..hopefully

Last night suppose to have drinking session but cancel nb..nvm went off to sleep after xianglong told me only he can come..2 ppl drink wat lol..another boring afternoon I guess..and finally working tonight!! Hope it will be fun cos my fav peeps are working!!

K lunch and going to clean up moi room later

fuck..why always like tat...i already already very very control myself ytd not to go out drink with them..and only today drinking session downstairs only and my mum also dun allow...come on..its not goiing out fight watever...sometimes my mum very paranoid..perhaps all mums like tat...tell them my heart got problem and say this say that canot this cannot that...i fucking really want to lie to them that im fine...tell me wat i should do..nb

today was sort of a tiring day..been running up and down from home and outside..went to bank and hougang mall to do some stuff for my parents..after that met up with jeolyn to pool..but full then lan but phailed..so turned off...dinner at long john..yea..fetch her to work then met up with jian yong...so random...went to ehub to bowling..then back to plaza pool again..sian de lo..i wanted to go drinking with them at bliss but i ald told myy mum i will be back home early...so stuck in between...roar! nvm..im fine now

watched gi joe..bored lo..i want to have a own high end pc in my room!

im so uber bored? anything i can do tml?? let me list down the things i can do before i go in NS

kbox
steamboat
outing/pinic/camping?
movie
drinking

still got wat?? i just woke up and now going back to bed again..dam sianed this kind of feeling...abit gian to bf lol...

give moi something to do!

Today work was totally slow and boring..tired of doing this and that..after work when to bf2 and now back home...going off to market on 10 mins time...Ima good boi yaw!

K today and tml I am free so wanna do any thing can jio me out..I feel like going jogging on Monday evening lol

past few days was working...tired to update...work these few days dunnoe why so busy..running up and down till so breathleess..only can stop and catch my breathe after the crowd subside...

receieve letter from cmpb again..and need checkup again on 30 march...DAM sad la me..wtf is wrong with me...

today work was fun lol..ruth keep complaining customer hahaha..was so fun working together..chilli sauce ah HAAHAA....AND I DID A SUPER AH HAI STUNT LOL...lucky i didnt fall flat on my face..didnt saw the chain is already put on and i walk out and trip over it...i could hear alot ppl laughing luh..u know who u are!! haha

battle field with the same peeps...awesome but tiring cos very hard to concentrate after work...helicoptor so fun sial..kamikaze lol..

kk tml after work drinking...problably not at void deck cos got song ka..maybe at my house? see how who wanna come?

back from chalet...was super tired these 3 days...lazy to type all those details...drink gamble play bbq all night long...first day bowling and dinner at sakura buffet..dam full the buffet..lucky go play bowling lol..then drinking at night..also lucky no "happening" lol..second day majong whole day...evening then bbq..all the way till midnight...dam hot..then play cards...wah..i dunno how to play lose alot money lo..dun want play le..then this morning checkout and pool and movie at ehub...watch 做人..nice..finally..tanks to all those who made it possible..guess we will see each other next time on gradution day..


人做天在看
you reap what you sow, its just a matter of time

kindness begets kindness, and also, its just a matter of time

Last night work was hell..started work at 6 and chiong all the way till 12am then crowd starts to subside...dam cui and tired.got customer try to run bill lol...but epic failed..kon caught them lol power ranger....then after work slack drink anchor then battlefield...dam bored no mood...then market with Carson..thanks haha..then went to airport send Rena weijian Amanda off to hainan..really can't bear to see them walk away..dun worry BY they will be back on Friday..haha take care of yourself out there..look at the moon at night and know it's me lol...then after that pooll with Carson and met up with Katrina to return her her thumbdrive...now later going to bliss makan dinner as faris is going to be enlisted on tuesday..and most powderful de is I haven sleep yet!!LOL and tml still have chalet till wed and workk all the way till sat..omg Ima super buzy dawg!!

Blah too much complains and rubbish talk.. Soon jiayou for ur fyp tml..u can do it!!

last night work was dam busy...run in and out...i can sense something sour last night..but its fine now...after work went to battlefield 2 with jeolyn eugene kon and mohadmad..dam fun sia..so hard to play..haha then play till 5am then go home le...uber tired now..just woke up lol

later workin at 6...hope i dun die today..i could feel a pain on my shoulder these few days..

finally have fun in ur overseas trip! -rena,weijian ,amanda ,jeolyn....tsk bo jio ! i will be waiting for ur return take care!

ytd was a dame busy day..morning wake up went to meet up with faris as he is enlisted on tuesday...went to alexander hospital with me and his gf as his gf attachment there also...dam...did another round of ecg test..and doc say my heartbeat abnormal...i seriously dunnoe wats wrong with me...then he say will need to do another heart scan and threadmill test next time...keep drraggin sia...after that we went to find yan jun...omg so long no see him lol..he working at queensway shopping mall de sport link...yea..we should be meeting up again this sunday for dinner...then pool with faris at plaza...back home dinner...9pm+ shu jian came to fetch me to go to maggie's 21 bday chalet...wah..hometeam NS de chalet is so dam big..left early cos not alot of ppl is staying...then went to blisss take pay...so litle lo this month..and i think im going to spend alot next week again..hais..then we went to plaza to pool...omg...never had so much fun ytd for so long...cos kon came!! hahaha he never fails to make our group laugh like shit lol...played till 4am+ then makan and home...

just woke up and offf to work at 7 later! i cant wait for next week chalet!!

finally its over! yap paper wasa kinda easy today..heng arh! everyone was dam happy...photo spam after tat lol..then actually got alot ppl wanna go sing k..but in the end only 4 of us guys go sing..nice haha kbox was super fun manx! just sing only shout watever crap u want also can inside! but drinks abit stingy lo..sang from 3pm till 8pm..dam tired..then kang drove us to fetch lim fung and others then to 401 makan lol...kang driving dam funny la...keep forget this and that..forget lock car forget shift to gear 1..dam paisei and funny behind car horn us sia..squeeze 7 ppl somemore lol...and got 1 dam super epic moment lol..he drive very faast then suddenly red light..so he zam brake..then all of us fly to the front...then immdiately oppposite got 1 car stop by and we look at them at the same time...dam funny la!! lol the couple opposite also laugh lol..it was fun today but tiring..

ok..naos everythings over wat should i do..dun care first..break for 2 weeks then say..i wanna rest all i can!

k tml medical checkup...boring

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20100303/tts-chile-quake-us-science-nasa-972e412.html

days are shorter 1.26 microseconds only...at least nights are 1.26 mircoseconds longer LOL!

been trying to absorb theory since just now but the internet is always tempting lol...watching jennifer's body and continued to study..and omgawd lool...i found this pic while doing some research




been trying to understand wth is adverse yaw and this pic summarise it lol random..ima so happy naos lol..

dam i almost finish the whole container for cny goodies and the bottle of green tea when i was watching the movie..so hyper now

k tml ORD le chiong chiong chiong!

this feeling is coming back again..its not something to cry angry sad about..its just something new i never encounter before..tml will be my last paper for my poly life..in day 1..ok not day 1..maybe sem 2 year 1 i wished poly faster end..now that reality is here..i somewhat not look forward to it..there are still so many things i wanna do..too much regrets i can say..so to all those in year 1 2 and final year students..pls treasure ur times in poly and dun whine how life sucks..it really sucks for me now...this feeling is so heartaching i swear

maybe i somwhat figure out what mre mun was trying to tell me during the interview last time..i guess that principle applies to all aspects in life..thanks you

back to school study yap paper..total shit man...all theory can kill already...dam tired as usual..k gonna rest awhile then continue at night

today kfc paper was a piece of cake!..almost all i study for came out...except for the radar qns i never study lol...after that everyone so high and happy we all go play pool and l4d..lol..pool 2hours l4d 2hours...totally awesome manxx..super drained..feels like my energy being burnt on these stuff mostly lol..tml gonna go back study for yap paper...last final piece of shiat in poly!..oops..too vulgar paisei hahah...

wed after last paper gonna k with them...first time go k siol me..hope it is fun..thursday chekup..hope im fine..

omg i feel so fat when im dam full lol...

anyone got nice new english songs can send me?? seems like my library a little outdated

kcubye

do u remember that time?

生就是为了找寻爱的过程, 每个人的人生都要找到四个人

第一个是自己,
第二个是你最爱的人，
第三个是最爱你的人，
第四个是共度一生的人.

首先会遇到你最爱的人，然后体会到爱的感觉；
因为了解被爱的感觉，所以才能发现最爱你的人；
当你经历过爱人与被爱，学会了爱，
才会知道什么是你需要的，
也才会找到最适合你，能够相处一辈子的人。

但很悲哀的，在现实生活中，
这三个人通常不是同一个人；
你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。

你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？



真正爱一个人是无法说出原因的，
你只知道无论何时何地、心情好坏，
你都希望这个人陪着你；
真正的感情是两人能在最艰苦中相守，
也就是没有丝毫要求。

茫茫人海中，你遇见了谁？谁又遇见了你？

some random stuff while surfing forum...on and off mood to study kfc..lol..dam..

first 2 months of 2010 and already 2 major earthquake...haiti and the recent earthquake from chile...8.8 magnitidue sia...dam..mother earth is getting sick..

ok back to kfc

today was call up for work unexpectedly..hear they very few ppl work..ok la cincai since im doing nothing at that moment..then go work lo...was dam hectic..immediately reach there le chiong all the way to 10pm close to 11..sianed..work to closing..after tat as usual..pool and l4d...wasnt in the mood to l4d..just sianed for some moment...

hope i didnt neglect anyone during these 2 weeks of mia..if so pls understand and accept my apologies yea?

now back from market...and dam i hit my little toe nail on the wheel..dam pain siol!

gonna sleep now and wake up at noon study..night i wanna watch rush hour 3!

tml kfc paper 9am..which means i gonna wake up at 7..no more funshion.com yea by...

im slowly getting to know who i am..i hope this is the way it is

wed 230pm marks the end of my poly life..i like!

warning: long post..pls take ur time to read if not dun read..haha

today studied at school..reached at 10..best..absorb alot today...i like..but sibei tired..nothing much happen.

hope for the best i can say...had a rare once in a while talk with my sister last night...i feel i can be a better brother..i feel i can be a better person..soon to be man...sometimes we have problems and feel annoyed and dunno who to turn to..might as well keep it to urself...wrong..just grab someone and talk to...so if u have any troubles bottled up just pour it out to me..it will always help..likewise im having the same problem i have alot troubles bottled up..so annoying...i can feel a bigtide ahead of me that i must pass through..hope my friends will accompany me through this part of my life

i must say this before this last semester of my poly life ends...this 3 years in poly has been like a roller cooster...ups and downs..hardest time of my poly life prolly is last year till now..year 1 and 2 are sort of easy..do ur work got attendance do lab test folo study guide do presentation..can pass already..made alot new friends in that 2 years..enjoyed air-con rooms where u cant enjoy in sec school..only in AV theatre luh hhaha...best part..dun need wear school uniform..yea..sorry talking all these lol...ok...back..then hardest part of my poly life is last year

immediately after year 2 exams..2 weeks break and my final year project starts...12 weeks sia..everyone was totally seperated...some go industrial attachment..or final year project..i can say i tio most suay one..cos most ppl fyp lab is at least 10+ people during that time..mine only 3 ppl..owned..slowly got used to the cold S446 ARG lab..everyday 830 to 6..yea..week 6 and 12 presentation all tio shoot cos never do properly..not to forget the suzhou trip during fyp..i made another batch of friends..they totally rock my life lol..closing to week 12 my relationship with my 2 other labmates and suzhou clique are like the best..after week 12 finally over...sad news come in..2 days later IAP starts

i was like wth..2 days break only and go attachment 6 months..that 3 months was hell..practically stoned there...perhaps we didnt know wat to do..we only help do some reports and analysis of their project.....but the experience was invalueable..i must say i dam lucky to be attach to ST electronics cos its near NYP and ST is a well known company in the electronics world...i saw alot wonderfull dam cool stuff..those producs that have never been introduecd to the market yet...really inspired me to be a better engineer..most of the time just slacking..ok..bad la lol..but heng didnt fail IAP..so i guess im lucky lol.. after attachment finally 2 months break came...dam happy can rest after chionging fyp and iap..those 2 events totally change my body clock and everyting

october..start and last semester of year 3..with the year 3 logo on my head i can feel the graduation day getting closer...year 3 study path mine is aerospace..theory i can tell u is 200% totally make no sense to u when u first see it...but slowly i understand it...cos near to exam ma..so no choice force myself these 2 weeks chiong exam notes..now that exam are here and gonna be so over soon...i wanna delicate some word to the foollowing people below..not in order dont worry just the person i can think of i put:

chow shin: didnt really get to know u until year 3..haha...thanks for pei-ing me pool,l4d study,do project,lab,group work,makan and all other small stuff during this semester..u are a nice person..good guys will get good girls dun worry shin..haha

jun yang: also same..really didnt get to know u until year 3...thanks for taking the leadership during comm skills project, giving ideas and really took initiative when being question even though its not ur question...u help out us alot this semester..thanks

lim fung: wakakak otar face..jk la haha..the most noisy but reliable lady in our clique this semester..去哪里？ lim fung haha..basket sia lol...thanks for pointing our those small mistakes we didnt discover eariler..if not alot trouble sia lol..

teck soon: same work place same block same specialise..best sia haha..we had studied together during those test exam period..joke about stuffs..i can say we are best buddies in school and outside...jiayou for ur fyp soon!

kang wei: slacker but DAM lucky guy...can spend 2 hour before exam absorb everything and score better than a person who spend 2 weeks studying for that paper...dam power la lol..3 years in poly i think all like that lo...dunnow how he do it de..thanks for taking the intiative to do the NE project when all of us totally forgot about it..hahah jiayou

meixian evonne: easy going girl..can talk alot de..thanks for pei-ing me talk during im bored haha

note: i will add on more in the future



ok...saturday night! i have worked so damn hard this week..i shall enjoy myself tonight! have fun people!

Didn't update past few days as I was busy studying..Monday paper was total scam..alot ppl like me folo closely to study guide and only 30% come out..hope got moderation lo..then study for the next 3 days till now..dam drain by just trying to understand all this chim terms they use in the books..but I also had some fun these few days..destress lol..we wentto play l4d after studying to destress..abit effective..but after that go home makan le then nua on my chair till sleep...

Now as usual..super tired after doing those past year paper..think gonna go home straight after this..eyes are closing..

Thinking of my last paper next wed..I got alot activities coming up..Thursday medical checkup and maggie's bday.. Weekends work I like!! 8-10 march chalet to celebrate end of poly..I can't wait!! Right now just need to get over this exams and bye bye nyp!

Wat will my life be like after exams? Universal laws is inflexible i know..hope I learn to open out more in the near future

good luck to all my friends having exams from tml onwards! after this its all over!






hold on...hold on
dun be scared
you'll never changed whats been and gone
may your smile...shine on
dun be scared
your destiny may keep you warm

cause if i am to go
in my heart you'll grow
and thats where you belong

most super tired day today...suppose to meet shin at hougang mrt at 12..then i 10am lie on bed awhile read magazine..then fall asleep..pig sia me..then 1230 wakeup he call me bobian ask him take bus come here...dam paisei siol...then slack awhile soon join in also then study slack...on and off...but i think i slack the most cos dam tired sleep awhile...tml going back again study...

wah sky so dark heavy rain coming..will the lion dance still be on? lol..

ok i think im going to have a early night tonight...eat dinner le then go sleep..still tired lo

last night went out with katrina to get the photos that i wanted...couldnt dl them from hotmail...then after tat went to lek house slack till 12..then went down to bliss wait for the rest to finnish work...yen ping is dame funny la...hahaha can talk allot crap lol..thanks huh...only weijun layyen and jess come play l4d...then layyen de other friends also come play vs...i like..

later 12pm gonna meet shin at mrt...come my house study tml paper ba..omg..exam coming why i still like so slack..ppl ask me i also like no answer..wats wrong with me

just back from market as usual...today i was especially early...620 reach le haha...even the fish uncle haven prepare yet lol..then i buy veggie first then fish..alot thing siol today..dam heavy..i love the walk home lol...so cooling

俺の仮説に、すぐにでも、何か知ってジャンプしてはならないことを私はやっていないイムは、過去には最近いない権利はありません。なぜ

today study only till 4pm as it was friday lol..dam slack..was called up for work...since that time im playing pool and nothing to do at night might as well go help out lo...

wah seh...dam power ranger today..cock up alot siol...run non stopp all the way to 12+..then machine chu stunt all bill all messup..then have to bill all customer and cannot take any order...fuck..so many customer keep asking why cannot..i also bobian...but cannot talk cheap tell them bobian...but also thanks la some customer understand..wish got more of these ppl around..so little staff and u expect us to attend to all the table at once..1:100 ratio lo.so just keep saying machine spoil lo..then dam dulan..once machine ready i send out 1 jug le then all table keep calling...and also table 25 that lady drunk..dam...grab me at ask for another bottle..keeping saying "i not drunk" mabok face walk not straight loosen buttons..lol..i just dun care her..

now super tired...gonna go back school study again later..hope tml will be fun!

and wth..poly fee increase by 50 dollars...but heng ah..last sem lol

random note: should i go register to study in uni? i see so many of my friends talking about it...maybe i should do some research

like wtf just open 1 week casino and this kind of thing happen?! siao liao la
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20100217/tap-033-indonesian-lost-casino-resorts-w-231650b.html


very tiring these 2 days..studying non stop...need to de stress lol...hope i know wat i am studying for lol

nothing much..so gonna stop here

This 2 days was hell for me...it's about my family..I feel my rebelous self is back again..but not as worst like last time..previous day I promise her I will wake up at 8am to go market.. Then I overslept and woke up at 830..then she face black whole day...I keep thinking wat I do wrong..just because I come home late for 2 days and like that.. Not that I wanna blame her but i really dunno wat I can.. Talk to her and want to help out she dun want..I dun want it to be like tat..couldn't sleep well for 2 days and still dunno why..stresss

this morning same thing happen..I dun want to argue anymore so I left for school at 830 to study..managed to cover the harder chapters..gonna study more tml..eyes wanna close ald..


Am I even a good son?

This year cny of mine totally sucks..this cannot that cannot then wat can...really put me back to negative thinking again...guess it's mine problem dun wanna spoil anyone new year mood.. Enjoy ppl

last night went out to drink with soon jeolyn at bliss..yea..drink till 1am...had alot fun talking with joe..thanks man..so much advices i dunno how to summarise...but wat i think most important is " just be myself" haha new year i look sad...nope...just bored...entertain me pls lol...after tat pool and l4d then homed..

i washed my fan just now and now its super cooling!! woo!! weather so hot i on max speed still very hot...now so shiok the wind hahah..

i guess the end is coming...end of semester haha...next week exams 3 maarch last paper...wat to do after tat...

meanwhile...have fun while u can ppl!

ytd reunion dinner was ok...not much fun i guess...bored out...went to plaza with bao liang and carson..talk alot catch up with stuff...then they left at 430..i decided to stay there till 530...yea..had thought about alot of things tat time...bought big breakfast then eat and sleep...

next monday 22 feb exams..gonna do some studying tml...now im so moody..sianed

Today work was total cui tell you..though working at deck fuck was so tired...super fucking pissed off.. Can't be even bothered now...just now drink abit... Talk talk then pool at plaza..reunion dinner tonight..hope I can be able to help out..

Suddenly I so getting back the same feeling back then... Or is it the alcohol causing all these? Even without alcohol influence..I still strongly feel weird..super hate it

exams exams.. Next week off gonna study study

wished i was remembered for something

Selflessness: In a world where many people don’t have the time or the interest in others, selflessness is a quality that seems to be less and less common. People can be selfless in the time they give, the ability to listen, their level of patience and the love that they give. Those who are giving and generous in nature have the power to make others feel loved, appreciated and special. While those who are self-absorbed tend to do the exact opposite.

Tolerance: Those people who are tolerant make us feel comfortable with who we are and special as individuals. All of us are different, and many of us have quirks and idiosyncrasies. After all, these differences make the world go round. Having the ability to accept people for who they are and not expect them to be who we want them to be is important in life, happiness and in the health of our relationships.

Genuineness: Having the ability to be real, authentic and honest is unique in a world where we put so much emphasis on the superficial. Feeling comfortable in one’s skin and being true to one’s self is one of the most beautiful traits one can possess. To have a REAL relationship with someone requires honesty…it requires hearing and giving input or feedback that may not always be popular…it means having the strength to tell it like it is and to not be afraid to face the consequences for doing so…it means loving people for who they really are…deep down…and not for what they appear to be.

Sensitivity: So often we are focused on what is important to ourselves that we can forget about those around us. Those who are sensitive are often thoughtful, appreciative and loving, in a way that makes you feel understood, valued and respected. Often, sensitive people are also self-aware, making them mindful of how they impact others with what they do and say.

Integrity: Call me cynical, but I think this characteristic is especially difficult to find. In a time when people will do things that are underhanded to make an extra buck (Bernie Madoff…can you hear me?), expose their personal lives to the public so they can be famous (balloon boy’s dad and any other reality TV mongers) and do what feels good in the moment without necessarily thinking of the consequences (Tiger Woods), integrity is a characteristic that is especially unique today.

Humility: Whether someone is super-smart, extremely talented or drop-dead gorgeous, there is something extra special about them if they don’t come across as though they know it all the time. Humility in those that possess extraordinary traits make others feel special too

i think i need more genuineness...wat about u?

today spend whole day at school doing AOP project..dam headache..this can work that cant work..that can work this cant work again...nb..kena cut by the metal on the door..work today dam power...3 outdoor 3 deck..but ok la..not that much customer..quite smooth...mr gopal came down! as usual lol..talk talk talk awhile only...

going back to school to do final everything for the project..dun care le..just submit wat u have..dun need to be perfect the cicuit..if want perfect working need 1-2 more weeks lo...

tml work will be fun i hope! after work activities!...sat if u ppl after work want come out drink pls jio me thanks

today Hf common test...40 qns 40% of total module..totaly wtf..die die la..after that went back to continue troubleshoot circuit..but still failed...after tat shin wanted to pool cos he very stressed..then pool when him then home..

tml mornig going to bring father go ssee doctor..dunnoe why his foot sore..

everyone seem to like going to fall sick..please take care of yourselves people! CNY coming!

the end is near

Sleep at 8pm last night till now..dam song but still headache...common test at 5 later...going back school study abit..

Now going to clean up my room abit..cny coming still so messy lol

Never too late to make it right

They say when you have problems outside family plays a part but when family have problem then who plays a part..

I feel so fucking useless now...not that I want to shout at my mum..if I talk normal she can't hear then shout but not in angry tone she dulan me..now she has to take care of my father and sis and she herslef is also in no good state..I really want to end this right now...but it's irresponsible of me to do that..but wat can I do?? Lost..standard..

back from shopping cny clothes...abit sad cos recoil didnt haven the shirt of my size..last piece only L...total bought 4 shirts $70+ fly..pain..

tml got school sad lol...wed common test HF..and i haven studied...AOP report not yet touched..GG.

Didn't manage to wake up go school just now...failed.. Dam.. Disapointed...now I feel so useless.. Wake up makan then night liao... Didn't do anything today...haiz...maybe tonight I go shop for my new year clothes..

dame bored naos...just now slack awhile with soon amanda and jeolyn..saw imran! omg so long no see him le..yea..talk cock alot..pool awhile at plaza then back to bliss..

carson! ytd u jio me go drink then just now i call u never answer..argh...

now at plaza with kon only..played l4d..clear the map too fast lol..nothing do..thanks kon man...didnt want me to be alone for whole night..kena lock out from house...thanks..

fuck..so moodless..suddenly mood so numb...i know i hope this wont last..cny here...

i show my emotions too easily...when im troubled...soon will know..ask me why emo..when im happy..im really laughing from the bottom of my heart...is this a good thing? or is it time to grow up?

back from market...lol...after 2 weeks going market..realised i really dunnoe how to communicate with the ppl there..i told the fish uncle i want this this this fish then another auntie came in and told him she want this this this fish he immediately take for her...then after awhile my turn...i think this is call regular customer..lol...they talk dialect..i know abit but dunno how to talk..maybe should learn more..those ppl there are really helpful..thanks man..

i dunno why now i like going to the market...like long lost feeling...still remember those days i go market with my father...walking home from market breathing in fresh air...watching birds eating on grass...feel the cool breeze..refreshing siol..okaaay random

shit i forgot wat i wanted to say back then i was on my way home...hate it!

hectic week alert! this week is so gonna be busy..




little things that made life great..yet we didnt realise it

today work was also same like ytd..super bored..alot troublesome customer...drink and vomit type..throw mug somemore..ytd got 1 throw bucket also..after work didnt drink as soon no buy liquor..so pool at plaza..now just back...going market later on..dam the list is so long this week..think gonna take a trolley with me later..i look like a ah pek..lol

layyen hope u will find ur soul back...i wanna hear u meowing~ again

if later come back i no tired i might want to go shop for my cny clothes..IF LAH LOL..

JUST get back up when love knocks you down

actually i care

today went to school at 3pm...dam sian...project not working sudenly...want die say die..sian 1/2...report still not yet done...wed common test...monday no school..wat a eventful week next week..cny coming...i dun have the mood looking forward to it like the past few years...valentines and cny on same day..great..

work is boring just now...fucked up new machine...too intelligent until all of us kena fooled by it...time pass very slow...sibei moodless...

im kind of affected by all the people around me...when my friends are happy my mood brightens up...when they are down..my mood also goes down with them...cheer up ppl...u know i love u ppls

tml after work im ffree to drink..but maybe not so much cos going to market after that..same as last week..ima good boi!

why is it there is always a big negative point in every beautiful things i see...

today work was boring..time pass quite slow but as it was payday so it was OK LOL..dam happy cause work 106 hours...earn quite alot..so gonna save up..gonna use it wisely..after work drank abit in front with kun and andy they all..dam seng..we chiong the whole tower lol..after that pool..keep losing as everything i see all giddy de..lol..after that jalex come my house do his ipod stuff..

school at 3pm tml...dam nice..2hour lab then release..lol..then off to work..hope tml work will be (Y)!

cause if i had to go
in my heart you'll grow
and thats where you belong

maybe i just wanna fly
i wanna live i dont wanna die
maybe i just wanna breathe
maybe i just dont believe
maybe you're the same as me
we see things they never see
you and i are gonna live forever

argh...skip morning lecture as i was working on the report last night..but still like not enuf luh...dam and tml is the deadline..shoulder like want to break liao...haven been sleeping well for so long...i think i need to get a new pillow lol...

k gotta prepare for school naos

today total slack in school...1030 break till 1pm..went to amk makan with other class..and pool too!..so fun i like! after tat back to tutorial then home..bought alot things today..veg and alot canned food..lol..and also some vcd for my father to watch in case he too bored...now im so worn out..and have to finish a report by fri...which means i have to start now!

i wannt to go somewhere faraway..where i can sleep all i want!! away from everything for just that moment




Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneath the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a beautiful smile
Can stay for a while
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right
My beautiful love

I'm so proud of my dad..walking on clutches is no easy thing..esp when u are very heavy and have a metal rod inside you..I promise I will be a good boy..I will go market every weekend and mop the floor every 2 days..slow down everything dad..u need a long break from work

I have to manage my money well from now..news year stuff and daily expenses already burn a big hole in my pocket and it's still burning..I need some planning dawg!!!

TOE-MAY-TOE!

got myself a new haircut...i tell auntie i want short but keep the style..then cut until so short!!! now i look like a idoit...sad..

father back home...now he lying on bed..i thnk hes been lying there whole day..lol..i see le also xinku..dun noe how sia...

hey apple! u look fruity hey apple hey hey..LOL SIBEI ANNOYING INDEED funny sia!! lol

only went to lab session this afternoon..dam common test next week..so last minute then know lo..good news...HF project submit le..can heck care le...but common test need study..

visited my father after school today..his casting remove le..wah seh..he tell me they put a 35cm metal rod inside the leg..so long siol..sad thing he wil be using the chopstick like thing to help him walk for the next 6 months..which means we cant go out that often le..and im going to army soon...im worried

been thinking alot..realise i attitude alot ppl who are trying to help me despite i lock myself up and shove them away...im so sorry all..i will try to make full use of the time we spent together

i want to have fun after exams...pls bring me to level up slowly..dun straight go lvl 10 hahah

feb is here! good luck to all who having exams and enjoy a brand new month!

braviest act of all : unconditional love